Love Like Winter.

[Chaos Crazy]

For the first time in my life, I feel lost. Eyes are on me with anger, when they once showed a glistening happiness. And, since my parents' seperation, it's gotten worse. When they have to meet, I have to hear them scream. They both say the faults are on me for what I did to myself. Often, I think I've messed up.

"It seems you're somewhere, far away."

Caught up in everything the world thought of me, I did things I really regret doing. I was one of those perfect girls, I would drink, and do al lot of bad things. I never got in trouble for any of it. Until one day, when someone told me how much I had messed up. A person that had once been my best friend was leaving my side, forever.
"Why are you doing this to yourself?" He teared up, and that was the last words I heard from him.
He avoided me for three days, then, without warning he was gone. I had only partially lost my best friend when I was a bad girl. But this time, I had lost him completely.

---

"Wake up you little brat."
That's my everyday wake-up call.
I pulled of my sheets, remembering what day it was. Sun poured in through my window. I checked the time. 7:30.
"Mom!"
"We're going to the airport, you're going to stay with your father in Germany."
"GERMANY?" What?
"I know it brings back bad memories from your childhood, but..." she started.
I just rolled my eyes and got ready. It was the start of summer, and I was already doubting it.

We got to the airport, where I almost crashed on the floor. She threw this news on me today? I was up most of the night. She took me to my flight, stopped, and said goodbye.
"Your father's not here, but he sent someone to ride with you."
'What, is he rich?' I thought to myself.

"Why are you doing this to yourself?"

At first, I thought I'd dreamt those bitter words. But I realized the difference in the voice, so I couldn't have dreamt it. I looked cautiously around me. Nothing.

"Over here!" A guy that I assumed to be in his mid-30s called me to him.
I followed to sit next to him. I just sat there the entire way, waiting to hear that voice that never came.

Once we made it to Magdeburg, it was a relief. It was even brighter than sunny California. It was smaller than Las Angeles, but it felt more like home her. My father opended the door as I was about to knock.
"Rachel, how great to see you!" He said, while hugging me.
Fake.
I hugged him back, and told him I was going to go refresh my memories. The first place I went to was the Kaulitz house. I'm not sure they even live there anymore. I started to cry as I approached the door. As I knocked on the door, my eyes blurred. The door opened.
"Mrs. Kaulitz, I..."

I woke up in the Kaulitz house with Simone standing beside the couch.
"Are you okay?" She asked."Hey, aren't you that one girl that used to be Bill and Tom's friend?"
I just nodded, my head was feeling a bit heavy. "Are they here right now?"
She frowned. "No, they aren't. I'm so sorry."
I came all the way here with my hopes up, not to see them at all.
Suddenly the door came open.
"Mom, Bill's being an ***!"

[luvukaulitztwins]

LOLZ BILL'S BEING AN *** :shock: THT MADE ME LAUGH MEHR BITTE

[SCHREIoutLOUD]

Mehr Mehr Mehr Bitte =]

[lilangel02371]

lol the "Bill's ebing an ***" was a nice touch more!!

[drummergirl24]

Ohh that was great! I love the last line that totally sounds like something that Tom would say...

[Tokio_Away]

lol the "Bill's ebing an ***" was a nice touch more!!
totally :D

[TH_luv]

lmao! thats funny! I want mehr,bitter?

[Chaos Crazy]

"Atleast I HAVE one."
Tom glared at Bill, Bill glared back.
"Boys, get along, your old friend is here," Simone said.
Both boys stopped fighting. Bill stared at me as though I was a total foreigner. "Who's this?"
"It's Rachel, don't you remember me?" I said shyly.
Both of the boys eyes grew wide. Tom ran up to me and pulled me into a VERY tight hug.
"Owww."
"Sorry," he said. Bill was a little more cautious around me, and I didn't blame him. I deserved the hate. He hugged me, but it was like my father's hug. Fake.
"I really should go. I told my father I wouldn't take too long."
"Did you move back?" Simone asked.
I nodded, waved, and walked out the door. I got a few blocks away before I heard someone panting and yelling my name. It was Bill. I slowed my pace, then stopped. He walked breathlessly toward me.
"Your mom tell you to walk me home?"
"No. I'm sorry. You really have changed. That makes me happy," he said.
I started to cry. "Please don't cry," he said, pulling me into a real hig this time.
I put my arms around him. He let me cry on him for what seemed like hours. I finally got home, where my dad had already started eating dinner.
"You hungry? You've been gone a while."
"Yeah, a bit. And I'm tired. I wanted to refresh my mind by seeing the whole town."
"Ah. Well there's food for you in the kitchen," he said. He wasn't mean to me like my mother, but he hated how I dressed. I don't think I'd make it with two evil(my mother's not mean, she's evil!).
I ate ramen and went to sleep. Apparently Japanese food isn't good before dreaming. It gives you nightmares.
I was dreaming that I was back at the Kaulitz house, and the boys were ignoring me completely. Even Simone didn't seem to have much intrest in seeing me. I woke up, finally.
I was crying. I looked out my window and watched the rain flood the streets. Lightning lit the sky, and thunder crashed. This was the first summer storm I've seen in a long time.
I looked at my clock, it said 5 o'clock am. I'd have an early start today. I got out of bed and went to take a shower. After my shower I fixed my hair, did my make-up, and found some clothes. My attire was black skinny jeans, a red and black top, and my vans. As usual. I went downstairs to the kitchen. My father was already downstairs.
"Morning daddy," I said.
"You're up early," he replied.
"The storm woke me up."

I watched television until the storm blew over. My dad had already went to work. I got a phone call a few hours into the day. It was him.
"Yes Daddy?" I asked.
"Your mom..." he started, sounding angry."doesn't want you to go back to New York city."
"What?! What about my friends?"
"You can come to the studio with me. There are four boys I'm sure would love to be your friend," he said.
I said okay, and hung up the phone.
I went outside, where the fog blocked my sight. Inches away from me, I saw a butterfly. I picked it up and set it in my hand. I don't usually talk to insects.
"Hey little guy. I feel like I did something wrong. Can you go give god the message, to stop all the hatred?"
And after I finished saying it, the butterfly flew straight up into the fluffy clouds.
"Evy, I know you're out there. Please help me. It killed me to lose you, but I really need you right now."
I stared up at the sky. A rainbow appeared. Maybe things were getting better. Maybe my little sister really had heard me. She had a short life, she was still a toddler when she died.
"Thank you." I said quietly. I drop of water landed on my palm, but there was no storm in sight.
I closed my eyes. "Maybe it'll be better here."

[xgennevievex]

I love it
Please write more!

[Chaos Crazy]

Rain. And it's making me sick. Magdeburg was supposed to be beautiful compared to Los Angeles. How true that is. The only thing better here is that the air isn't green, not polluted.
I walked back into my house and watched the rain. After a few minutes, I saw a figure with a black umbrella approaching my house.
"What the..."
As the person got closer, I realized it was Vivian, my old friend. I ran to the door.
"Viv. How did you find out I was back??"
"Those Bill told me."
Vivian gave me a hug and I invited her inside.

---

I had spent most of the day before with Viv. She really enjoyed having me back. Today my dad is taking me to his job to meet these four guys he thinks I might like.
We get there, and the first boy I see has short, light brown hair. The second one has barely any hair. Two others come into the room, and don't they look familiar?
"Bill! Tom!" I said hugging them both.
My dad sits there stunned, and totally clueless.
"Wait...why are you guys here??" I say. "And who are they?"
"R-rachel. They are Georg and Gustav. The truth is, we're..."
I looked down, to scared of what they would say.
"We're Tokio Hotel."
Immediatly I understood. My best friend had told me about them, but I thought they would be some J-pop band of girls.

[Chaos Crazy]

Anyone reading? I'll stop if you don't like it.

[TH_luv]

Anyone reading? I'll stop if you don't like it.

watchu talking about chaos?! continue plz I just read the parts that I havent read yet and I love it! lpz continue *does puppy dog face* bitte?

[D.C.Valentine]

Great way to catch an AFI kids eye. Great read. As the others have said, mehr bitte.

One thing I would like you to keep in mind, the word "got" is like a belch in the english language, so try to avoid using it. For example, Instead of saying, "I got a phone call," write "I received a phone call."

Keep writing.

-DCV, the writing writer-

[ChaosLy]

OMG!
I need more!
Update bitte!




Anyone reading? I'll stop if you don't like it.

watchu talking about chaos?! continue plz I just read the parts that I havent read yet and I love it! lpz continue *does puppy dog face* bitte?


>.<
This is gonna get confuzzling on teh forum.
XD

[TH_luv]

Anyone reading? I'll stop if you don't like it.




>.<
This is gonna get confuzzling on teh forum.
XD[/quote]


lmao! XD I can see what yor talking about XD

[ChaosLy]

Anyone reading? I'll stop if you don't like it.




>.<
This is gonna get confuzzling on teh forum.
XD


lmao! XD I can see what yor talking about XD[/quote]


Ja... lol.
I get called Chaos by a lot of people on this forum, other forums, and in RL.
You shoudl see me in school.
Everytime I hear Chaos I turn my head.
>.<

[TH_luv]

Ja... lol.
I get called Chaos by a lot of people on this forum, other forums, and in RL.
You shoudl see me in school.
Everytime I hear Chaos I turn my head.
>.<


lol ja that can get confusing XD...hmmm how can we fix this?...call you Chaos#1 and Chaoscrazy Chaos#2 XD

[mashinkaTH]

i wish sumthing like that reely did happen to 1 of us. thatd be cool. :)
tom is such a tattle tale in ur story,lmao, i bet bill in real life was the bigger tattle tale,lol.

[ChaosLy]

Ja... lol.
I get called Chaos by a lot of people on this forum, other forums, and in RL.
You shoudl see me in school.
Everytime I hear Chaos I turn my head.
>.<


lol ja that can get confusing XD...hmmm how can we fix this?...call you Chaos#1 and Chaoscrazy Chaos#2 XD

p
XDDD
LMFAO...


I would end up forgetting to answer to that.
>.<

[TH_luv]

lol ja that can get confusing XD...hmmm how can we fix this?...call you Chaos#1 and Chaoscrazy Chaos#2 XD

p
XDDD
LMFAO...


I would end up forgetting to answer to that.
>.<

lol ja,you'd have to get used to 2 nicknames lol

[D.C.Valentine]

Hmmm.......he bit my lip and drank my war from years before..........

I love this title. This is my favorite story just because of the title.

-DCV-

[Chaos Crazy]

Aww Thankyou!!! ^^ Love the avatar! You must have NO IDEA how much i love Davey :)
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"Tokio Hotel?" I had to process it."Why did you keep this from me?"
Bill and Tom were speechless, so one of the other boys talked for them.
"They were afraid you would be angry that they were famous. Maybe jealous."
"Angry? Jealous?" I almost yelled.
And then that icy feeling swept through me, they way they always did in nightmares. This time it was different though. I knew if this was a dream that it wasn't a nightmare.
"I'm so sorry!" Bill said.
I hid my expression.
"Me too!" Tom added.
"Guys, don't apologize. I probably would have done the same thing if I were either of you.
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Forgive my shortness[lol] in chapter. I can't think today, but I'll add more VERY soon.

[Haley1018]

This is great!!! Post more soon!

[Chaos Crazy]

Really?! Thank you! I plan to post more before the end of today!

[tiklemepurple]

<333
!
More.
!

[amandaaraujo]

I absolutley adore this story... That was amazing i think im head over heels with this fF ill wait untill you update today.

[Let's be Tigers]

woo. i love it.
write more. please.

oh and i love davey havok as much as i love tokio hotel.
davey havok is plastered all along my walls. =]

[britta-ney]

*New Reader*
This is positively amazing.
Please add more soon!
brie