Sadness in His Eyes. [Completed.] I got lazy sorry guys. >_<

[Jess_Kaulitz]

This is too much.
I can’t EVEN think straight.
This pain is killing me.
I’m numb…I need to get him out of my head; I can’t keep on thinking about him.
He made his choice and it’s obvious I was never part of the plan to begin with.
God please help me…lock my heart up and never let anybody else in…NEVER AGAIN let anyone else in. [rain begins to fall] I need a drink…this night is going to be a long one. [Walking into a small coffee shop] “I’m sorry honey but we’ll be closing in a couple of [looking up at me] WHOA… honey are you okay…can I help you with anything?” [smiling at the waitress]”I take it I look that bad...huh?”. “Well… actually yes…yes you do dear, what in the world happened to you! Did you get robbed? You know you shouldn’t really be out this late…especially alone!”[I gave her a weak smile]
If she only knew that the last thing on my mind right now was the time, or anything else for that matter. “No, I didn’t get robbed ma’am…I’m fine. I just came in for a cup of coffee.” “This late into the night? It’s almost midnight, are you sure that’s you’re okay?”
“Yes ma’am really I’m fine…just need some coffee is all…it’s going to be a long night.”
[The waitress picks up the last couple of plates from one of the tables] “Well since you say that you’re okay…then I guess there’s nothing else left to do then…BILL!!!” she yells. I hear a voice yell back; “WHAT MOM?” “Bill, honey can you get in here, we have a customer!” From the back of the shop, I see a slim boy emerge. He comes up to the counter, with a doubtful look on his face,” a customer, this late…but it’s almost midnight, who the world would still be [he finally notices me] …oh umm I see.” What he does next makes my heart skip for some reason, he smiles at me. For an instant his smile makes the pain a little less painful, I look down and stare at the counter. “So umm what can I get for you?” I’m forced to look up…”a cup of coffee, black”…his smile drops
and gazes at me intently, his eyes full of confusion. I must have come off as a *****, GREAT. “…umm will that be all?” he asks, looking a bit uncomfortable This time I try my best to sound polite, I smile weakly at him, and he seems to notice my effort, his smile returns,” Yea,that’ll be all...how much do I owe you?” “Don’t worry, it’s on the house” “Oh no, I couldn’t possibly accept that…” [I’m cut off by the waitress/his mother] “Nonsense honey, it’s seems to us you have more things to worry about.” I smile once more at her and thank her. Bill hands me my coffee,” You know...”he begins to say, but then thinks about it more thoroughly and stops. He looks back up at me, and once again gives me an intense glare, and I notice the color of his eyes for the first time, almost a transparent hue of brown. In a daze I take my coffee thank them both once more and leave… I walk the streets for a couple more hours before finally going home. In my bed now I keep thinking of Bill…. he seems to have the same look in his eyes, as I do….sadness.




STILL' HAYLEY's POV

The sunlight slipped into my room, early the next morning, I didn’t gotten much sleep. All night long the memories of last night kept reappearing. Jason and Leslie, the two people I loved the most had betrayed me. My boyfriend of 2 years had been seeing my bestfriend friend behind my back for God knows how long. And the worst part of it all was that neither one of them really seemed to care about the fact that they were hurting me. In fact when I walked in on them last night, they seemed almost amused at my reaction. As if they were trying so hard not to laugh in my face, for being so naïve.
“Ugh…I need some coffee”.... I remember the boy from the coffee shop... Bill. For some strange reason, I have the urge to see him again. Why? I’m not quite sure, but all I know is that I need to get out of here, and clear my head. So I get out of bed and clean my self up, and head down to that coffer shop. As soon as I walk in I see him behind that counter, he looks up at me and smiles. “Hey you, are you feeling any better?” For a second I’m dumbstruck. His smile is that mesmerizing. “Umm yea…thanks for asking.” I’m surprised he even remembers me, then again the way I looked last night, might not be so easy to forget >_<* “I never did get your name” he asks. “Hayley, [I smiled] my name’s Hayley.” “Hayley”, he repeats, “I’m Bill.” He sticks his hand out so I can shake it. I do just that, his touch is like ice against my skin. For some reason I blush. I look up at him, and once again find him staring at me, with those intense eyes. “Can I ask you something” he says. Dazed by his stare, all I manage out as a response is a mere nod. “Who hurt you last night?” I let go of his grip, and break our gaze. I look down; I don’t want to talk about it I tell him. He leans in closer to me, just enough for his lips to caress my ear, “I’m sorry, for bringing it up” he whispers, it sends chills down my spine. He let’s out a nervous laugh, I look up and he’s staring at me, his eyes full of sincere regret. It’s hard to explain, this boy, he wears tight shirts, heavy eye make-up, lion’s main of hair, and from a distant you might even confuse him for a girl. But up-close, he is so **** beautiful, almost god like. He is definitely different from any other boy I have ever met. Oh my god, he’s looking at me funny, CRAP I knew I was staring too long. “So Hayley, any thing I can get you?” he asks. I almost forget what I came in here for. “Umm yea I was about to order…” [he cuts me off] ”Let me guess, another cup of black coffee?” [>_<*] “Umm no actually I think I’ll have some hot chocolate instead.” [He smiles] He seriously needs to stop, that smile of his is making my heart feel all jumpy. “So, then I guess you really are feeling better!” He lets out the cutest laugh. I smile an actual smile; it only makes his smile even bigger. God, what am I doing, I’m suppose to be heartbroken, why am I finding it so EASY to feel happy around this boy? My smile drops, and from the look on Bill’s face, I guess he can tell I’m back to feeling down again.


Bill’s POV

Did I do something wrong? Why did she stop smiling? “Hayley, did I do something wrong?” Her eyes grow wide “OH NO NO NO, sorry, I didn’t mean to confuse you Bill, it’s just…that….last night…never mind.” She smiles weakly at me. God she’s beautiful. I bet she’d be even more beautiful is she was happy. Who in the world could have made her so sad? Thinking about her pain makes me frown. “Bill? ...are you okay?” she asks. I snap out of it…”Umm hehe yea sorry I guess I spaced out, so you said you wanted hot chocolate right?” “Yea that’s right, hey can I ask you something?” “Yea of course” I smile at her, she gives me the cutest look, like if she was in a daze of something, it catches me off guard. why she’s looking at me like that ?(JEEZ BILL DO YOU OWN A MIRROR! >_<…HEHE SORRY NOW BACK TO THE STORY). She snaps out of it. ”Umm I noticed you have an accent, so I was wondering where you were from?” “Oh well, I was born and raised in Germany, Madgeburg to be exact.” “Oh wow, all the way form Germany, you and your family decided to move here?” I shake my head “No not my whole family, just me and my mom….”

HAYLEY’S POV

“No not my whole family, just me and my mom….my brother, and step dad…” He doesn’t finish the rest. All of sudden I notice his eyes filling up with tears. CRAP I had brought up the WRONG subject. Oh my god what do I do?!?! “Bill, oh my god I’m so so so sorry!” His eyes find mine, the sadness in them has returned. I feel like **** now. The look in his eyes says it all, he’s hurting. For some strange reason it kills me to know this now. Without thinking I reach up and wipe the tears from his eyes. He smiles. But his eyes don’t lose their sadness. “So I guess I should probably get you, your hot chocolate now?”
I can’t help but smile…

[Jess_Kaulitz]

Bill hands me my hot chocolate. “Thank you.” “No problem.” I take the drink, “Hey listen Bill, I really am sorry for bring back sad memories…it wasn’t my intention to make you hurt.” He lets out a sigh “I know it’s just…I’ve never really talked about it, at least not since I’ve been here, but I guess next time we see each other, I’ll have the strength to tell you, and maybe YOU can tell me WHO made YOU hurt.” I find myself feeling excited and sad at the same time. Excited to know he wants to see me again, and sad because I know that our next conversation won’t be an easy one. I sigh and start to get my wallet out, but Bill’s hand stops me. “Don’t worry about it” he says. Not again. This time I’m determined to pay for my drink. “Bill you can’t keep going around giving free drinks to all of your customers, you’ll end up broke.” He chuckles, “I don’t do it to all of our customers, just my special one,” he winks at me. My heart begins to race. Did I hear him right? Did he say SPEACIAL ONE? As in only me? No I must have heard wrong. I need to calm down; I think he’s beginning to notice. Just then his mom comes through the front door. She’s cursing in what I’m guessing is German, she notices me and stops. She smiles at me and apologizes, “Honey! You’ve returned, Bill tell me you’ve treated our customer well.” Bill groans, “Yes mom, I told you I can handle the counter.” He gives me an annoyed look, “I have one bad experience with a customer and she thinks I can’t handle the counter.” I let out a small laugh. This takes him and his mom by surprise. “Well Bill, I guess you can handle the counter, if you were able to get her to laugh.”
“See I told you mom.” I smile at both of them. “Oh honey how rude of Bill for not introducing us!” Bill gives his mom a dirty look “Bill have I taught you no manners…I’m Mrs. Kaulitz, but you can call me Shannon, and you are?” “Hayley,” I respond. She comes over and gives me a hug. I’m really beginning to like Bill’s mom. “Hayley! Nice to meet you! I’m glad you’re feeling better honey, because last night you looked absolutely HORRIBLE!”[-__-…LOL AT BILL’S MUTTI] I start to blush really hard. Bill notices and begins to yell at his mom. “Mom, your embarrassing her!” Mrs. Kaulitz let’s go of me, “Oh Hayley dear. I’m so sorry that’s not what I meant!” She looks embarrassed herself. I smile, “Its okay Mrs. Kaulitz, I can just imagine how bad I looked last night.”
“Well I better get going, thanks for the hot chocolate Bill, but next time I AM paying for it.” I try my best to give him a stern look so he understands how seriously I mean it. I must have failed miserably, because all he does is chuckle. “Yea sure whatever you say Hayley.” From the corner of my eye I notice Mrs. Kaulitz staring at both us with a huge smile on her face, I guess that’s where Bill gets his from, I don’t understand why though. I head for the door and open it, I wave goodbye to both of them, but not before Mrs. Kaulitz makes me promise to her I’ll return later for some coffee. I promise to do just that and walk out…

CRAP what time is it?!?! Omg it’s almost 10! I am so going to get fired! I spent too much time getting my hot chocolate that I lost complete track time! Mr. Smith is not going to be too happy about this. Ugh even though I hate my job, I need the money. My mom just left for another ‘romantic getaway’ with her boyfriend. So I’m kind of tight in the money department. Oh Jesus please let Mr. Smith come in late to the bookstore, so he doesn’t notice I’m late. CRAP. He’s there! [ >_<] I’m DEAD. “Hey Mr. Smith” I say nervously as I walk into his bookstore. He doesn’t look too happy, “Hayley you’re late,” he says as he looks at his watch. Quick think of an excuse. “Umm…you see Mr. Smith, it wasn’t my fault…I had a huge crisis to take care off!” I try my best to sound sincere. “Did your huge crisis involve stopping for a drink” he says, while pointing to my hot chocolate. BUSTED. “Umm…ummm,” I stutter out. “EXACTLY, Hayley I’m afraid I can’t keep on going through this with you, I’m going to have to let you go.” Did I just get fired? Oh CRAP. “But Mr. Smith I swear to you that I will NEVER be late again,” I promise, meaning every word of it. “Your tardiness isn’t the only thing I’m talking about Hayley; I’ve gotten several complaints from customers.” What in the world is he talking about, I’ve never had ANY bad encounters with ANY of the customers, I tell him. “That is not what they’ve told me.” “Well who’s they?” I demand. He point’s toward the door, “Well honey, here they come right now.” I turn around, only to see Jason and Leslie walking through hand in hand, full of smiles. They both look at me, Leslie whispers something into Jason’s ear, and they start to laugh. I can feel the tears start to fall down my face. The pain in my chest has returned, my heart breaks into even smaller pieces. How could the two people, who had meant the world to me, be hurting me this way? Especially Leslie, she was like a sister to me. I look her in the eyes; her look is cold, with no sense of remorse or emotion for me whatsoever. I look at Jason, and for a moment I think I see regret in his eyes, Leslie pulls his arm, and the look of regret is gone. I’ve had enough; I don’t even attempt to save my job anymore. I walk out of the bookstore. I hear Mr. Smith call out for me. I take one final look inside. They kiss. I die just a little more inside….


BILL’S POV

She laughed. I actually made Hayley laugh. God her laugh is beautiful. For the first time in a long time, I start to feel…I don’t know…happy. I smile. If only Tom were here, I bet he’d be chasing after her in a heart beat. I laugh, imagining my brother trying to hit on her. For a minute I lose myself in my thoughts. But reality once again forces me to come back, “**** IT TOM!” I yell, as angry tears begin to form. I still can’t believe it happened .Why him. God if anyone deserved what happened; it sure as **** wasn’t my brother. I try to hold back my tears but it’s no use, I already feel them running down my face. I need to call Gustav or Georg; I need to know if there has been ANY change whatsoever in TOM. I pick up the phone and begin to dial Gustav’s number. “Bill?” “Hey Gustav, yea it’s me.” “OMG Bill, what the **** happened, you haven’t called in months!” I can hear the shock in his voice. “Yea, I know, it’s just…I didn’t think I’d be able to handle it…you know.” “Yea I know.” He says. I knew he’d understand. We take a few minute to catch up, he asks how my mom’s doing, I tell him she’s hanging in there, I ask him how he and Georg have been, and they say they’re trying to do the same. He tells me that he and Georg are worried about me, I tell them they shouldn’t, I’m not the one tied to a hospital bed like my brother. I ask him if there has been any change in Tom’s condition. I can barely get it out. He says he can’t understand me, “I said, has there been any change in Tom’s condition,” I barely whisper it. He hears me this time. I hear him sigh over the phone. At that moment I know the answer, and my eyes begin to water once more. I don’t wait for him to tell me. I hang up the phone. Just then my mom walks in. I turn my back to her and wipe away my tears; I just hope she doesn’t notice. “Bill, we have a problem.” Great even more. I sigh and turn to face her. I try my best to not let my voice crack. “What is it mom?” “Jackie quit.” “What? Why?” I ask. “She wouldn’t say. She let’s out a long sigh,” Bill with the way business is picking up, we can’t handle the shop by ourselves, we need another waitress fast.” I can see she’s trying to hold back tears. I sigh, knowing she’s right, my head begins to hurt, the day keeps on getting worse. My mom looks like she’s about to lose it, it kills me to see her this way, with Tom, and now this, my mother is heading for a breakdown if things don’t start look up soon. I hold her in my arms, as she begins to cry, my heart feels like its being torn out of me, with every tear my mom cries. I look up, why us God? Why? ...


HAYLEY’S POV

I can’t breathe again.
My chest is throbbing.
My heart feels like it’s about to explode.
I never imagined someone could even hurt like this. It’s insane. Why God? Why?
My day had begun on such a high note, why the **** did I have to run into THEM?
I stop walking; tears I’ve been holding back begin to fall, as I notice where I’m at.
Wiggins Park, I had stopped at the exact stop where Jason and I had met, 3 years ago.
****. I’m shaking. I try to control myself, but it’s useless, I try to stop the memories that are resurfacing, I can’t. I start to remember ever detail of my time spent with Jason. The way he would make me laugh, the day we first met, I laugh. He almost killed me that day, he was on his stupid skateboard and I wasn’t paying attention, we crashed. At first I was so ****** off that I cussed him out, but when I looked up at him, I felt it; he was going to be my one. From then on we became so close, and for the next year he became my everything; my shoulder to cry on when things with my mom were bad, my shopping buddy, my best friend. A year after meeting him, he asked me out here, at this exact spot.
We then craved our names on this tree. I run my fingers over our names, even more tears fall down my face, I’m now shaking uncontrollably. “Hayley?” I freeze, as I instantly recognize his voice, still I pray, God please don’t let it be him. “Hayley, what’s wrong, are you okay?” Angry tears begin to form, I snap. “NO JASON I’M NOT OKAY!” I yell. I turn to face him. His face is full of mixed emotions, none of which I can make out. “Hayley…” he whispers, I look up at him, “…Hayley we need to talk.” I try to walk around him, but he grabs on to me. I scream at him to let me go, he’s not budging, “Jason, please, I’m begging you I can’t, I can’t look at you, I can’t talk to you, please just let me go!” I yell through tears. But he doesn’t listen, so I start to hit him across his chest, “LET GO OF ME!” “NO! Not until I explain to you what happened Hayley… [he cups my face into his hands and stares deeply into my eyes]…please,” he whispers, “let me explain.” And with just one look, I collapse into his embrace; he wraps his arms around me, as I begin to sob uncontrollably. I know I should leave, that there is nothing he can say to erase what he’s done, but my heart still wants to believe, it still hopes that we can fix it. My heart still loves Jason….

[Mz.Kaulitz483]

i love that fanfic but i think ur missing some chapters right :roll: corect me if im wrong

[Jess_Kaulitz]

hmmmmmmmmmmm

this is going to take a while

[Jess_Kaulitz]

i love that fanfic but i think ur missing some chapters right :roll: corect me if im wrong
ummm crap..are they not in order
>_<
...hmmm i'm not done posting the whole thing yet...
lol...is that what you mean?

[Jess_Kaulitz]

BILL’S POV

After all the stuff that went on, my mom is finally calm, so I tell her I’m going to walk around to clear my mind. She tells be to be careful, and to make sure I don’t forget about the fact that Hayley’s coming over for coffee in a bit, I smile at her “How can I forget, mom.” This makes her smile, “you really like her, don’t you Bill?” I blush, “yea I really do, is that weird?” My mom laughs, “oh honey why in the world, would you think that?!?!” I blush even harder, “…well because, I’ve only know her since last night.” “Bill when you meet the one who’s meant for you, you know it, and it doesn’t matter if you known her all your life, or just met her last night. You’ll know it.” I laugh, and hug my mom, God I love her. “Well, let’s just hope she shows up for the coffee mom, and then we’ll see about the rest.” I give her one last hug, before I leave.
Hayley, can she really me the one for me? I don’t want to get my hopes up, not again anyways. The last time I swore I was in love, I ended up with a broken heart; I don’t want to go through that again. But then again, the look in Hayley’s eyes in different…SHE’S different, I feel something when we lock eyes….I think of her face, and her smile, my heart stops for a second, yep she’s definitely different….


STILL BILL’S POV
I walk around the park, without really paying attention to where I’m going; I can’t stop thinking of Tom. I still can’t understand why it had to happen to him. I find a bench near the back of the park, where it’s almost deserted, and its here where I let it all out. Angry tears once again begin to form, only this time I don’t hold them back, my chest begins to hurt, I start to shake, I miss my brother. I NEED him back in my life, GOD please bring him back into my life. I can’t keep on pretending to be strong. I can’t be the strong one, that’s his job. He would know exactly how to make mom feel better, I don’t, seeing mom like how she got today, KILLS me, Tom was always the stronger brother, he was my protector, how can I possibly know how to handle any of this?!?!?! “URGHHHH!!!!” I let out a frustrated yell. I get up and decide to head back to the shop, walking around
wasn’t helping my headache or my problems….

HAYLEY’S POV….
I still stood locked in Jason’s embrace. His scent brought back so many memories.
God I must really have no self worth. How can I still love him? Why can I NOT hate him? I NEED to hate him, or else this pain is going to get the best of me.
I unlock myself from Jason’s hold and look up at him. He has tears running down his face. It catches me completely off guard, without even thinking it, I find myself wiping his tears away, at the same time he reaches down and does the same to me. This makes us both laugh…God I MISS him. Why? How? He cheated I repeat to myself. He cheated.
The pain in my chest returns. I begin to shake again, through tears I look up at Jason; emotions I’ve been trying to erase all come rushing back. I try so hard to stop myself from the urge, too late. In an instant our lips lock. For a minute I forget everything, tears are streaming down my face, Jason wraps his arms around my waste and holds me close…this is going to be our last kiss I tell myself, it’s my final goodbye to him…I want to believe my own words so badly. After what seems like eternity I push away from him, without even looking at him, I turn my back to him and stare at the ground, I tell him to leave… he says I need to explain what the **** just happened, I ignore him, he gives up and walks away….what happened is that, somewhere deep in my heart, I still love Jason.
Somewhere in there, a small part of my heart still beats only for him…. but I won’t let that part take over me, I need to forget him…
….I look up… only to find Bill staring at me…we lock eyes. My eyes widen as I recognize the look on his face…pain. My heart begins to race. Why is he looking at me like that? Omg, why isn’t he saying anything? It can’t possibly be my fault that he’s like that? .... Can it?
“Bill? Are you okay?” I nervously ask….






BILL’S POV

“Bill? Are you okay?” she asks. No, I thought you were different, I think, but I don’t say a word. “Bill? ...please say something!” Hayley begs. She runs up to me… she takes my hand “BILL WHAT’S WRONG!?!” I look down at her; I can tell she’s been crying, her eyes are full of confusion and fear. Why? I don’t know. I try to calm myself down. Don’t do it I tell myself…it’s really none of your business I repeat to myself, let it go Bill. Too late, “Who was that?” I ask, hoping she doesn’t catch the jealously and bitterness in my tone. Her eyes widen, and the look of confusion leaves her eyes. CRAP, she had caught it. She squeezes my hand tight and looks to the ground before answering me, “He’s the one who made me hurt,” she whispers. The jealously begins to disappear and the confusion starts to take over. I replay the images I just saw. But she kissed him, SHE kissed him, it was Hayley who kissed him, not the other way around, “but you kissed him?” I lift up her face. “Yea, I know,” she whispers, as she beings to blush. She still isn’t looking at me. “Hayley, I don’t get it, if he made you hurt, than why’d you kiss him?” She looks up, her eyes filled with such sadness, it breaks my heart. “Because I’m STUPID, Bill!” Hayley lets go of my hand and turns away from me. She starts to shake, I turn her around to face me, she’s crying uncontrollably. I take her and hold her close to me; she rests her head against my chest. Anger begins to form, whatever that asshole did must have completely killed her, and yet she STILL loved him…..
And knowing this killed me…..



HAYLEY’S POV
“Because I’m STUPID, Bill!” I turn around so he won’t see me cry. I start to shake again. I feel Bill’s hands on my shoulders as he turns me to face him. So much for not wanting him to see me cry. He wraps his long arms around me and holds me close to him; I rest my head against his slender chest. I close my eyes and try to forget everything.
Bill’s grip is definitely stronger than I expected. He begins to rub my back; I keep my eyes. He begins to hum, some sort of song, I’ve never heard it before, but the sound of Bill’s humming starts to soothe me. I smile, which I am slowly starting to realize, isn’t that hard to do when I’m around him. I let out a sigh, and he stops humming, “Are you better now?” he asks, as he lets go of our embrace. “Yea, thank you Bill,” I say, a little disappointed in the fact that we’re no longer hugging. Wait, what am I saying? I really need to stop confusing myself. I love Jason, don’t I? A small voice in the back of my head says yes, well than why do I find myself feeling SO GOOD when I’m with Bill, the same voice tells me, it’s because I like him. I like him? …. I think about it for a minute. “Hayley? Hello???” I snap out of it and see Bill staring at me, a little frustrated, opps. “Umm yea…yea...sorry I was just thinking…you were saying?” He gives me a warm smile, which once again causes my heart to feel all jumpy. The voice is right; I can’t deny that I do like him. “I SAID, that it’s getting late.” I finally notice our surroundings, the streets lights are on and the sun has already set. “… and I was wondering if you’re still coming over for coffee?” I remember the promise I made to Mrs. Kaulitz about stopping by later for some coffee. I sigh, I’m not really in the mood to go, I have too much on my mind, if I go I’d probably just ruin her night. I guess Bill understands what I’m thinking, because his smile has dropped, “So I guess judging by that look on you’re face, that you’re not coming over?” I look at him, he looks disappointed. Was he really that excited to have me over? “Bill, I’m so sorry….it’s just that with everything that happened today, I’m not really in the mood.”
I smile weakly at him, hoping he realizes that I’m being sincere. The look of disappointment is still there, he looks up into the sky and doesn’t make eye contact, when he answers, “it’s fine, don’t worry about it.” Was he mad at me because I was no longer coming over? I laugh. He looks at me with a hurt look on his face. So he was mad. “Bill, don’t you think you’re a little too old to be throwing tantrums?” I say mockingly while giving him a grin. His eyes grow wide and he starts to blush. “Just because I’m canceling the plans with your mom, doesn’t mean I forgot what you told me this morning.” His smile returns, “I already told you who made me hurt; now it’s your turn,”
I say with a little less enthusiasm in my voice, as I remember the fact that our pending conversation, isn’t going to be an easy one for him. Bill still has the smile on his face, although the smile in his eyes has disappeared. “What are you saying then?” he asks, already knowing the answer. “I’m saying that tonight you and I are going to spend it together [he gives me a smirk] [I give him a glare]…DON’T get your hopes up, I DON’T mean it in that way.” He laughs. GOD, can you please tell my stupid heart to stop skipping every time this boy does that, I’M SUPPOSED TO BE HEARTBROKEN.
I laugh along with him. He stops and looks deeply into my eyes “For what it’s worth Hayley…he didn’t deserve you.” I forget how to breathe; I can feel my eyes begin to water. “No, don’t cry, that wasn’t my intention,” Bill tells me with a sad look on his face.
I wipe the tears away, “Bill, thank you, you can’t possibly understand how good it feels to hear that.” He smiles at me, and holds his hand out for me to take it; instead I stand on my tip toes and give him a kiss on his cheek. It completely catches him off guard; he touches his cheek and smiles. He grabs my hand; we turn and leave the park, “where are we going?” I ask. He looks down to me and smiles, “does it really matter?” I smile back at him, and shake my head.
Maybe losing Jason was for the best……



BILL POV

She kissed me…. it was just a kiss on the cheek, but still, her lips touched my face. I can’t believe it, Hayley kissed me. I’m stilling holding on to her hand, I look down at her, “Hayley, do you mind if we stop at a payphone, to call my mom, and tell her we’re not going to make it?” I ask. She looks up at and shakes her head, “of course I don’t mind Bill, here you can use my phone!” she says as she hands it to me. I thank her and take it, as soon as it hits my hand; her eye widen, “Bill wait!” I give her a confused look, and flip her phone open to begin dialing, I stop and look at it. “Bill, can I please see my phone?” I’m still staring at it, it was a picture of her and the guy from the park, they looked HAPPY, her smile was huge and her eyes had no trace of sadness in them whatsoever. She takes the phone out of my hand, while the look she had in the picture replays in my head. She pushes a couple buttons and then hands me back her phone, “okay now it’s all better!” she says as she breaks into a smile. I flip her phone back open and find the old picture gone. I look at her with a questioning look, “Hayley, you didn’t have to do this, just because I’m here.” I tell her. She laughs, “Oh I know, I did it because I wanted to. [She stops and gives me a serious look] … Bill a day ago I lost the two most important people in my life, I NEED to realize that no matter how much I still love them, they’re no longer part of my life.” She sighs. So I WAS right, she still loved him. I can’t help but sigh. Maybe I am falling too quickly for her. What she needs right now is a friend; and I need to start understanding that, even if it’s not what I want to give her. I feel Hayley let go of my hand, I look at her with a confused look. She gives me a reassuring smile, “I just want to give you some privacy, to talk to your mom.” “Oh,” is all I get to say before she walks away leaving me, to talk with my mom. I dial the shop’s number, “Hello?” I hear my mom answer, “Hey mom it’s me, listen I’m calling to tell you that Hayley and I won’t be coming over for coffee after all.” “Oh really??” I can hear the concern in her voice, “Bill whatever you two plan, make sure you use protection.” [ -___-‘] Seriously who did my mom think I was, Tom? “Mom it’s nothing like that, we’re just going to talk, and try to get to know each other better, that’s it.” I tell her. “Well honey, please just make sure that when you two are ‘getting to know each other better’ you do the responsible thing, ok?”
I give up, she was obliviously unaware of which twin she was talking to, “ ok, sure mom I promise to be responsible,” and with that I tell her goodnight, and promise her to be home early…. Thank god Hayley was a few feet away, having my mom think I’m some type of sex animal was bad enough, but explaining it to Hayley, would be TORTURE
-___-‘…..…. As I hang up the phone, it begins to vibrate. JASON, it reads. “Hayley, someone’s calling you!” I yell. “Answer it please, it’s probably my mom,” she yells back, as she walks into a gas station across the street, “I’ll buy us some drinks!” “But…” too late she’s already inside.
“Hello? …” is all I can get out before being cut off. “..Wait… you’re not Hayley, who the **** is this!” I hear this Jason guy, yell through the other line. “Bill,” I respond. “Bill? What the **** are you doing answering my girlfriends phone!” Girlfriend? “Girlfriend? ... Hayley’s your girlfriend?” I repeat. “Yes GIRLFRIEND, put her on,” he demands. So this was the asshole that had broken her heart. If first impression count, than she defiantly deserves better than this. “I’m afraid I can’t do that,” I say with a smirk on my face. “AND WHY THE **** IS THAT?” he yells, this Jason guy really needed to stop yelling at me. “She not here at the moment, she inside getting us some drinks.” “WHAT DO YOU MEAN ‘US’?” he yells back, I can tell that he’s about to lose it. So I decide to make him snap, “US, as in me and Hayley, we’re going to be hanging out TOGETHER tonight,” I hear him let out an angry yell, my smirk turns into a huge smile, and with that I hang up the phone. [Haha sneaky Bill!] “So who was it?” I hear Hayley ask, I turn around to face her. I should lie and tell her it was a wrong number, but somehow I can’t find myself doing it, so I tell her the truth, “Jason.” Her eyes widen in shock or horror, I can’t tell. “Jason?!?!?” she asks as she snatches her phone out of my hand. “What did he want?!?” “He wanted to talk to you,” I say, a little taken back by her interest in his call. She gives me a questioning look, “well…what did you tell him?” I freeze, crap should I lie to her? No I can’t do it, but what if she gets mad at me? Still Bill you have to tell her. My good side wins. “I told him, you weren’t here, at the moment,” I stutter nervously, “mmm hmm, what else?” she asks, showing absolutely no emotion what so ever, ****! Was she mad? “ He asked why, and I told him, you were buying us some drinks, he asked what I meant when I said ‘us’, so…I …told him that …you and me…were going to be hanging out tonight.” I’m beginning to sweat, “Please don’t me mad Hayley, I…” I get cut off by her laughter, “Bill why in the world would I be mad at you?!?” She looks up at me, “You did the right thing!” I relax and let out a sigh. Thank God she wasn’t upset. “So are you ready to go?” I ask. She nods, “Oh here! I didn’t know what you like so I got you a coke, I hope that’s okay?” I took the drink, I look down at her, GOD she’s adorable, I wanted to hug her so bad, but I resisted the urge, “That’s perfect.” I smile at her and hold my other hand out. Her warm touch feels good against my cold skin. “So where do you start?” she asks. “What?”I look down at her confused. “Your story, remember…” she whispers, “you never finished telling me what made you hurt?” I freeze. She stops walking and looks up at me, sadness in her eyes, “…you don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to Bill, I’ll understand.” Tears have already begun to form in my eyes. I feel her hand reach up and wipe them away. She smiles weakly at me, “Forget, we won’t talk about it, I’m sorry I even brought it up.” I remove her hand from face and hold it, “No, I need to talk about it.” I squeeze her hand. “I’m tired of holding back my tears Hayley.” I take a deep breath and smile at her, at first she doesn’t look too convinced, “Bill are you sure?” “Completely.” I reassure her. She smiles at me, and squeezes my hand back. “Okay…if you say so.” I need to let this out, I am sick of hiding my tears, and pretending to be strong enough, when I’m not. She’ll understand…I’m sure of it. Hayley’s different I repeat to myself, I look down at her, and she gives me an encouraging smile. I let out a deep breath, “It happened almost a year ago...”

[Jess_Kaulitz]

HAYLEY’S POV

“It happened almost a year…” Bill began to tell me. We stop walking. “It was our 17th birthday.” I look up at him; his eyes have already begun to fill up with tears, he doesn’t make eye contact with me, instead he stares straight forward, his eyes distant, and unconnected with the rest of his surroundings. “Everyone was going to be there, all our family, and friends… it was supposed to…be the best day of our lives…. [His voice cracks and he begins to shake, my heart breaks] …but my step dad had, had way too much too drink already, and him and my mom had begun to argue, over something STUPID. ” By now Bill has lost it, he’s shaking so badly, although I can’t tell if it’s from heartache or anger, my guess is both. I take his hands into mine, he holds on tight. “Bill…. You don’t have to…” I begin to whisper, but he shakes his head. “At first me and Tom didn’t think much of it, lately they had been arguing a lot, so we both assumed that by the time party started, John would be unconscious upstairs, while my mom and us attended the guests. We were wrong.” Bill begins to shake uncontrollably; I have no idea what I should do. He’s shaking so bad, he can’t even stand, he kneels to the floor, still holding on to my hands, and I do the same right beside him. He lets go of my grip, and brings his knees up to his chest and begins to rock himself back and forth. I can’t bare looking at him this way; he looks lost. Confused. The tears have sent his eyeliner into chaos. Tears begin to form in my own eyes, I kneel next to him and wrap my arms around him, he’s still shaking. “It got bad, he hit her. That asshole hit my mom… Tom snapped and started to fight John back” Bill tries to catch his breathe. “Tom was no match for him; John quickly freed himself from Tom’s grip and dashed out the door.” “I stood there holding my mom, she was a wreck….we both told Tom to let it go, that we’d let the police take care of it. But him being, him didn’t listen, he went running after John. We heard them arguing. Then a car starting, and then…. [He voices cracks as he whispers the next phrase] ….a loud thud…and my brother’s scream.” Bill finally makes eye contact with me, and I wish he hadn’t, the look he was giving me was unbearable, it was full of pain, confusion, Guilt. “I should have stopped him, Hayley, I should have done something, but I didn’t. I couldn’t. I was too scared.” He keeps his eyes locked with mine, searching for forgiveness. I couldn’t stand it. “Bill it wasn’t you fault.” I tell him as I wipe his tears away, “Please understand that.” He collapses into my embrace, hugging me tighter than I thought possible. “I wish I could believe you,” he whispers, his lips resting on my collarbone. “But I can’t, if I had stopped him, Tom would be here right now, he wouldn’t be tied up to a hospital bed, waiting for God to give him is life back” I can feel his tears, as they soak through my shirt, “Bill…” I begin to whisper, once again I get caught off, “The only good thing out of all that happened that night, was …the fact that John died.” I freeze; I didn’t expect to hear that type of hate in Bill’s voice. It scared me. He lets out one last sigh. He looks up at me, my arms still holding him. “Thank you.” He whispers, I smile at him weakly, he goes back to resting his head on my shoulder. I can feel his tears still soaking through my shirt… I know this conversation isn’t over, but he needs a break. Tonight is going to be another long one….


BILL’S POV

“Bill, are you ok now?” I hear Hayley ask, obvious concern in her voice. I keep my eyes closed. No I wasn’t ok. I wouldn’t be ok until I had my brother back at my side. I let out a long sigh. She tightens her grip on me, my head still resting against her delicate shoulder. Tears are still presents in my eyes, am I seriously this weak? I hated myself for having allowed my pain to take over. I hated myself for not being strong enough to handle it, for having to reveal my feelings of weakness to someone I had barely met. But most of all I hated myself for having to put Hayley through this. “I’m sorry Hayley… nobody was supposed to see me like this.” She breaks out of our embrace, forcing me to sit up and look at her. “You’re apologizing to me?” she asks me, with a confused look on her face. I nod. “What for?” I take a deep breathe, before responding. “For putting you through all of this,” I say. She shakes her head, “You don’t need to apologize Bill, if you don’t recall, I just finished having a nervous breakdown myself, at least yours was reasonable, it was over your brother. Mine was over an idiot.” She looks up at me smiling. I can’t help but feel stupid for apologizing. “Besides, I didn’t mind. The only thing that I didn’t like, was watching you re-live the pain, and watching you hurt…you don’t have to apologize for showing how you really feel.” I sigh, “It’s just that…I’m supposed to be the strong one now, I can’t let my weakness show, and I have to be able to handle this, for the sake of my mom.” I can feel tears once again running down my face. God who was I kidding I was weak. I feel Hayley run her hand down my face, she lifts it up to hers. “And who told you, that you weren’t strong? ... Bill in my eyes you’re one of the strongest persons I’ve ever met. In an instant your whole world changed, you brother ended up in a coma, and your stepfather dead, how the **** is ANYONE supposed react after that. You have to believe me when I tell you its ok to feel pain, it’s ok to cry about it, it’s okay Bill!” She wipes the tears away from my eyes, “But you also have to understand that, your brother didn’t die, he’s still living Bill, and he’s going to get better, you can’t keep blaming yourself for what happened, because it WASN’T YOUR FAULT, you have start living again, this may sound a bit harsh but it’s the truth, Tom’s the one tied to that hospital bed, NOT you.” I’m about to lose control again. I pull her close to me, she hugs back. With the way Hayley spoke to me, she was making it sound easier and easier to forgive myself for what happened, she was making me believe that it was okay to feel scared, but at the same time happy with my life. “Hayley?” I began; she looked up, waiting for me to continue. “If I promise you that I’ll listen to your advice,” I see her beginning to smile, “will you promise me to me to do the same?” “What do you mean?” she asks. “I mean that you have to start to live your life again too. You can’t let someone like Jason, hold you back. Promise me you’ll do it, if I do?” I look down at her, waiting for a response; she seems to be contemplating about it for a minute. She finally looks up at me, with a huge smile on her face. My heart skips. God she was beautiful. “I promise.” She says.
And with that we get up from the ground, I tell her that I’ll walk her home. She just smiles at me and nods. As were walking, she slips her hand into mine; her warm touch sends shock waves throughout my entire body. I look down at her and smile. She smiles back, as she begins to yawn. She’s just so **** adorable. She rests her head against my arm; she’s too short to reach my shoulder. I remind myself, that what she needs right now is a FRIEND. My smile drops, but only a little, if that’s what she needs, then I plan on being the BEST FRIEND she’s ever had. I look down at her once more, just as we reach her apartment steps. She lets go of my hand. “Thanks for walking me home Bill.” She smiles at me. “No problem, but you do know, I only used it as an excuse to find out where you lived.” I say while giving her a grin. She rolls her eyes, and laughs. “Yea … I know.” She stretches out her arms for a hug. I don’t hesitate for a second, and hug her. She gives me a kiss on the cheek and tells me goodnight. I can’t even respond, I’m not used to the feeling of her lips on my cheek yet. This causes her to laugh again, “Bye Bill!” is the last thing she says before going inside. I’m still standing on her steps like an idiot.
I was definitely falling for her TOO quickly….
And I didn’t mind it one bit…..



STILL BILL’S POV

It’s been almost a week since, I walked Hayley home. I haven’t seen her since. Mom keeps asking me about her and what in the world I did to her, to scare her off. Truth is I have no idea. Why is she ignoring me? Why hasn’t she stopped by to visit? Did I do something wrong? What if she started seeing Jason again? I passed by her apartment this morning, I wanted to knock on her door, but I chickened out. I want to see her again so badly, but I guess she doesn’t feel the same way about me. “Bill?” I snap out of my thoughts. “What mom?” I ask. “Did you forget what today is?” Crap, I had no idea what she was talking about. “Umm yea kind of,” I tell her. My mom gives me a disappointed look. “Bill, what in the world, am I going to do with you! Ever since you came back from that ‘alone’ time with Hayley, you’ve been acting really strange.” She puts her left hand on her hip, and points her right one at me, “Now Bill, you’re a boy, and I completely understand that you have hormones, but honey, girls have feelings, you can’t just sleep with Hayley, and then ignore her, like nothing happened, she deserves more than that!” My eyes grow wide in horror and embarrassment. I look around, to find all of our customers staring at us. I can feel my face burning. Did I really come of as that type of guy, or had my mother completely lost is? “Mom” I whisper, “Now isn’t the time or place to discuss this.” She just shakes her head, not realizing the embarrassment she just caused me. “Like I was saying Bill, today is the day; you get to train our new waitress.” Oh so that’s what today is. “Oh yea I completely forgot” I respond. She frowns, “Yes I figured that Bill… Anyways, she should be getting her in a few minutes, so please be prepared.” I nod my head. My mom goes back to attending the customers. I wait by the counter for our new waitress to show up. “Umm excuse me? ...are you Bill?” I turn around to see a girl, about 2 inches shorter than me; she looked around my age smiling at me. “Yea and you must be our new waitress.” She grabs my arm, which takes me by surprise; she leans in close to me, making me uncomfortable. What’s her deal, hasn’t she heard of personal space. “Yea, I’m Leslie” she leaned in even closer, “Ohh Bill,” she says as she runs her fingers up and down my arm, “I’m so looking forward to working with you.” I try my best to force a smile out. So this was going to be our new waitress, first thing I plan on teaching her, is personal space and how to respect it. My brother seriously needs to hurry up and get better, he would have no problem, handling a girl like Leslie, I on the other hand, am not looking forward to being molested every time I say hi to her. “Umm yea… so…let me show you around, so we can start you’re training.” I tell her, she grabs my arm, “Sure Bill.” I tried to get free from her grip, but it was no use. I show her around the shop, where the coffee stuff is located, how to serve the customers, and how to work the counter. She keeps making all kinds of inappropriate questions. “So, Bill do you have a girlfriend?” she asks, looking up at me, I sigh, I know I’m being rude and that I should treat her with more respect seeing as how she was a girl and all. But for some strange reason, I can’t find it in myself to even be polite to her, I mean I feel like an asshole, but something about her just didn’t give out a good vibe. “Umm no I don’t” I respond, trying my best to avoid eye contact, hoping she gets my hint. She doesn’t, she pushes herself onto me, I was about to snap….


HAYLEY’S POV

“Ughh, stupid Mr. Smith, he’s so lucky I really need the money or else, I would not be working over time. I haven’t even had a chance visit Bill, or Mrs. Kaulitz. I hope he doesn’t think I’m mad at him. Hopefully he’s still here and hasn’t gone home yet. God I miss him.” I tell myself as I turn the corner to his shop. It’s so weird, I’ve barley met this boy and I feel like I’ve known him for years. There’s just something so honest about him. I start to remember our walk home. I remember the hug I gave him before I went inside. I smile, I didn’t have to hug him or give a kiss on the cheek or anything, after all we had just met. But I couldn’t lie to myself; I knew that I had WANTED to do it. Truth is I had loved it when he had his arms wrapped around me, at the park. I enjoyed every second I spent with him that night. I knew I shouldn’t be having these feeling for him. It was all too soon, but Bill, he made me feel special; something Jason had stopped doing long before our relationship ended. I sigh at the thought of Jason. But I shake it off and open the door to the coffee shop. I see Bill. I freeze. Leslie? Bill? What was going on? My chest begins to hurt. Wait? Why should I care? I tell myself. Bill has every right to be with other girls. I shouldn’t care I repeat to myself….


STILL HAYLEY’S POV

Problem was that I did care. What is he doing with Leslie? Better yet, what the **** is Leslie doing with Bill? I thought she was with Jason. Bill and I lock eyes. I see the shocked expression on his face. “Hayley! Oh honey where on earth have you been? Why haven’t you come to see us again?” I turn around to find Mrs. Kaulitz, she hugs me. I give her a weak smile and hug back. “Umm I’m so sorry Mrs. Kaulitz; I’ve just being so busy with school and getting my job back, that I haven’t been able to stop by.” She let’s go, “Oh is that it?!?!” She lets out a laugh. “And here I was worrying, that you and Bill were mad at each other.” She smiles at me, “You know, Bill told me, about you guys having time to get to know each other…oh Hayley please tell me the truth…[she seems worried] …was he responsible, when he …you know….[I give her a confused look] …when you two ‘got to know each other’…tell me he used protection.” My eyes widen in horror. Bill had told his mom we had, had Sex?!?! Why would he lie to her like that?!?! “Bill told you we, slept together?!?!...Mrs. Kaulitz, whatever your son told you… I can assure you isn’t true!” I can feel my anger rising. Who did Bill think he was?!?! Why would he lie to his mom, about something like that?!?! Maybe I’m wrong about him, and he is like all the rest. I need to get out of here. I look up to find Bill, I see Leslie’s arms wrapped around his waist, and his back turned to me. My eyes swell up with tears. I SHOULDN’T CARE…I tell myself, but it’s too late. I do care. “Mrs. Kaulitz, I have to go.” I tell without making any eye contact. I turn to leave the shop. I hear Mrs. Kaulitz call out, “Hayley, dear wait! … I made a mistake….Bill didn’t…” I ignore her. I don’t know why my chest is burning, why tears are streaming down my face, or why it’s breaking my heart to know Leslie’s in there with her arms around Bill. All I know is that, I’ m hurting again, only this time, the only person who was there to cheer me up before, was the one causing the pain. I feel my phone vibrate. Jason. “Hello.” “Hayley, can we talk?” I sigh. Don’t do it I tell myself. “Sure.” Yes, I know I’m stupid. And with that we make plans to meet. He promises me we’ll work it out, that he’ll explain. “I love you Hayley.” My heart skips. “…yea me too.” I tell him. I mean it. I still love him. A small part of my heart still beats for only him, problem was, I was no longer IN love with him. And I had Bill to thank for that, too bad Bill, was not what I expected….


BILL’S POV

“Leslie! ... I said let go!” I was through with being polite with her. She was obviously after something, I WAS NOT willing to give her. I try to get free from her grip. I wanted to go talk to Hayley. “Oh come on Bill, you can’t tell me you’re not attracted to me?” She looks up at me with a smirk. I give her a questioning look, “do you want me to answer that, truthfully?” She laughs. “Yes! Honestly tell me you’re NOT attracted to me!” I push her off me, “Honestly Leslie, I’m NOT attracted to you, in ANY way.” She stops laughing, and look hurts. Then angry, “Oh I get it, you’re gay? Is that it, you’re not attracted to girls? …I kind of figured it … it’s too bad you are gay, because you’re just so hot”, >_<. This girl was crazy. “No, I’m not gay, I’m just not attracted to you’re type of girls.” She looks angry. “What... do … you… mean … my type?” “What type is that Bill?” I knew then that I had gone a little far, “nothing Leslie, it’s just I…” She cuts me off, “You know what? Forget it, if your mother thinks I’m going to stand working with an asshole like you, she’s wrong, I QUIT!” she yelled. And with that she, walked out. I can’t help but burst out laughing. “Bill, what was that all about?” I hear my mom ask, “why did she just quit?!?” I look down at my mom. “Let’s just say she didn’t take rejection very well…” I stop “where’d Hayley go?” I ask her, I had noticed my mom talking to her before Leslie turned me away. My mom has an expression of horror on her face. “Oh Bill, I’m SO sorry!” I panic. “What did you do mom?!?!” “Why didn’t she stay?” I look at my mom, she had definitely done something. “Oh Bill honey, I messed up…” “What did you say to her to make her leave mom?” “Oh honey! ... I accidentally made it sound as if you had told me, that you and Hayley had…you know…slept together.” I freeze, my face an expression of horror, “YOU WHAT?!?!?” I yell. “Bill I am so sorry, but listen she left no less than 5 min ago, I’m pretty sure you can still catch her and explain!” I could tell my mom really was sorry. I let out a long sigh. “God mom, give me a bit of credit here, I’m not that type, and you should know that by now.” “Oh Bill, I know, it’s just well honey you haven’t been with a girl in so long, and you are a teenage boy with hormones, and Hayley, well you can’t deny that she’s absolutely beautiful. What did you want me to think?!?” I can’t help but laugh. My poor mother was losing it. “Ugh well let me and try to catch up to her, and let’s HOPE she believes me.” I say as I walk out of the shop. Please God let me find her before its too late. There was no way I was going to let something like this, ruin my chances with her….

[Jess_Kaulitz]

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STILL BILL’S POV

I was out of breath; I hadn’t been able to find Hayley yet. I was panicking. What if she doesn’t believe me? What if I’m too late? I spot her. I run after her as she turns the street corner. “Hayley wait!” I yell out, hoping she hears me. I turn the corner and freeze. She’s standing there, staring straight at me. Her eyes tell me exactly what I need to know. She’s hurting, and she thinks it’s my fault. “What do YOU want?” she asks, the anger in her voice, kills me. “Hayley, please the things my mom told you, weren’t true, she…she misunderstood, what I meant when I told her that we were just trying to get to know each other!” I say, all in one breathe. She’s still looking straight at me, the pain in her eyes, still present. Did she not believe me? “Hayley, look if you don’t believe…” She cuts me off. “I believe you.” She replies, although her voice showed no sign of forgiveness. I was completely lost. If she believed me then why was she still mad? “Is that all you had to tell me, Bill?” Still in confusion, I nod my head. “Good.” She says, before turning to leave. Wait what?!?! Why was she still mad???? “Hayley wait!” I yell as I grab her by the arm, “if you forgive me than, why are you leaving?” She looks up at me, shocked, she’s about to say something but then stops herself. She rips herself away from my grip and turns to leave. I am out to lose it. “Hayley, wait why are you still mad, please I’m telling you the truth, if you don’t believe me, let’s go back to the shop, my mom can explain everything to you.” I beg. God I didn’t want to lose her. She turns to face me; tears are running down her face. I couldn’t possibly have done this to her. God what did I do to make her like this? “It’s nothing Bill really, just drop it ok?” I cup her face into my hands. “How can I just drop it when it’s obvious you’re hurting, please Hayley tell me what I did, why are you crying?” I can feel my eyes swelling up; it killed me to see her in pain, and even more knowing that I was the reason for her hurting. She holds my hands, which are still cupping her face. “That’s the problem Bill, you didn’t do anything wrong.” I give her a confused look. She smiles weakly at me. “Bill, when I saw you with Leslie, it HURT. A LOT.” I freeze. It hurt her to see me with another girl? Why, was she jealous? “And it shouldn’t, I have NO right to feel jealous, or hurt or ANYTHING, because we’re JUST FRIENDS!”
I couldn’t say anything; I was still in disbelief, SHE WAS JEALOUS!?!? This meant she cared! She liked me as more than a friend, even if she wasn’t ready to admit it. “So please Bill, just drop it?” Drop it? No I couldn’t just drop it. “No Hayley I can’t, just drop it, why did it hurt you so much to…wait…how did you…how did you know her name was Leslie?” I ask now even more confused than ever. She removes herself from my grip. “Remember when I told you, I lost the two most important people in my life?” I nod. “Leslie was that other person, Jason cheated on me with my best friend, he cheated on me with Leslie.” She’s in tears again. And at this point I get it; it hurt her to see me with THAT girl, not A girl. It wasn’t because she was jealous. It hurt her to see me with Leslie, because Leslie had caused her so much pain. “So, that’s the only reason it hurt you so much to see me with another girl… because that other girl was Leslie?” I ask, with disappointment well present in my voice. Who was I kidding she was still in love with that Jason guy. NOT ME. I sigh, and look up, God why couldn’t like she me back? Why couldn’t she just get over that idiot? I feel her hand bring my face down to hers. She looks straight into my eyes, “No Bill, I don’t think it would have mattered who the other girl was. It hurt me to see you with someone else, period.” ….she was jealous… I couldn’t help but break into a smile…..

HAYLEY’S POV

“No Bill, I don’t think it would have mattered who the other girl was. It hurt me to see you with someone else, period.” I freeze. OMG! Had I really just said that out loud?!?!? To Bill?!?!? He breaks into a huge smile. I HAD. “So…what are you saying Hayley?” he asks smiling, as he brings me closer to him, he wraps his arms around me. I feel myself blushing, probably ten million shades of red. He notices, and laughs, “Are you blushing?” he asks, with a huge grin on his face, obviously enjoying every minute of my embarrassment. “Gee thanks Bill, kick the embarrassment up another ten millions notches why don’t you?” I tell him. He laughs even harder. I melt. He uses one hand to bring up my face up to his. I avert his eyes. “Please look at me Hayley.” I bury my head into his chest. “I can’t” I mumble. “It’s too embarrassing.” He chuckles. I melt even more. “Why is it embarrassing?” he asks. I look up at him, giving him an ‘are you serious?!?!’ look. He stares innocently back at me, I sigh. “I just told a guy I just met, that I get jealous when I see him with other girls, when he’s given me no indication whatsoever that he’s into me as more than just a friend, and now he has his arms wrapped around me, asking me what I mean, when he knows **** well what I mean, but is just trying to tease me about it, THAT’S why it’s Embarrassing” I say in one breathe. He holds me even closer to him, he’s shaking, and I can tell he’s trying hard not to laugh. I look away from him. He stops, and with his free hand he forces me to lock eyes with him. He stares deeply into mine, his full of emotion, “And who in the world told you, I only thought of you as JUST a friend?” he says. I forget how to breathe.

[SCHREIoutLOUD]

fds;fdaskljg.

Omfg.

More.

You should see me. I'm panting, sweating, drooling, shaking, and my stomach just flipped. I totally feel in her position ATM. And if you don't write more.. I won't be able to sleep tonight.

****** KISS HER BILL!

>.<

[SCHREIoutLOUD]

sag;ldskjg.

I just read that 5 more times.

I can't stop. I just keep replaying it and re-reading it over and over again. This is officially.. My FAVORITE Fanfic. Can I marry it?

[Jess_Kaulitz]

lol...i have some of it done....it'll be up...later on tonight.
lmao!!!!
and sure you can marry it.(:

[SCHREIoutLOUD]

gahh. goo.. gee.. bleh. *sigh*

I'm in love.

Forgive me. I think I've forgotten how to breathe.

[Mz.Kaulitz483]

i love that fanfic but i think ur missing some chapters right :roll: corect me if im wrong
ummm crap..are they not in order
>_<
...hmmm i'm not done posting the whole thing yet...
lol...is that what you mean?
yes :D

[Jess_Kaulitz]

i love that fanfic but i think ur missing some chapters right :roll: corect me if im wrong
ummm crap..are they not in order
>_<
...hmmm i'm not done posting the whole thing yet...
lol...is that what you mean?
yes :D
lol okay...i freaked for a bit.

[Jess_Kaulitz]

i need comments people ...please give me the inspiration to write agian!!!!!!

[SCHREIoutLOUD]

i need comments people ...please give me the inspiration to write agian!!!!!!

How's this?...

Write. Now.

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

i want more and i have already read this...i am just waiting for the next part my beautiful writer....

[Get_Fuzzy]

Pleaaaase post more tonight. When they didn't kiss I was like OH COME ON, Like I was watching my favorite soap opera or something.

[CocoRockStar]

Please most more Jess, please?? For your twin? *gives puppy dog eyes*

[Jess_Kaulitz]

yay!!!!!! i recognize...my old readers *feels speacial* lol...i promise..i'm working on the next post as i type...still getting over the whole...shock...but since it looks like you guys are willing to continue reading...then i as a writer must comtinue to write!!!!!! :mrgreen:

[POGOx3]

whoooo! can't wait to keep reading! :mrgreen:

[Jess_Kaulitz]

New Post


STILL HAYLEY’S POV

Hayley Breathe! I tell myself. Bill’s face keeps getting closer and closer, I can feel his breathe hit my skin. His lips, gently brush against my cheek, and he slowly moves them down to my jaw line. I notice he has his eyes closed. God I wish I knew what he was thinking. Bill tightens his grip on me, so there’s absolutely so space in between us. I freeze. I see a smile form on his face. He knew exactly what he was doing to me. “Don’t be scared, Hayley,” he whispers, as he glides his lips back up to my cheek. Chills run down my spine. He finally opens his eyes, and looks down at me. I’m shaking. For the first time, since I met him, he looks happy, not just a little, but completely happy. Did I seriously have that effect on him? “Bill...?” I barely manage to whisper, before I see his lips coming closer and closer to mine. He stops, our lips barely brushing against each other, “What?” he whispers. “Wh…Wha…What are you doing!?” I nervously ask. I can’t bare to look, I shut my eyes. He laughs, “Something I’ve been wanting to do for a while now,” he says before bringing his lips to mine. I completely stop breathing, my heart stops beating, and my head begins to spin……This boy’s kiss was….



from now on the new post will be in yellow....
DUN DUN DUN....i left it on a cliffy...promise the next part...will involve kissing detail!!!
XD!
-Jess

[Tokio_Away]

Aaaawww....

[SCHREIoutLOUD]

****. I've forgotten how to breathe.

[CocoRockStar]

Aww Jess, that was so unfair :(

[TH_luv]

NOOOO! HIS KISS WUZ WHAT?! T_T I wanna know more! XD I wuz so into that jeez! I want more Jess! bitter!

[Get_Fuzzy]

I'm sure his kiss was just pure sexiness. Lucky *****.

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!how cute! i loved it please write more...

[kArLa2tH]

aww this is so cute i love this fanfic i started readin it yesterday but my mom took me off the computer :P


write more pleaseeee ^^

[Jess_Kaulitz]

soooo....
i havent updated...
i have like 2 sentences done...
grrr and it's ******* me off.....
i need inspiration...
so sorry guys
):

..but i did notice some new readers!
WELCOME, and ENJOY!
-Jess
p.s.- promise to try and update soon.

[Get_Fuzzy]

it's alright... i can definitely relte. I write also and sometimes I come to parts and I'm like "ehhhh..." take your time. don't want to have to write something you're not inspired by.

[kArLa2tH]

like me like me ^^


thx take your time

[Jess_Kaulitz]

New Post..yay!

STILL HAYLEY’S POV
This boy’s kiss was sending chills done every inch of my body… Breathe Hayley, I kept repeating to myself... but the sensation of having Bill’s lips against mine wasn’t letting me concentrate enough to do so. His kiss was soft, gentle, and full of passion. His lips, well, they were absolutely perfect. They felt like honey, wrapping softly and ever so sweet against mine. I wrapped my hands around his neck, he held me even closer to him. Emotions I didn’t even know existed for him, were now becoming clear. The attracting to him I had been trying to ignore, was well present now. He broke free from our kiss, and gently glided his lips down to my jaw, he took a deep breathe. He opened his eyes, and smiled that amazing mesmerizing smile of his. I melted, well more like practically fainted. He was just too gorgeous. He held me tighter and laughed, “I was that good huh?” I glare at him, but I can’t help but nod my head, “yea” I say breathless, my heart was still trying to restart itself, and I was trying to regain a normal breathing pace. “Well, you know you weren’t that bad yourself,” he says, as he kisses my cheek, it sends my heart into frenzy. “Bill you shouldn’t do that without warning you know,” I tell him. He just stares at me innocently. He was too **** adorable for his own good, and mine. “What are you talking about Hayley?” he asks with a grin. I give him another glare, before answering, “What you just did, the kissing and smiling…” I get cut off, with another kiss. I practically die. “You mean like that?” he asks. I can’t even answer him; I just nod my head, God I needed to calm down. He laughs and hugs me tighter, “I’m sorry” he whispers, his lips caressing my ear, “But I can’t help it, I like you.” I mind goes blank, and my hearts about to pop out of my chest. My body freezes. He laughs even harder. I look up at him, “You…you do?” He nods his head, and with a kiss on my cheek, says “A lot.” I melt…there was no way, I would ever get used to that.






short and sweet...
promise more later.
comment please.....
ENJOY!
-Jess

[SCHREIoutLOUD]

I

can't

breathe.

****! TAYLOR BREATHE! *slaps self*

*drools*

I pretty much just passed out reading that.

[ChOcoLaTe_CuP_CaKe]

:mrgreen:

must i type how much i love u right now????

<3333333

[kArLa2tH]

Oh goshh
my heart is poundin :mrgreen:

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww....that was cute please post more soon...

[TH_luv]

zomg! XD I love that story! XD more please?

[Get_Fuzzy]

Sexy time! Gahhhah... Noo Hayley, he kissed you because he hates you.

[Jess_Kaulitz]

YAY!!
glad you guys are still loving the story....

more soon
promise
(:
-Jess

[kArLa2tH]

take your time we are glad you are still writing

[CocoRockStar]

OMG Jess!!! I was holding my breathe the entire time I was reading this!! That was so good!!!

[xx_hardcore]

You're cruel.
Do you enjoy seeing people fall over dead from holding their breath?

[Jess_Kaulitz]

You're cruel.
Do you enjoy seeing people fall over dead from holding their breath?


lmaoo!!!

yes Holly...i'm evil
forgive me
):

[Jess_Kaulitz]

BILL’S POV
“A lot.” I tell her, as I kiss her cheek. I feel her small frame freeze. I laugh. Hayley glares at me. “You know Bill, almost causing people heart attacks, isn’t funny.” I give her a grin, “Do I really have that effect on you?” She looks at me bewildered, “Oh come on, you’ve got to be kidding me?!?... as if you didn’t know that what you were doing to me just now wasn’t driving me crazy?!?” she says, her eyes grow wide in horror, as the realization of what she just said sinks in. She buries her head into my chest. “OMG! I can not believe I just said that out loud.” I hear her mumble. I run my fingers through her hair. I can’t help but smile, I couldn’t believe that I seriously had that effect on her. Did I seriously drive her crazy? I laugh out loud at the thought. She looks up at me. “Does my embarrassment amuse you?” she asks. I stop laughing, and cup her face between my hands, she was blushing. “I’m sorry, I just find it really hard to believe, that I could have that kind of effect on a girl like you.” She pulls back and crosses her arms, “What do you mean a ‘girl like me’?” she asks with a questioning look on her face. Did she seriously not see it? “Oh come on Hayley look at you... you’re absolutely gorgeous!” I tell her. She stares back at me stunned. She seriously didn’t see it. “How can I believe that the way I kiss…” “And smile,” she interrupts. “AND smile; drive someone like you crazy…” I look down at her, she gives me a frustrated look, “Oh God Bill, and what about you, I mean I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but you’re not completely horrible to look at either!” I laugh. “Ok then, I guess there’s nothing left to do but for us stick together.” She looks at me confused. I give her a smirk, “I mean come on look at us, we’re gorgeous right? And it’s only right for two gorgeous people, like us to be together.” The sound of her laugh takes my breathe away. “You’re funny you know that.” She says. I cuddle her into my arms. “I wasn’t joking” I tell her. She looks to the floor and blushes. “Bill…”she begins. “I promise I won’t rush things Hayley, I understand you need time to heal, time to forget about Jason” I tell her, afraid that she might be doubting what just happened. She smiles and shakes her head. “It’s not that.” She says.
“Then what is it?” I ask nervously…. She takes a deep breathe before finally answering… “Bill Kaulitz, I think I’ve fallen for you.” She whispers, she’s blushing. I’m in shock. … I stand there like a complete idiot. She laughs, and gives me a kiss on my cheek. A huge smile forms on my face. I hug her closer…so I had been right,Hayley was different.



err not my best i apologize
):
please comment and ENJOY!
-Jess

[TH_luv]

zomg! YEEEEAH! lmao! wow I keep feeling that Jason's gonna walk over to them and get all ****** off lmao but dude! oh my gosh keep going please! XD

[CocoRockStar]

Oh Jess, Bill is just too adorable :)

[XxInyourNightmarexX]

This is terribly adorable!!!!
Waiting for the next post!!! I luv this.

[SCHREIoutLOUD]

. . . . . . .

[ChOcoLaTe_CuP_CaKe]

not your best ??????

chill this is like my fav. chapter

awwww i loved the way he asked me ... ah i mean hayley out
<333333

u rock! and so does thIS fan fic. <3333


AND REMEMBER KIDS UPDATES ARE KEWL <3333

[kArLa2tH]

no need to apologize

i'll be waiting for more :mrgreen:

[sheheartsREDEN]

awwww that was really cute! post more soon!

[Jess_Kaulitz]

not your best ??????

chill this is like my fav. chapter

awwww i loved the way he asked me ... ah i mean hayley out
<333333

u rock! and so does thIS fan fic. <3333


AND REMEMBER KIDS UPDATES ARE KEWL <3333


lmao!!
"awwww i loved the way he asked me ... ah i mean hayley out
"

that made me smile.

[TH_luv]

not your best ??????

chill this is like my fav. chapter

awwww i loved the way he asked me ... ah i mean hayley out
<333333

u rock! and so does thIS fan fic. <3333


AND REMEMBER KIDS UPDATES ARE KEWL <3333


lmao!!
"awwww i loved the way he asked me ... ah i mean hayley out
"

that made me smile.

lmao Jess! Its okay I see Haley as you too with my super imagination powers...well I try to see you lol...okay that sounded alittle creepy lol gosh darnit you know what I mean,right?

[Jess_Kaulitz]

to: Marlena

ummm yea i think so...
hehe...no wait...not really...but then again
i'm one slow cookie
(:

[TH_luv]

to: Marlena

ummm yea i think so...
hehe...no wait...not really...but then again
i'm one slow cookie
(:

lol its okay because I sorta lossed the meaning in a way and umm...yeah I just losed myself in my words >.< gosh I might be a slower cookie than you are lol

[Jess_Kaulitz]

to: Marlena

ummm yea i think so...
hehe...no wait...not really...but then again
i'm one slow cookie
(:

lol its okay because I sorta lossed the meaning in a way and umm...yeah I just losed myself in my words >.< gosh I might be a slower cookie than you are lol

lol..awww it's ok...we can be slow cookies together
(:

[TH_luv]

to: Marlena

ummm yea i think so...
hehe...no wait...not really...but then again
i'm one slow cookie
(:

lol its okay because I sorta lossed the meaning in a way and umm...yeah I just losed myself in my words >.< gosh I might be a slower cookie than you are lol

lol..awww it's ok...we can be slow cookies together
(:
okee =)

[Mz.Kaulitz483]

i love ur story i hope u can post more soon cuz i can't wait :geek:

[POGOx3]

Pleaaaase post more tonight. When they didn't kiss I was like OH COME ON, Like I was watching my favorite soap opera or something.


lol. yeah. i was like "do it...c&#39;mon. do it! kiss!"

[Jess_Kaulitz]

Newwwww


HAYLEY’S POV

“Bill Kaulitz, I think I’ve fallen for you.” I whisper. I feel myself blush. I look up to find Bill, looking completely shocked. I laugh and kiss him on his cheek, a huge smile forms across his face. Once again it takes my breathe away. He hugs me closer. I rest my head on his chest. “Hey Bill…”I begin. “Hmm?” is all I hear him answer, he seemed to be enjoying playing with my hair. “Umm don’t you think we should, go somewhere else, people are staring at us.” I tell him as I pull away to look at him. We both look around to find people giving us weird looks. This causes us both to laugh. “Yea I guess we should, huh?” he says. “Where do you have in mind,” he asks. I think for a minute. “Well we could go back to your mom’s shop,” I suggest. He shakes his head, “Too many people, I want to spend time alone with you,” he says. For some reason hearing him say that causes my heart to skip. He smiles at me. “Well…. we could go back to my place, my mom will still be at the shop for another couple of hours,” he says with a smile. And as tempting as it sounded, I found myself refusing his offer. “I don’t think that such a good idea Bill,” I tell him. “Aww, why not?” he asks giving me the most adorable set of puppy eyes. I bit my bottom lip nervously. Why was he doing that, he was hardly playing fair. “I promise I’ll be good.” He says with a smirk, as he wraps his arms around my waist, “Please Hayley?” he begs. I melt. My mind goes blank, I discard what I was about to say, and just nod my head. I hear him chuckle. “Yay!” he says, as he lets go of our embrace and grabs my hand, and we begin to walk. “But you have to promise not to try ANYTHING, Bill.” I warn him. He stops walking and looks down at me shocked, and then hurt, “Hayley, do I seriously come off as that type of guy?” I look back up at him, “No” I whisper, feeling bad that I doubted his intentions. “I’m sorry Bill, I didn’t mean to offend you.” I tell him, while avoiding eye contact. “It’s ok, it’s just that first my mom then you, I was beginning to worry that maybe I came off as some kind of pervert or something,” he says while laughing. I just look up at him, mesmerized by his gorgeous face. He looked even more beautiful when he laughed, it took my breath away, my mind seriously went blank and my heart popped out of my chest every time he did that. “Umm hayley, are you okay?”
I hear him ask. “Huh? ...oh umm yea.” I answer in a daze. He just chuckles and grabs my hand, and we begin walking again. We walk in silence for a few blocks. He breaks the silence, “What’s your favorite color?” The simplicity of his question catches me off guard. “Black, why?” He gives me a funny look, “Black, but that’s such a sad color.” I give him a weird look back, “Sad color?.. haha..I didn’t know colors had feelings.” I say.
“To me they do, and black is a sad color.” I laugh. “Okay then Bill, what’s your favorite color?” He thinks, “Hmm I’d have to say, hazel.” “Hazel?..why’s that?” I ask. He takes my face into his hands, he leans in close to me, enough for our noses to touch, “Your eyes, are hazel.” I stop breathing. He seriously needed to stop doing that.




next up...
alone time!
dun dun dun
XD!

[kArLa2tH]

oh goshhhhhh
i can't breathe either
can't wait for the next post

[ChOcoLaTe_CuP_CaKe]

awwww hazel is my new fav. color <3

lol ja loved it <3 keep it up ma <3

[xx_hardcore]

Stop making my heart explode.

[CocoRockStar]

Oooo alone time! ;)

[SCHREIoutLOUD]

OMG!

g;lkjadsglkjhdglkdjgf

MY EYES ARE HAZEL!

[POGOx3]

omg the last line made my heart get all fluttery. [:
aw i wish guys were so innocent like bill from your
fan fic. y&#39;know: just wanting to be with a girl
cuz he cares about her.

[Jess_Kaulitz]

omg the last line made my heart get all fluttery. [:
aw i wish guys were so innocent like bill from your
fan fic. y&#39;know: just wanting to be with a girl
cuz he cares about her.

*sigh*
yepp...dont we all.
:/

[Jess_Kaulitz]

OMG!

g;lkjadsglkjhdglkdjgf

MY EYES ARE HAZEL!

lol!
really..kool!
XD!

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwww!i wish someone would say something like that to me...

[Get_Fuzzy]

This fic KILLS Jess. (in a good way) I don't know how this chick can keep herself so contained with this gorgeous guy. Can't wait for next part. By the way, what's with the "get well soon bill" thing? >is out of the loop<

[Jess_Kaulitz]

This fic KILLS Jess. (in a good way) I don't know how this chick can keep herself so contained with this gorgeous guy. Can't wait for next part. By the way, what's with the "get well soon bill" thing? >is out of the loop<

lol..yea i dont know how Hayley does it either.
(:..

oh and the get well thingy is to show our concern for poor Bill...he's sick again
):

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

This fic KILLS Jess. (in a good way) I don't know how this chick can keep herself so contained with this gorgeous guy. Can't wait for next part. By the way, what's with the "get well soon bill" thing? >is out of the loop<


what get well thing??I know hes sick but what are they doing??

[Get_Fuzzy]

This fic KILLS Jess. (in a good way) I don't know how this chick can keep herself so contained with this gorgeous guy. Can't wait for next part. By the way, what's with the "get well soon bill" thing? >is out of the loop<


what get well thing??I know hes sick but what are they doing??

Oh Jess and some others have banners that say "get well soon bill...we're here for you" it just sounded serious.

[Get_Fuzzy]

This fic KILLS Jess. (in a good way) I don't know how this chick can keep herself so contained with this gorgeous guy. Can't wait for next part. By the way, what's with the "get well soon bill" thing? >is out of the loop<

lol..yea i dont know how Hayley does it either.
(:..

oh and the get well thingy is to show our concern for poor Bill...he's sick again
):


that sucks. with what? I'm not feeling well either. part of the day I was hoping death could be the option for me lol.

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

can my name be on this banner thing because i feel pretty bad for him...and the whole band...please??

[TH_luv]

aaawww! >.< Ich liebe da fanfic! mehr bitter?

[margaritalouita9]

oh my goodness gracious, mama mia, please write as fast as humanly possible! Inhumanly if need be! I'm dying here!! *heart stuttering*

[xx_hardcore]

I don't know how this chick can keep herself so contained with this gorgeous guy.

I would keep myself super contained.
That's just how I am though...
I usually do that.

[XxInyourNightmarexX]

Need another post! Pweese!!

[ChOcoLaTe_CuP_CaKe]

hyperventilating ***

CAN'T BREATHE ... UP DATE!

NEED MY FAN. FIC. UPDATE!

OMG GOD? IS THAT U

DIES*

[Get_Fuzzy]

I don't know how this chick can keep herself so contained with this gorgeous guy.

I would keep myself super contained.
That's just how I am though...
I usually do that.


Yeah I'm not all like "OMGZ KISS ME YOU FOOL" either lol. Can't wait for the next post...

[Jess_Kaulitz]

So...forgive me...for not updating.
i promise to do so very soon!
(:
i noticed a new reader!
HI!....
lol...
ok i'll stop...and go back to typing this sucker up!
XD!

[POGOx3]

whoo! can&#39;t wait to read more.
[no pressure though] :]

[Jess_Kaulitz]

whoo! can&#39;t wait to read more.
[no pressure though] :]

lol..ok..well it might take some time...errr news about TH's come-back to the States has me freaking out.
(:

[POGOx3]

[center]yeah. i'm excited too. too bad some of the
concerts are on weekdays and not weekends. [/center

[Jess_Kaulitz]

[center]yeah. i'm excited too. too bad some of the
concerts are on weekdays and not weekends. [/center
awww...yea that sucks....
):
hopefully i can go to the D.C. one or the Chicago one.

[POGOx3]

hope you go & have fun! go crazy for bill for me, k?

[Jess_Kaulitz]

hope you go & have fun! go crazy for bill for me, k?

lol...trust i will
XD

[margaritalouita9]

So...forgive me...for not updating.
i promise to do so very soon!
(:
i noticed a new reader!
HI!....
lol...
ok i'll stop...and go back to typing this sucker up!
XD!

Hey, just wanted to let you know I think you are an amazing writer, i'm really getting into the story. Thanks for noticing that I posted, that's cool! :D

[xx_hardcore]

Jessssssssssssss.


You're taking forever.
>[

[Jess_Kaulitz]

So...forgive me...for not updating.
i promise to do so very soon!
(:
i noticed a new reader!
HI!....
lol...
ok i'll stop...and go back to typing this sucker up!
XD!

Hey, just wanted to let you know I think you are an amazing writer, i'm really getting into the story. Thanks for noticing that I posted, that's cool! :D


aww thank you...
i really don't think that i'm all that great...but suree if you say so!
and yes i notice when i have a new reader
(:
lol...

[Jess_Kaulitz]

Jessssssssssssss.


You're taking forever.
>[

i knowwwwww.
i'm so sorry.
promise some soon

[XxInyourNightmarexX]

*drums finger nails on laptop*

Post soon.

[Jess_Kaulitz]

New Post..finally!!!!..haha


HAYLEY’S POV

A smile forms across his gorgeous face; it wasn’t helping my attempt to restart my heart. “I did it again didn’t I?” he asks while chuckling, apparently he enjoyed giving me heart attacks. Still dazed, all I do is nod. “I’m sorry,” he says once again giving me those puppy eyes of his, he gives my lips a quick kiss. “Do you forgive me?” he asks, once again all I can get out is a nod. He laughs and just cuddles me into his arms, God he smelled good. I try to breathe normally, I fail miserably. “Hayley? …are you ok?” he asks, I try to compose myself before answering him, “Umm yea I think so.” He laughs, and takes my hand. “Can I ask you another question?” I nod my head in response. It takes him a minute before beginning; he seems to be contemplating on whether or not to ask me it, I squeeze his hand, he looks down at me and I give him a reassuring smile. He takes a deep breath, “Hayley, are still in love with Jason?” My eyes grow wide, “Bill….” “Hayley I need to know.” The look he gave was killing me. I take a deep breathe before answering, “Bill, you said you wouldn’t rush things…” He looks to the floor. “I know I know, but Hayley you have to understand, I need to know what I’m up against here.” He looks back at me. I shake my head and look up to him. I take my hand and gently glide it down his face, his eyes were troubled, I could tell he was afraid. “No.” He looks at me confused; I take both my hands and gently cup his face in between them. “No Bill, I am no longer in love with Jason.” His eyes show doubt. “Seriously?” he asks. I take another long breath, and take a minute before answering. “Seriously.” He gently takes my hands away from his face and wraps them around his waist, pulling me close to him. He brings my face up to his, and kisses me softly, his kiss tells me what his words don’t; he believed me. We both pull away from the kiss. My breathe is short and my heart is racing. The smile on his face makes me melt. No I was longer in love with Jason, in fact I don’t think what I felt for Jason was something I could even call love, not now anyways, not now that I’ve found Bill. I smile back at him. If what I ever felt with Jason was love,
then what in the world is this that I’m feeling with Bill. I let out a sigh; Bill looks down at me worried. I look up at him and smile, indicting that I’m okay. He takes my hand into his, his touch sends chill down my entire body, he gives me a small kiss, it practically makes me faint. There was no way, that love could even being to explain what I was being to feel for this boy.
We turn the corner. “Here we are.” He says taking me away from my thoughts. I snap out of it, I hadn’t even noticed we had been walking. I look up. “This is where you live?!!!??!” I say, he just laughs and opens the front door. “Come on, I’ll show you around.” I take a deep breathe before entering his apartment, it was beautiful. I looked around in awe, his place was huge, it didn’t even seem like an apartment, it was more like a mini mansion, mine was nothing compared to his. “Bill, oh my god, your apartment is beautiful!” He chuckled, “really? It’s not all that Hayley.” “Bill, trust me, this is a palace compared to mine” I say while looking around. He comes up from behind me and wraps his arms around my waist, resting his head on my shoulders. “Hmm you’ll have to show me one of these days.” His lips gently brushed my neck as he spoke. “Um... umm sure.” I stuttered, he laughed. “Ok, time to show you around.” He whispered. “First stop, my room.” I froze. His room? Oh my god. “Bill?...” I started. He swirled me around to face him. He was giving me a smirk, “Hayley I promised to be good didn’t I?” I frown, “Yea, only the look you’re giving me isn’t really being to convincing” I told him. He laughed, “You’re adorable.” He says while chuckling one more time before grabbing my hand, “Come on, my room is at the end of the hall.” I sigh and follow him. We reach the end of the hallway, “Here we are.” He says smiling. I take a deep breathe before, walking in. Why was I so nervous?



so sorry i took forever ..
here it is..
ENJOY!
(:

[ChOcoLaTe_CuP_CaKe]

yay!

i liked it ... its a good start 2 what kind of relation ship they might have ...

just n idea *** have jason get abducted by aliens so he can be wayy out of the pic. lol well i think that already happpened... since hayley forgets how 2 breathe when she looks at bill. ... lol but i would still like 2 have jason abducted or something worse :P****

keep riteing ma this fic. is my crack <3

like ma signiture??

[kArLa2tH]

finally they are alone
thx for posting
waiting for more <3

[TH_luv]

yay! you wrote more! XD I want more jess! Bill better be a good boy! XD

[POGOx3]

woot woot!
more later pweeez :][/center]

[drummergirl24]

Ohhhhhhhhh my goodness. I just read your story from start to the last post and I must say that it is simply wonderful! I find myself sighing at every sweet thing that happens in the story...if only it were real...
Anyways great job I freakin' love it!!!!!!!!!

[SCHREIoutLOUD]

*stops breathing*

Not good! I can't stop breathing! I have food poisoning.

*gasps for air as stomach flips again*

gah goo gee googhghg..

dghgdfkjhg.

Love <3

[CocoRockStar]

Yay!! You updated!!! What's in Bill's room??? I must know!!!

[Jess_Kaulitz]

awww your guys' comment make me smile :D
thank you guys...
lol..at Jason being abducted by aliens..and yes i love your sig!...
haha...unfortunately this JASON fool...isn't gone for good..and niether is Leslie...

NEW READER!! WELCOME....
aww you guys make my day.
Thank you so much for reading.
(:
more as soon as i can...family drama is keeping me from writing..sorry...
please keep your comments coming...i LOVE reading them (:
-Jess

[Mz.Kaulitz483]

i can only say 4 words *this story is adorable* i want more please :D

[RetteMich]

post more now :D

[TH_luv]

awww your guys' comment make me smile :D
thank you guys...
lol..at Jason being abducted by aliens..and yes i love your sig!...
haha...unfortunately this JASON fool...isn't gone for good..and niether is Leslie...

NEW READER!! WELCOME....
aww you guys make my day.
Thank you so much for reading.
(:
more as soon as i can...family drama is keeping me from writing..sorry...
please keep your comments coming...i LOVE reading them (:
-Jess

zomg! if Jason isnt gonna be gone for good then you have him abducted and then the aliens send him back down to Earth because he's so fricken annoying,but they messed his brain around so he totally forgot about Jess so the next time she sees him he just passes her by and she's all "wtf?!" XD that'd be truely awesome! >.<

[kArLa2tH]

wah Jason needs to go way for good.....
write more please <3

[Jess_Kaulitz]

New Post


HAYLEY POV

This was his room? It was practically as big as my small apartment. “OMG Bill?!?! Your room is huge!” All he does is laugh. I look around and take in every detail. The walls were all white. It was messy, but not to the point of exaggeration. He had pictures every where, from what I could tell most were of his mom, and who I assume to be his brother. Although from the pictures, you couldn’t really tell they were twins, in fact they were nothing alike. Tom wore clothes that looked 3 sizes to big on him, his hair was in dreadlocks, and he didn’t wear make-up. He was the farthest thing from Bill. There were also pictures of two other boys, friends I guessed. A certain picture stood out, it was sitting on his night table. I walk over and pick it up. It was of him and his brother; I glide my fingers across it. I can’t help but notice how happy Bill looked in it. “That was on our 17th birthday, my mom took it that morning, right after she gave us our present” Bill whispered from behind, he wrapped his arms around me. In the picture both boys were in their boxers, Tom was shirtless, Bill had a white shirt on, both boys had a huge smile on their face, they were both holding a set of keys. Seeing a picture of them both so up close, I finally saw how much they really did look alike, they both had that amazing smile, and transparent brown eyes. “I still think I’m the better looking twin, don’t you agree?” I hear him ask me. I laugh, and take a minute to answer, “Hmm I don’t know Bill, Tom may be giving you a run for your money in this picture.” I say jokingly while putting the picture down. “Oh is that so Hayley?” he whispers, as he turns me around to face him, his face is inches away from mine, I lose my train of thought. “Umm, uhh…” I stutter out. He laughs, “That’s what I thought!” he says before he starts tickling me. I squeal, “Bill! ...STOP! … [I can’t stop laughing] seriously Bill!!!!” we both fall onto his bed. He stops. I’m out of breath, and he’s laughing at me. “That wasn’t funny.” I tell him while turning on my side to glare at him. He does the same, “Yes it was,” he responds, with a smirk, “It was extremely funny!” I roll my eyes at him. “Whatever.” Is all I respond, I was too busy noticing how comfortable his bed was, and how big it was too. Which only seemed normal seeing as how tall Bill was. I yawn. “Are you hungry?” he asks. “Yea a little,” I respond. He looks at me funny, “Ok ok I’m starving.” I tell him. He laughs, “I’ll go make us something to eat then.” I give him a questioning look, “You know how to cook?” He gives me a smirk, “of course I do!” he gives me a quick kiss, before jump up and walking out the door, “You can put on a movie if you want, they’re in the drawer of the night stand” he yells from the hall. “Ok.” I yell back. I get up from the bed, go to the drawer, and open it. There are loads of DVD to chose from. “The Little Mermaid?” I laugh. “Wow Bill.” I set it aside, that’s when I see I picture sticking out from under the pile of DVDs. I pull it out. It’s of Bill, he’s with a girl. I wonder who she is. In the picture she’s sitting on his lap, they both look so happy. Bill’s gorgeous smile seems to take over the entire shot. The girl is absolutely gorgeous; she’s giving him a kiss on the cheek. Without knowing why, I find tears forming in my eyes. Why am I crying? I ask myself. I wipe the tears away, it’s nothing I tell myself. “Ok here’s our dinner!” I jump. I quickly put the picture back inside the drawer. I spin around to look at Bill; he’s holding a tray full of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. I can’t help but laugh. “You call that cooking?” I ask him, he laughs back, “Of course, only the best!” He sets the tray on the bed. And comes up to hug me, “are you ok Hayley?” I nod. The image of the picture still replaying in my head. Who was she? I know it shouldn’t bother me, because Bill was with me now, but still why would he keep it next to his bed. I sigh. I was just over reacting I try to convince myself, but the feeling of jealousy wasn’t going away….



dun dun dun...whos the girl in the picture?
The Little Mermaid?
WTF Bill?

ENJOY!

[ChOcoLaTe_CuP_CaKe]

omgomgomg!

DRAMA! thats whats up!

cant wait to c whats going 2 happen

who is this girl? what does she have 2 do with bill? questiong that will haunt me during the day

good job ma <3

[ChOcoLaTe_CuP_CaKe]

ahhhhhhhhhhh the little mermaid is ma fav. disney movie <3

kk im done now

[CocoRockStar]

The little mermaid Jess? And who is the girl in the picture?!?!? You can't just keep us hanging like this, it isn't fair!!

[Jess_Kaulitz]

Oh Ashley...
you know i'm never fair.
:D

[TH_luv]

zomg nooo! jealousy is never good Haley! >.< zomg mehr bitter?!

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

ooooooooo...please write more and soon....

[Jess_Kaulitz]

new.

“Hayley? Hello you still there?” I snap out of my thoughts. “Huh umm yea,” I respond “I’m here.” I look up to find Bill looking at me funny, “What’s wrong, since I came back you’ve been acting weird,” he asks, the concern well present in his voice. I didn’t know what I should tell him. Part of me wanted so badly to ask about the picture, but then again I didn’t want to make it seem like I jealous even if I was. The other part of me knew it shouldn’t bug me, whoever that girl was, she was no longer in Bill’s life, and therefore I didn’t need to worry. I let out a long sigh, and force out a smile, “Nothing’s wrong Bill, I guess I’m just tired, maybe I should just get going.” I tell him, while trying to avert his eyes. He looked confused, “Hayley did I do something wrong?” he asks, while reaching to hug me. I pull away. He looks hurt, “Hayley?” “Hayley, what’s going on, don’t you want to be alone with me?” he asks, I can feel the pain in his voice. “Yes.” I respond. “Then why do you want to go home?” I was confusing him and it was making him frustrated, I could tell. “Who...” I stop myself. No, I wasn’t going to let it get to me. Bill was with me now, and that’s all that mattered. I look up and smile at him; he looks back at me, cautious, not knowing whether or not my smile is actually sincere. “So, these sandwiches, you made them?” I say picking one up. I take a bite, “Not bad, Bill.” I smile, he looks relieved and smiles back, “Yep all by myself, they’re my specialty you know, I only make them on special occasions” he says, that mesmerizing smile now back on his face. I laugh; he was too adorable for words. He climbs onto his bed, and sits with his back against the headboard, he pats the spot next to him, indicting he wants me to sit there. I do just that, even with both of us on it, the bed was still huge. I feel him cuddle his arm around me; I rest my head against his chest. “Comfy?” he asks. I smile and nod my head, “Very, thank you for asking.” I feel him chuckle, “Good.” He responds, “So what movie did you decide on?” I look up at him and laugh, “The Little Mermaid.” He blushes. “Oh yea that…well you see…” I laugh even more, he looks down embarrassed, “Aww no need to be ashamed Bill, it’s an awesome movie, one of my favorites in fact,” I tell him. He looks at me, questioning whether or not I’m being sarcastic. I wasn’t. He grabs the remote, and turns it on. I look at him confused, “I was watching it this morning,” he says, blushing. I smile, as Sebastian starts singing Under the Sea. I cuddle into Bill’s hug and he wraps both arms around me. I take another bite of my sandwich. He was too perfect.

[SCHREIoutLOUD]

<33333


this one didn't make me sweat though. XD

[XxInyourNightmarexX]

"Bill...you got some 'splaining to do..."

haha. I love Lucy...

But I do wanna know who she was.

[CocoRockStar]

Bill is too cute for words and I love that he "cooked" sandwiches, so cute! And seriously, Little Mermaid? Why Jess, why?

[kArLa2tH]

The Little Mermaid? lol
Jess don't do this to me i wanna know who's the girl

[Mz.Kaulitz483]

whos the girl in the picturewe need to know jess please u can't do this 2 us :cry: ;)

[TH_luv]

hmmm...mysterious girl and you just let it go like that?! yeah right I bet she'll pop up out of nowhere and start flirting with Bill and then Haley'll be all...jealous again..IM RIGHT ARENT I?! XD

[Jess_Kaulitz]

haha
Little Mermaid...i love that movie..it's actually very tragic..the real verison..not the disney one.
in the real one Ariel never gets with prince Eric.
so yea...
and this Mystery girl....come on you guys know she's not going to go away...at least not for Bill

DUN DUN DUN!!!!!!

[kArLa2tH]

You are killing me lol
i wanna know who the girl is xD

[TH_luv]

haha
Little Mermaid...i love that movie..it's actually very tragic..the real verison..not the disney one.
in the real one Ariel never gets with prince Eric.
so yea...
and this Mystery girl....come on you guys know she's not going to go away...at least not for Bill

DUN DUN DUN!!!!!!

UGH! NO! Jess now your seriously killing me! >.< Jess yur so evil :cry:

[CocoRockStar]

haha
Little Mermaid...i love that movie..it's actually very tragic..the real verison..not the disney one.
in the real one Ariel never gets with prince Eric.
so yea...
and this Mystery girl....come on you guys know she's not going to go away...at least not for Bill

DUN DUN DUN!!!!!!

Oh Jess, the drama, I can't handle it....I love it!! Write more soon twin :D

[vornpeace]

haha
Little Mermaid...i love that movie..it's actually very tragic..the real verison..not the disney one.
in the real one Ariel never gets with prince Eric.
so yea...
and this Mystery girl....come on you guys know she's not going to go away...at least not for Bill

DUN DUN DUN!!!!!!

Oh Jess, the drama, I can't handle it....I love it!! Write more soon twin :D


Ohhh write more!!

[ChOcoLaTe_CuP_CaKe]

yea bill is to perfect in dead ... so when r u going 2 spill the beans about this mystery girl?

[Jess_Kaulitz]

grrr.
i just finsihed writing the new post
*GASP*
uh oh Mr. Kaulitz...will have plenty more explaining to do indeed.
unfortunately for you guys
i wont post it tonight.
reason being: my head hurts too much, to edit the **** post.

BUT it will be up Early thing tomorrow morning.
i apologize for my lack of effort.
):
don't hate me.
-Jess

[Chaos Crazy]

OMG. OMG. BEST FANFIC EVER!! Sorry, I'm a bit excited. I will definatley be reading this in the morning*im watching you*
LOL*new reader*


Mehr bitte!

[spammi]

dang!i need more now! who is the girl in the pic?

[CocoRockStar]

grrr.
i just finsihed writing the new post
*GASP*
uh oh Mr. Kaulitz...will have plenty more explaining to do indeed.
unfortunately for you guys
i wont post it tonight.
reason being: my head hurts too much, to edit the **** post.

BUT it will be up Early thing tomorrow morning.
i apologize for my lack of effort.
):
don't hate me.
-Jess


Jessssss!! Where are you with the update??

[Chaos Crazy]

YES PLLEAAASE IM OBSESSED!!! I need morrre!
Mehr Bitte.

[Jess_Kaulitz]

New post
BILL’S POV

I turn the TV off, “Hayley?” I whisper. She doesn’t answer back. I look down to find her fast asleep. She still had her head resting against my chest, she looked adorable. I feel her shiver, I gently move her off me and onto my bed, trying not to wake her. I lay her head on my pillow and carefully take her shoes off, I tuck her in. She looked absolutely beautiful sleeping. I grab the DVD, reach over and open my drawer to put it away; I notice the picture lying on top of the piles of DVDs. I freeze. Had Hayley seen it? It made sense, no wonder she had been acting weird when I came in. I let out a long sigh and pick up the picture. “Natalie” I whisper. Even now, saying her name still hurt me. I take a hard look at the picture; we both were so happy back then. I find myself remembering how happy she made me, her laugh, her kisses, the way she smelled; I had loved everything about her. I remember telling Tom how in love I was. He told me to be careful, he warned me to not let my guard down; I should have listened, in the end she ended up leaving me, without ever explaining why. Without realizing it, I’ve crumbled the picture up, I feel stupid, I don’t even know why I kept it. A part of me knows the reason, but I’m too scared to admit it… I wasn’t over her yet. I hear Hayley whisper something in her sleep, I look over at her, for some reason I feel guilty, she had seen the picture, and I can only imagine what she’s thinking now. I know what I feel for her is strong, but I’m scared that it won’t be strong enough. I hear a knock on my door. I jump, the noise bringing me back from my thoughts. I get up slowly, so I won’t wake her, I open it to find my mom, “Bill, you’re still up?” she asks, I nod my head in response. She gives me a concerned look, “Bill, what’s wron…” she stops when she notices the picture in my hand. I see her frown, “Bill, not again, I thought that you…and Hayley…Bill you need to let her go.” She tells me. I just nod, I wasn’t in the mood to argue, I knew she was right. “Hayley saw it, mom.” I tell her, her eyes grow wide, “Oh no, please tell me, she didn’t storm off…” that’s when she notices Hayley sleeping on my bed. She lets out a smile of relief. “Oh thank God.” The smile quickly fades, and the serious look is back on her face, “Listen Bill, I know that Natalie was your first…well everything. I know how much you loved her, and how much you still think about her. But Bill, you need to let her go. Hayley, she’s a good person, and for the first time in a LONG time you seem to be alive again.” I notice her eyes have begun to tear up. “Mom… I begin. “No let me finish,” She whispers, half choking on her tears, she runs her hand down my face. I feel myself crying. “You can’t imagine how hard it was for me to watch you go through all that pain when Natalie left you, but I knew you’d be ok, because you had your brother. But when the accident happened, it killed me to see you go through both those pains alone, and not be able to do anything about it.” She picks up my chin, forcing me to look at her; “But now that you’ve found Hayley, I see my old Bill coming back, you smile now, and she actually makes you laugh.” “Bill, please don’t make the mistake of letting your past push her away, she a wonderful girl, who truly cares about you, the way she looks at you says it all, and don’t think I haven’t noticed the way you look at her. Falling in love is scary, especially when you’ve been hurt by it, but have some faith in her, and yourself.” She tells me. I let out a sigh, “Besides I really like her.” my mom says before giving me my good night kiss, and telling me she wanted me to sleep on the floor. I can’t help but laugh, “Mom, I’m not sleeping on the floor, the bed is big enough for the both of us.” I tell her, her eye widen in horror. “Bill Kaulitz you will follow my orders or I will be forced to make you sleep on the couch.” I laugh, “Okay sure mom, on the floor, I got it.”
And with that she turns up the hallway and leaves. I close the door and sigh, I needed to get over Natalie, I take the picture and toss it in the trash can.
…..if only things were that simple. I take one last look at Hayley, before walking into the bathroom; I get undressed and jump into the shower. My mom was right; I was scared of falling in love again. I think of Hayley, and then back to Natalie, “If only it were that simple.”


errr sorry about the lateness...
i'll explain later,
NEW READER
WELCOME!!!
yay!
...ENJOY
and comment Bitte
-Jess

[SCHREIoutLOUD]

I Love you.

[ChOcoLaTe_CuP_CaKe]

I LOVE YOU MORE!

PSH WHO CARES ABOUT LATENESS WHEN U POSTED AN AMAZEING CHAPTER <3333

AWWWW YO I LOVED IT ... FINALLY WE KNOW WHO THE MYSTERY GIRL IS!

I WAS BITEING MY NAILS THE WOHLE TIME ... N I WAS ABOUT TO CRY WHEN U MENTIONED HOW THE GIRL HURT BILL

MAN MY TIPS! I HOPE UR HAPPY! WEEKS OF GROWING MY NAILS 2 PERFECTION RUINED ... LOL NA BUT GREAT JOB ... IM MA STOP TYPEING NOW....


KK NOW!

[kArLa2tH]

who cares about the lateness u wrote moreeee
for some reason i don't like that mystery girl
haha good Bill slepping on the floor...



more please <3

[Jula]

Natalie?? Why is this name so familiar???
OMG!!!
Natalie is the stupid blonde that goes EVERYWHERE with Bill!! Ja, the makeup artist!! I hate her so much!!!!!!!! hahahah
nein, actually, She's really lucky!!!!!

[CocoRockStar]

I officially HATE Natalie! How dare she hurt Bill like that! But that's ok, he has Hayley to make all the pain go away :)

[Jess_Kaulitz]

woooo!!!!!!

i
love
you
guys.
(:

[CocoRockStar]

woooo!!!!!!

i
love
you
guys.
(:

We love you too :D

[Jess_Kaulitz]

woooo!!!!!!

i
love
you
guys.
(:

We love you too :D
yay!
*feels loved*
(:

[Chaos Crazy]

Aw, that was so good. Too bad he still kinda likes Natalie...
Mehr Bitte :)

[drummergirl24]

Ohhh It's sooo good! Bill better come clean soon! More please?!

[Jess_Kaulitz]

New Post


HAYLEY’S POV

“Bill, I trusted you! How could you do this to me, after you saw what I went through with Jason?!?!” I yell, but he doesn’t seem to listen, he was too busy with HER. He looks at me and laughs, he was taunting me. I feel my chest burning, tears streaming down my face. There was no way this could be real, that girl in the picture, she was his past, she couldn’t be here. “Bill…” I call out, he ignores me, and leans in to kiss her. “What’s going on?!?” I cry.

I jerk up, gasping for air. It was just a dream, I tell myself. It takes me a few seconds to recognize where I’m at. I try to catch my breathe. “It was just a dream.” I repeat trying to recollect my thoughts. I shouldn’t worry, I tell myself, Bill is with me now, but as much as I try to convince myself not to worry, it’s all in vain, because if he truly was over her, he wouldn’t have her picture by his bedside. I jump when I feel my phone vibrate. JASON. “Oh my god, I forgot.” We were supposed to meet. I ignore the call, I didn’t want to talk to him, not now, I wouldn’t be able to handle it. I take in a deep breathe, “Relax Hayley, relax.” I tell myself, that’s when I hear the bathroom door open. I hide my face under the covers, hoping he still thinks I’m asleep. I don’t I could handle talking to Bill right now either. I hear him close the bathroom door, then take a few steps, after a while I don’t hear anything. “You’re a really bad actor, you know that?” I jump at the sound of Bill’s voice. He pulls the sheets off me, and I find him kneeling against the side of the bed. He’s in his boxers. I practically die, I can feel my face being to blush, he just gives me a warm smile. It makes me melt. I look away from him; instead I try my best to concentrate on the patterns of the bedspread. I hear him sigh, “I know you saw the picture Hayley.” He whispers, so low that, I can barely make it out. I slowly let my gaze lock with his. There’s sadness in his eyes. “Please let me explain.” I sigh, “I need to get going,” I telling him, I try to get out of his bed, but he gently pins me back down. “No Hayley, not until I explain.” The look he was giving me was killing me, his eyes made me melt, how could I say no to that? I sigh and just nod my head. “Her name was Natalie…” he begins.

“….In the end she ended up leaving me, she never gave me a reason, she just walked out.” He says the pain and anger obvious in his voice. He had told me everything, about their relationship. I sighed, their story sounded all too familiar, to mine and Jason’s. He looks up at me, I give him a weak smile; he gives me a confused look. “Thank you.” I tell him, his confusion only grows, “You’re thanking me?” he asks, I nod my head. For some strange reason, now that I knew who she was, and what he was going through, made me feeling relieved. “For what?” he asks, still obviously confused. I laugh, “For being honest with me Bill,” I pause before continuing, “I guess we’re both a little scared to fall in love again huh?” I tell him, he nods. I let out a sigh of relief, it felt good to know that it wasn’t just me that was scared of being hurt again, he was too. He picks up my face to make our eyes meet. “I’ll give it my best, if you do?” he tells me, his eyes making every thought in my head disappear, I nod, “Deal.” I say. Before I know it his lips, are locked with mine. I feel his skin against mine. He gently pushed himself onto me and wraps his arms around my waist. I freeze and push him off. He looks at me a little shocked, “Did I do something wrong?” he asks. I blush, “No… you did everything right… actually, that’s the problem.” I tell him breathless. He laughs, and hugs me closer to him. “Hey Bill?” “Hmm” he murmurs, his lips caressing my ear. “For the sake of my heart, can you please put a shirt on?” I whisper, he chuckles, and let’s go. “As you wish.” He says.



Enjoy!
err not my best...sorry.
):
please comment anyways.
-Jess

[CocoRockStar]

WooHoo!!! Shirtless half naked Bill!! And what do you mean not your best? That was great!!

[Mz.Kaulitz483]

i actually love that one the last part was funny
"“Did I do something wrong?” “No… you did everything right… actually, that’s the problem.” “Hey Bill?” “Hmm” “For the sake of my heart, can you please put a shirt on?”“As you wish.”"
i love it cant wait for more :mrgreen: ♥

[Jess_Kaulitz]

awww thanx guys.
:D

[kArLa2tH]

You put Bill half naked and it's not your best.....seriously i love this post


moreee <3

[ChOcoLaTe_CuP_CaKe]

omg i got all comfy ... ready 2 here all the dirt on natile (sp) n then u just fast foward 2 the end ... lol i was like "dang it!"

aw but i liked this cap.

wonder whats gona happen next ....

[CocoRockStar]

omg i got all comfy ... ready 2 here all the dirt on natile (sp) n then u just fast foward 2 the end ... lol i was like "dang it!"

aw but i liked this cap.

wonder whats gona happen next ....

Lolz, for real Jess, what was with the fast forwarding?

[Jess_Kaulitz]

omg i got all comfy ... ready 2 here all the dirt on natile (sp) n then u just fast foward 2 the end ... lol i was like "dang it!"

aw but i liked this cap.

wonder whats gona happen next ....

Lolz, for real Jess, what was with the fast forwarding?

1. i was too lazy to write it out.
2. i didn't really wanna make Bill relive it.
3. ummm yea.. O_O
...but if i might add it in later on...(:

[Jula]

like this cap.... but... what's the deal with Natalie? I mean, nobody runs out of ppl like that...
there's got to be an explanation, or some reason why she left Bill like that???
:?
there's probably a good story behind that, right Jess?
I know u're not gonna dissapoint on us!!

[Chaos Crazy]

OMG. That was a really good chapter! Not your best? THAT WAS AWESOME. Oh, and thanks for welcoming me C:
This is really the best story I have ever read so far, and I'm not lying.

[TH_luv]

lmao omg mehr bitter! XD

[Jess_Kaulitz]

ok so...working my hardest on the next bunch of posts
don't know when i'll post up the newest one...
i don't think you guys really want to read it
do you?

haha
-Jess

[CocoRockStar]

YES YES YES WE DO!!!!

[Chaos Crazy]

YES WE DO! Mehr bitte!

[TH_luv]

dont play like that jess! you know we wanna read the next post! >.<

[Jess_Kaulitz]

alrighty folks....
so i've begun writing the WHOLE...
"Bill tells Hayley about Natalie" part...
you know the one i completely skipped...cuz i was lazy.
well.....
when i finish i'll let you know
now would you like me to post it on here...or not.
let
me
know...
(:
-Jess

[CocoRockStar]

alrighty folks....
so i've begun writing the WHOLE...
"Bill tells Hayley about Natalie" part...
you know the one i completely skipped...cuz i was lazy.
well.....
when i finish i'll let you know
now would you like me to post it on here...or not.
let
me
know...
(:
-Jess


Jess stop teasing us! You know we want you to post it on here!!!

[Jess_Kaulitz]

bold.

haha.
i know..
but i feel that if i post it.
it might ruin the story.

hmmm.

[CocoRockStar]

bold.

haha.
i know..
but i feel that if i post it.
it might ruin the story.

hmmm.


Ruin the story? The only way you could ruin this story is if you didn't finish it. You're doing great so far twin!!

[Jess_Kaulitz]

DUN DUN DUN!!!!!!


not finish the story?!?!!


haha...watch me not finsih it.

you guys would hate me...

haha

[TH_luv]

DUN DUN DUN!!!!!!


not finish the story?!?!!


haha...watch me not finsih it.

you guys would hate me...

haha

Jess!Dont kid like that! >.< thats not funny!!!

[Jess_Kaulitz]

err i wont be posting til
tomorrow.
(:

[Chaos Crazy]

Was?? That hurts :( You're trying to kill me, aren't you?!!

[Jess_Kaulitz]

lol.
no i'm sorry.

[Chaos Crazy]

I just died. Don't make me haunt you :shock: .
Well atleast make it early in the morning bitte. I'll be gone all week :(

[Jess_Kaulitz]

I just died. Don't make me haunt you :shock: .
Well atleast make it early in the morning bitte. I'll be gone all week :(

i will try to do my best
>__<

[Chaos Crazy]

I was just joking, I promise not to haunt you :D

[Jess_Kaulitz]

New Post

HAYLEY’S POV

I watch him walk over to his closet. I wanted to pinch myself, there was no way I was this lucky. I smile. I felt happy; Bill made me feel happy, the thought makes me laugh. Bill turns around, raising an eyebrow, I laugh even harder, he grabs a shirt, “Now, Hayley, do you really want me to put this on?” he asks with a smirk, I roll my eyes at him, although my attempt to hide my smile goes on in vain, “You’re full of yourself Bill.” He laughs, and slips the shirt on. I sigh as I look at the clock, resting on his dresser. 12:15 a.m. I really need to get going I tell him. His smile quickly fades, “But we haven’t done anything yet.” He whines, he looked too **** adorable doing it, I already felt my heart begin to melt. “Of course we did,” I tell him, he frowns, “Hayley, watching a movie hardly counts, beside, you fell asleep on me remember, you now owe me at LEAST an hour of your time.” As much as I wanted to stay I knew I couldn’t. I needed a shower, and I had to work tomorrow, I told him, hoping he’d let me go. He didn’t. “I have a shower here you know.” “Yes you do, but I need clothes Bill.” “You can borrow mine.” “They won’t fit me.” “My mom’s?” “No.” “Ok then, I’ll just drive you too your place, so you can get some clothes, then we come back.” I look at him, “Bill you know that would be pointless, right?” he frowns, “Please Hayley, just stay.” I avert his gaze; I can feel him giving me those puppy eyes. I had to resist him. I shake my head. “Bill I can’t” I tell him, while turning to grabs my purse... He comes up from behind, and wraps his arms around my waist. “Well then at least let be drive you home.” He tells me. It takes me a while to answer him, “I guess that would be okay…as long as it doesn’t bother you.” I say. I hear him chuckle, “Alone with you? ... Not one bit” he whispers, it takes my breathe away. “Okay then let’s get going,” I tell me, and with that, he grabs my hand
and leads me all the way to his car. He opens my door for me, and I slide into the seat, “Nice car Bill.” “Thank you, my mom gave Tom and I each a car, for our seventeenth birthday.” He says as he slips into the driver’s seat, and begins to drive. The rest of the ride is silent; I too tired and too was busy trying not to drool on Bill seat, and he seemed lost in his thoughts. Before I knew it, we were in front of my apartment. I unclick the seatbelt and get out of the car. I see Bill do the same, “What are you doing?” I ask a bit confused. I see him smile, “I said I’d take you home didn’t I?” he responds, “Yes but you don’t have to walk me to the door Bill, you’ve done enough as it is.” I tell him, I didn’t like wasting his time. He looks at me bewildered, “Now Hayley, what kind of boyfriend would I be if I didn’t walk my girlfriend to the door? … Besides I’m not planning on going home anytime soon, you still owe me that hour remember?” He says with a smile. A huge smile forms across my face, ‘MY GIRLFRIEND’ , I really liked hearing him say that…. It takes me a few seconds to process the rest of what he said, “Wait what? You’re coming inside?” I ask, he nods his head, takes my hand, and walks me to my front door. I opened door, we walked inside… and once again I found myself feeling nervous.


Enjoy.
more later on tonight.
(:
comment Bitte
-Jess

[SCHREIoutLOUD]

sdglkjdgs.

I love you.

[Jess_Kaulitz]

sdglkjdgs.

I love you.


love you too.
(:

[CocoRockStar]

That Bill is very persistent isn't he? That was a cute chapter :)

[Jess_Kaulitz]

That Bill is very persistent isn't he? That was a cute chapter :)
very very persistent.
just imagine when they get inside.
O_O
dun dun dun.
haha

[CocoRockStar]

That Bill is very persistent isn't he? That was a cute chapter :)
very very persistent.
just imagine when they get inside.
O_O
dun dun dun.
haha

Oooo I can only imagine. Hayley doesn't stand a chance!

[TH_luv]

oooh....they go inside... :shock: I need mehr Jess! >.< zomg what will happen?? will Haley be able to avoid his cute adorable eyes?! (no XD) zomg...will Haley be able to wake in time for work tommorrow?!!!! zomg.......

[Chaos Crazy]

ZOMG. I think I know what that hour will be of...
MORE. btw...sorry if you do not see me for five days :(

[sheheartsREDEN]

:shock: oh lordy what will bill do inside ;) lol

[kArLa2tH]

OMG what are they gonna do inside wahh i need to know

more <3

[ChOcoLaTe_CuP_CaKe]

hyperventlaying*

omgomg y should she be nervous ... is it something good? is it something bad?

I CANT BREATHE I CANT BREATHE

AHHHH

kk im done <3

[Mz.Kaulitz483]

hmm i think her house is a mess thats why she doesn't want him to come inside..am i right am i right??? :? ;) cuz i know bill its not going 2 do anything bad right :(

[Jess_Kaulitz]

i love reading your guys'
comments.
they make me happy.
(:

[XxInyourNightmarexX]

XD -flails-

Bill is tryna seduce her!!! Ahhhh!

[Jess_Kaulitz]

XD -flails-

Bill is tryna seduce her!!! Ahhhh!

GASP!

DUN DUN DUN!

[XxInyourNightmarexX]

XD -flails-

Bill is tryna seduce her!!! Ahhhh!

GASP!

DUN DUN DUN!

I clicked here to see if you updated, but lo and behold you are only adding onto the suspence. Grrr.
Must you torture us so sweetly? -sniffle-
Update when you can. And I hope so much that Bill attempts to seduce Hayley. ooohh ;)

[spammi]

i love this soooo much i cant wait for more im jumping up and down in my seet right now im like really excited.

[Get_Fuzzy]

forget going home, I would have stayed haha.

[Jess_Kaulitz]

New Post...

HAYLEY’S POV

“Well this is it.” I tell him, dropping my keys onto my kitchen counter. “Nothing compared to yours huh?” I hear him laugh. “Hayley its fine” he says wrapping his arms around me. I lose my breath. I still wasn’t used to having him so close. “I should probably go shower” I tell him. “You can make yourself at home.” I say as break our embrace, and start walking down the hallway. I hear Bill’s steps following close behind me. I turn around to face him. “What do you think you’re doing?” I ask, just a tad bit nervous. He chuckles, and continues to walk, in front of me now. “I want to see your room.” He says with an innocent smile. I freeze. No no no not my room, “Bill no, you can’t” I beg. He turns around, puppy eyes already present, “Aww Hayley please?” I don’t hear him; I’m too busy trying to concentrate on breathing. He wasn’t playing fair, I see his lips move again, I don’t hear a word, and in a daze I nod my head. My answer apparently making him happy, he grabs my hand. I really needed to figure out how to resist those eyes. I lead him into my room; thank god I had cleaned it up this morning. “Happy?” I ask him, he just nods, and continues to look around room. Mostly, taking his time out to look at pictures of my mom and me. “Is this your mom?” he asks. “Yep, that’s her.” I didn’t really like talking about her, we didn’t have the best mother-daughter relationship. “She looks a lot like you,” he pointed out. I sigh, I hated being reminded of that, “so I’ve heard.” I guess Bill noticed my mood change, because he dropped the subject. He continued to walk around my room, while I gathered my things to shower. He picked up the picture next on my night stand. I freeze. **** it, I knew I had forgotten to take that one down. He frowns, and sets it back down, “You three looked happy back then.” He whispers. I glance at the picture; it was of me, Leslie, and Jason, almost to years ago on my sixteenth birthday. I sigh, I was hugging Jason, while he kissed my cheek, a huge smile on my face. “We were.” I whispered back, while taking the picture, and tossing it into the trash can. “But that was then, and this is now.” I tell him, wrapping my arms around his waist. I knew the picture had bugged him. “I like you hugs.” He whispers, the smile in his voice sends my heart racing. “I like yours too.” I tell him, “but I really need to go shower.” I say once again breaking our embrace. He nods, and jumps into my bed, “I’ll be waiting.” He says. For a second I’m dumbstruck, seeing Bill on my bed, sent too many thoughts into my head, thoughts i wasn't used to thinking, which in return also makes me blush. I guess he noticed, because I see the huge grin form onto his face, “And you say, I’m the one who needs to behave, I know what you’re thinking Hayley, but I’m sorry, you made me promise to me good remember?” he laughs. I blush even harder, and practically run into the bathroom. I turn on the shower and get in….I hear the buzzer go off…who in the world could it be, this late….."I'll get it!" i hear Bill yell....




err sorry it took long.
here it is...
hmmm i wonder whos at the door.
as of right now...
i don't even know my self
or do i?????
DUN DUN DUN!!

haha of course i do!
(:
but like always i'll be evil and keep ypu guessing
ENJOY!
and
COMMENT
please.
-Jess

[sheheartsREDEN]

hmmmm... its either jason or leslie... my guess is jason

[<3ByYourSide<3]

i just read your whole story all the way from the begining and all i can say is WOW! this is AMAZING...wait amazing doesnt even begin to decribe it...
you have talent!

[Mz.Kaulitz483]

i know i know whos at the door..some evil crazy fan girls that are going to throw glowstick AT HIM..j/k or it could be jumbie!! :roll: ok that was stupid but i just have no idea who is at the door :x ..or maybe i do is it jason?? :shock:

[kArLa2tH]

*thinkin thinkin* i think the person at the door is Jason

moreeee <3

[CocoRockStar]

OMG write more!! I must know who's at the door!! And if it's Jason, please don't let him hurt my poor Billy!!

[Jess_Kaulitz]

i just read your whole story all the way from the begining and all i can say is WOW! this is AMAZING...wait amazing doesnt even begin to decribe it...
you have talent!


wow.
thank you.
(:

i seriously do appreciate this.


and to the rest of you....

it's not...Jason...or Leslie....
wait....Jumbie?!?!?

lol

[CocoRockStar]

i just read your whole story all the way from the begining and all i can say is WOW! this is AMAZING...wait amazing doesnt even begin to decribe it...
you have talent!


wow.
thank you.
(:

i seriously do appreciate this.


and to the rest of you....

it's not...Jason...or Leslie....
wait....Jumbie?!?!?

lol


Wait, it's NOT Jason or Leslie? I bet it's her mom then! Wait, don't tell us, just write faster!!

[kArLa2tH]

It's not JAson hmmm.... yay!

waiting for the next post then

[TH_luv]

jess you just confused me but...I dunno just please please please post more *begs on knees while doinf the puppy dog face*

[ChOcoLaTe_CuP_CaKe]

i just read your whole story all the way from the begining and all i can say is WOW! this is AMAZING...wait amazing doesnt even begin to decribe it...
you have talent!


wow.
thank you.
(:

i seriously do appreciate this.


and to the rest of you....

it's not...Jason...or Leslie....
wait....Jumbie?!?!?

lol


Wait, it's NOT Jason or Leslie? I bet it's her mom then! Wait, don't tell us, just write faster!!

hmmmm yo whats its it jason AND leslie ... AH HA!
didnt c that 1 comeing did ya! ...

or maybe its ... ONE OF THE JONAS BROTHERS!!!!
kk im done ....

[Jess_Kaulitz]

New Post...

BILL POV’S

The buzzer is going of like crazy. Whoever it was was sure in a hurry to speak to Hayley. I open the door. I freeze. “Mom?” How did she get here? She’s a wreck, tears are streaming down her face, and she can barely speak. “Mom! Mom what’s wrong?!?!?!” I ask frantically, she was scaring me, I had never seen her this way. “Bill…” she begins, grabbing on to my shoulders, trying her best to catch her breath. “Mom, breathe.” I beg her, tears already beginning to form in my eyes. “Bill… it’s Tom.” She whispers. My eyes open wide in fear of the worse. “Wha…What about Tom?” I ask, suddenly finding myself short of breath. God please don’t let it be what I think it is. Let him be okay. “Bill, honey, we have to leave to Germany, by tonight.” I barely hear her whisper. Oh my God. I couldn’t tell if her tears were of pain or joy. The room begins to spin, no no no NO. Calm down Bill, your brother is fine. “Mo…Mo...Mom what happened to Tom?!?!!?” I whisper, I feel myself sweating, my stomach in knots. Then I see it, I see the look in her eyes, and that’s when I know everything would be…… okay. “Bill… Tom woke up.” The emotions I had been fighting for so long, emerge, I begin to sob uncontrollably. “He…he…he woke up?” I ask, through tears. My mom nods her head, tears also running down her face. “Georg, called as soon as you left, it took me a while before actually finding Hayley’s apartment, but I knew this couldn’t wait, I had to tell you.” I hug my mother close to me, my heart racing. My brother was alive again. Tom was awake. I could even begin to process all the emotions going through me right now. My Tom, my brother, by best friend, was awake. The thought sent my mind into a frenzy. I still couldn’t believe it, my bother was okay, he was alive, he was awake. A huge smile forms across my face, and I hold my mother even closer to me. “Bill, our flight leaves, in an hour.” I hear my mom whisper. I freeze, an hour. In an hour I’d be on my way home, to see my brother again. “Then we should getting” I say letting go of our embrace. The excitement well present in my voice. I was going to see my brother, only this time he was going to be awake, the thought still seemed so surreal to me. “Mrs. Kaulitz?” “Bill?” I look up to find Hayley standing in the hallway. For a moment she looks confused, but then worried, she rushes over to us. “Bill, what’s going on…Mrs. Kaulitz are you ok?” My mom and I both smile. “Hayley…” I begin as I take her hands into my own, “Hayley, Tom woke up.” I say with a huge smile on my face. Her eyes grow wide, and tears begin to form, “Oh my god, Bill...” she whispers, her emotions getting the best of her. She turns to look at my mom, “Mrs. Kaulitz…” she says letting go, to hug my mom. My mom hugs her back, “Oh my god, this is such amazing news!” My mother lets go of the hug, “Well Bill, we need to get going.” I nod. I see the look of confusing on Hayley’s face. Oh no, how was I going to tell her. “Going?” she whispers, once again I nod, “Our flight back to Germany leaves in less than an hour.” I whisper, averting her eyes. “Oh,” is all she responds. “Hayley…” I begin, before getting cut off, “Bill it’s okay, I UNDERSTAND.” I look up to fine her smiling, “You need to go see your brother.” And although I know she means it, and I know she’s happy for me, her eyes can’t lie. She didn’t want me to go.
My mom tells me she’ll wait for me at home. I nod, as she exits the apartment. “Hayley, I’m sorry.” She looks at me shocked, “For what?” “For leaving” I whisper, wrapping my arms around her waist. God I was going to miss her. “Bill, don’t be stupid, he’s your brother, I understand.” I sigh. I never she did, but I also knew she didn’t want me to go. “Now hurry, your flight will be leaving soon.” She whispers. I give her one last kiss, before turning around to leave. “I’ll be right here waiting for you….” I hear her say before closing the door behind me. My big brother sure knew how to time his grand return.



perfect timing Tom.
haha
ENJOY!
-Jess

fun fact: i couldn't sleep...it's 3 in the morning.

ZOMG...whoever posts next will be my 200 post.
whoever that lucky person is....
will get a speacial...present from me.
(:

[TH_luv]

oooh! Tom woke up?! ooooh this is getting better :D

[Jess_Kaulitz]

oooh! Tom woke up?! ooooh this is getting better :D


Ahhhhh Congragulations!!!

you're my 200 posts
(:

wait.....weren't you also my 100 posts..on the old board?

O_O

lol...well anyways
want to know what you present is?

[CocoRockStar]

YES YES!!! TOM IS AWAKE!!!! I'm so happy right now Jess :D

[XxInyourNightmarexX]

Hooray for Tomi boy!! I'm lovin' this but poor Hayley has to let Bill go for a while.

[kArLa2tH]

OMG Tom woke up this is great!

[<3ByYourSide<3]

YAY! toms awake!!!!!!!!!!!woo hoo!!!!!!!! :mrgreen:

[Chaos Crazy]

Ah hurray! I know I said I wouldn't be back all week but here I am :D
MORE MORE MORE! Mehhhr. And with the hurray, awww. :( Poor Haley.

[sheheartsREDEN]

yay tom woke up! at first i thought he died... lol

[Jess_Kaulitz]

New Post....

lol..Tom would never die...at least not in this story.
(:
ok fastfroward 4 months.


HAYLEY’S POV

I hadn’t wanted him to go. God was I that selfish? I was happy for Bill, the news of Tom’s recovery, had made him ecstatic. I had never seen him smile so much………and his eyes……they seemed…I don’t know……alive again. But him leaving, I couldn’t bare it.

I sigh; it had been 4 moths since he left to Germany, 2 months, since my last phone call with him, from what he last told me, Tom has almost made a complete recovery. I still remember his last words, before we hung up, “I miss you Hayley, I’ll see you soon, I promise.” But that was 2 months ago, he hadn’t called ever since. Part of me wanted to scream, because I had no idea what was going on with us, at least not anymore. The first couple of weeks since leaving, Bill had called me every night, we spent hours talking about us, and finding out things about each other we didn’t know before. I met Tom, Georg, and Gustav through the phone. They all seemed really nice, Tom, being Bill’s older brother, made me promise him, that I wouldn't break Bill’s heart. I promised. Georg and Gustav just thanked me for helping Bill piece his life back together. I remember smiling, when I heard them say that. His friends really cared about him. I sigh once again, I couldn’t understand why Bill, hadn’t called. I was over re-acting. Yes that’s it I tell myself. I needed to understand that, right now Bill was with his family and friends, he was back home, but that didn’t mean anything between us would change. God I missed him though, I missed his smile, his laugh, but most of all I missed hearing his voice. I turn the corner, to their coffee shop. I freeze. “What’s going on?” I ask a man standing in front of the shop door. “The owners of this place, moved back home.” He responds. I begin to panic. “Umm yes, but only for a little while, they had a family emergency…. Why are you shutting down their shop?” I asks, tears already beginning to form. No, no no, they’d be back, Bill told me him self, they’d be back. “Not according to the owner Ms., she’s the one who sold us the shop, according to them, they won’t be coming back…besides we’re not shutting it down, we’re the new owners,” my head begins to spin, and I can feel my chest about to explode. “No, no, no, they has to be some kind of mistake!” I yell back at the man, tears streaming down my face. He looks at me like I’m crazy, and quickly backs away. God, no, this can’t be happening. “They’re coming back.” I tell myself. “Bill told me himself, they’re coming back.” But it’s no use; I fall to my knees and being to cry. The pain in my chest was growing, I could barely breathe. He couldn’t just not come back, Bill, wouldn’t do that to me. Would he? No. he was different, I tell myself. I feel my phone vibrate, BILL. I quickly flip it open, “Bill!” “Hey Hayley.” I hear him says. Its funny how just the sound of his voice, made all the pain go away, “Bill, oh my god how have you been? How’s Tom? How’s your Mom? I was so worr…” I get cut off. “Hayley, we need to talk.” He says. And that’s when I notice the sad tone in his voice. I feel my chest tighten, I could tell what ever he was about to tell me, I wasn’t going to like it. I hear him take a deep breathe before beginning. “Hayley, I’m not coming back.” I stop breathing There was no way, this could be real…..



dun dun dun
(:
don't hate me
>__<'

Comment

[TH_luv]

oooh! Tom woke up?! ooooh this is getting better :D


Ahhhhh Congragulations!!!

you're my 200 posts
(:

wait.....weren't you also my 100 posts..on the old board?

O_O

lol...well anyways
want to know what you present is?

zomg lmao I was the 100th poster XD how....weird O.o anywayz yesh! I do wanna know what I won =D

[TH_luv]

no no no no!!! zomg I almost cried in that >.< they break up and Haily dies of a broke heart?! I dont hate you jess lol...cuz yur gonna do something about it...right?...right?!

[kArLa2tH]

OMG what?????? neinnnnnnn i'm about to cry
why is he not coming back he has to. what about Hayley :(

[Jula]

what?????????????'' neinnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!
:shock: dude, why you're doing this to me????
man!!! I feel like poor Hayley, and I have this song in my head, that recreates the whole picture!!!

...."the walls start breathing, my minds unweaving
maybe it's best you leave me alone
A weight is liffted
on this evening
I give the final blow"...

I can see myself crying listen to his phone call!!

[CocoRockStar]

Jess you're so mean! I can't believe Bill did that! You better fix this!!

[Jess_Kaulitz]

i promise i'll try to fix it.

but hey....it was all Bill.
(:

[TH_luv]

i promise i'll try to fix it.

but hey....it was all Bill.
(:

true...but yur the one making Bill's desicions Jess,dont try and blame Bill for all this lol

[sheheartsREDEN]

omg omg!!! this cant happen! haha werent they only like going out together for like a day before bill had to leave? lol you have to fix this!

[Jess_Kaulitz]

i promise i'll try to fix it.

but hey....it was all Bill.
(:

true...but yur the one making Bill's desicions Jess,dont try and blame Bill for all this lol

darn!
haha

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

please write more soon....i wanted to cry...man I am in a crying mood tonight...anyways it was really good I can't wait until the next part.

[<3ByYourSide<3]

noooo...they cant break up! you have to fix this!
it is amazing though!

[XxInyourNightmarexX]

"Poor Cinderelli"

or is it "Poor Hayley"

*sniffle*

[Jess_Kaulitz]

New Post...


HAYLEY’ POV

I was speechless. “Hayley, I’m not coming back.” It kept repeating over and over in my head. “Hayley? You still there?” I hear Bill ask. I couldn’t breathe. I couldn’t think. WAS HE SERIOUS?!?!? Everything around me began to spin. This had to be some kind of nightmare. Yes that was it. I was dreaming, and pretty soon I’d be waking up. But the pain felt too real, and as much as I wanted to pretend, I knew this was real. “Why?” I whisper. I hear him sigh. “Hayley…” he begins, “Just… answer… my... question Bill, Why?” I plead. I hear someone in the background. “Natalie, I told you to wait in the other room.” I hear him whisper. I feel my heart break into a million pieces. Her…. All this time, he had been with her. “Forget it Bill, I get it.” I whisper, trying to choke back tears. “Hayley wait I can expl…” I hang up. I didn’t want to hear it, not right now. I needed to calm down.
I couldn’t breathe.
My chest was on the verge of exploding.
Everything I knew was slowly slipping away.
No. No. No. I had been wrong; he was just like all the other guys out there.
He was no better than Jason.
I find myself getting angry. “I’m so stupid!” I scream. The pain inside of me was getting too strong to bear. I couldn’t take it, but I had no one to turn to, no one to carry me out of this pain. A few months ago Bill had been the one to save me.
Now he was the one causing me all this pain. I slowly pick myself up from the ground.
I knew it.
He was too good to be true.
He had ALWAYS been too good to be true.
I turn the corner, of the shop; I needed to get out of here, seeing this place caused me more pain than I could bear. Rain beings to fall, I see people running for cover. I keep walking, getting stares from strangers.
The sun was setting.
“I miss you Hayley, I’ll see you soon, I promise.”
Liar.
The throbbing in my chest keeps getting stronger. Had everything he said to me been a lie? I would never know, now. I feel my phone vibrate again. BILL. I grab it, and shut it off. I didn’t want to hear his voice…



i have the next 3 posts done.
hehe...it's up to your guys' awesome comments..to convince me wheter or not to post them.
(:

[ILuvKaulitzTwins4E]

omg noo ...please write more i love itt

[kArLa2tH]

oh Bill whyyyy????? not Natalie no =[


please write more <3

[XxInyourNightmarexX]

Whhhhyyyy?

Natalie, that homewrecker! She gone and ruined the plan!!!

[margaritalouita9]

Please post, please post, PLEASE POST!!! Natalie is a skank and I hope she dies! I don't even know her, but Hayley needs to be with Bill! NOW!!

[sheheartsREDEN]

gosh natalie is such a little homewrecker!! hopefully everything will turn out good though :] (it better... lol jk)aww please post the next ones now!!!

[JumbieLover]

Please post more, this story is amazing!

[Jula]

whatttttttt???
Natalie??? Man!!! He better have a really GOOD explanation for this!!! Althoug, would you believe him???

[SCHREIoutLOUD]

*jaw drops*

*cries*

[ChOcoLaTe_CuP_CaKe]

JESS!

you made me cry ... omg ... although it was a sad chap. i loved it .... omg omg

how could thats happen

whyyy! ....

u must post the next ones

im GOING INSANE!

i im speechless ... ahhhhhhhhhh

great job ...

[sheheartsREDEN]

ahhh you need to post the next parts! im dying to find out what happens!!!!

[<3ByYourSide<3]

AHHH! you HAVE to post the next chapters!!!!!!!!!!!!! you cant leave me hanging!!!!!!!!!!!
im dieing to know what happens!!!!!

[TH_luv]

noo! jess thats evil! >.< it made me wanna cry! >.< zomg post more! if the other posts are done then post more!! >.< I have to see whats happning here!

[Chaos Crazy]

mehr bitte. i cried :(
usually I'm on Bill's side, but that's just mean.

[spammi]

OMG! im crying over here you have to post more! jeez bill! no offence but hes like sooooooooooo stupid! wow u must post more!

[CocoRockStar]

Bill better have a VERY good explanation for this Jess!!

[spammi]

please post more! im gonna keep saying plz untill u do. plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz pl plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz! i can keep going if u like

[Jess_Kaulitz]

New Post...


BILL’S POV

She wasn’t picking up, God. I needed to explain to her. I feel Natalie wrap her arms around me. I freeze, “Natalie, stop.” I tell her. I turn to face her. She looked at me confused, “What’s wrong Bill, are you second guessing your decision?” she asked, her tone half scared, half angry. I take a good look at her, and shake my head, “No.” I answer. I hug her close to me. This felt right I tell myself. She was the one for me. I knew it.What about Hayley? I hear a voice in the back of my head ask. What about her. How can you just leave her like that? Don’t you have any feelings for her? How can you just leave her like that? Don’t you have any feelings for her? Liar. The voice tells me, you never cared about her. Yes I did, I do, I still care about her, it’s just that….my feelings for Natalie are STRONGER. Stop lying Bill you never cared about Hayley, if you did, you wouldn’t be hurting her this way. My conscious was getting the best of me….but everything I had experienced with her had been real, I had let Hayley see a part of me no one but my brother had ever seen. I did care about her. It’s just that Natalie was my first love, and I had never gotten over her. I look down at Natalie; she smiles back up at me. Yes, I had made the right decision, Natalie, had and would always be the one for me. I tell myself. She leans in and kisses my lips. I kiss her back. “Bill our flight leav…?” We both break free to look up at Tom; his face shows disappointment and disgust. “Oh… I see you’ve made your choice” he says. “Tom…” I begin. But he cuts me off. “Bill, can I talk to you, in private.”
I sigh; I knew he wasn’t happy about my decision. I give Natalie, a reassuring smile, but she doesn’t see it…she’s too busy looking at Tom, her face worried.
What was going on?.....



okay sorry about the delay.
my mom made me go to the beach today.
i hate the beach.

more tonight.
promise.
(:
comment.

and please don't hate Bill.
>__<

[Jess_Kaulitz]

More...


TOM’S POV

You have to tell him. I know. He needs to know the truth. Yes I know. My conscious was going crazy; I had let this get too far. “Bill, you’re making a huge mistake.” I tell him. I see him shake his head. “Tom, I know you don’t like her, but I love Natalie, please just let me be.” I frown, “Bill, she’s not worth it.” He sighs, “Tom, I love her…can...” “God Bill! She left! Okay! She walked out of your life, without ever saying why? She gave you up, and left, and now you’re just going to take her back like nothing ever happened?!?!? What about Hayley? Huh? What, are you just going to forget about her, because some ghost from your past decided to return?!?” I yell, he was really getting me ****** off. Why did he have to be so **** stupid? He looks down at his feet. “Tom, Hayley, was just, I don’t know I was just confused, she means nothing to me…” he whispers. I cut him off, “You’re lying,” I tell him. He looks up at me, “You don’t know that.” He says. I shake my head, “Bill please, the way you would talk about her when you first got here, the way mom described how you would look at her, the sound of your voice every time you were on the phone with her, and your eyes, they’d light up every time I mentioned her name.” I shrug “You sure made it seem like you cared for her.” I see my brother standing there looking at me in complete shock. I grin, “What can I say little brother you’re that obvious.” I drop my smile, and give him a serious look, “And I don’t see you acting like that around Natalie, at least not now.” I sigh “ Look I don’t know what the **** she’s done to you to make you go back with her, or if it’s just the fact that you’re too scared to fall in real love with Hayley, but please just trust me when I tell you, don’t choose Natalie.” He shakes his head, “Why do you hate her so much Tom?” he asks. I don’t hesitate to answer, “She hurt you. It’s that simple Bill. She left without ever saying why, she broke you heart, and never gave you an explanation, she hurt my little brother, do I really need anymore reasons to not like her?” I see tears forming in his eyes. “No need to cry, Bill.” I tell him, although knowing him, I knew it wouldn’t do any good; he had always been the sensitive one. “But, I love her Tom.” He whispers. I frown, there was no use fighting it. He was blind. “Look, the plane leaves in two hours, Georg, Gustav and me are leaving to the airport in a few minutes to meet up with mom.” He nods his head and starts to head out the door. I sigh, “Bill.” He stops, but doesn’t turn around. “Yea?” he responds. “Before you make your final decision, do me a favor…” I say while walking past him, I turn to face him, “Ask Natalie to tell you why she really left.” I leave him standing there, looking confused. You should have told him. No, he needs to find out the truth by himself. I sigh, as I turn the corner and face Georg and Gustav. “Don’t tell me he’s staying?” Georg asks, his voice showing the same confusion as his face. I nod. “What the **** is wrong with him, what about Hayley?” Gustav says. I shrug and shake my head in disgust. “You both know Bill; he isn’t the smartest person, when it comes to love.” I say. Mom isn’t going to be too happy, when she sees me arrive at the airport without Bill. I let out a long sigh. God, please let Bill make the right choice; please don’t let him choose Natalie.



okay so here's the rest.
(:
ENJOY!

[spammi]

oooooooooooooohhhhhhhhh!2 that was so not enough! i need more! ill start saying plz again.

[Jess_Kaulitz]

oooooooooooooohhhhhhhhh!2 that was so not enough! i need more! ill start saying plz again.


lol.
*feels pressure*
>__<'

i'm trying
i'm trying.
(:

[spammi]

yay! i feel a bit better now. but how could bill do this?! y would he do this to haley after all that shes been through! and hes just gonna make her go through it agai! dumb ***!

[Get_Fuzzy]

trouble in paradise.... Verpiss dich Natalie! dumb hoe.

[CocoRockStar]

JESSICA!!!!!!!!! You have some explaining to do missy!! And so does Bill! :evil:

[Jess_Kaulitz]

*runs and hide*

ahhh!!!
please
don't kill me...or Bill!

i promise i'll fix it.

*thinking*
even if i have no idea how.

:shock:

[CocoRockStar]

*runs and hide*

ahhh!!!
please
don't kill me...or Bill!

i promise i'll fix it.

*thinking*
even if i have no idea how.

:shock:


Bill better get on his knees and beg! And buy her a puppy too!!

[Jess_Kaulitz]

haha...
well as of right now....
Mr. Kaulitz(Bill)..isn't doing a very good job at listening to his big brother

*preview from new post*

She was right, nothing else should matter now, how could I have let Tom’s words affect me so much. I let my senses take over me, and next thing I know, we’re on my bed. I loved her, I tell myself, and that’s all that mattered.


haha
i'm evil
the rest very soon.
(:

[CocoRockStar]

I'm officially crying now :( And I hate Bill at the moment.

[spammi]

OH MY GOD BILL! HOW COULD HE DO THIS?! i bet u nattalie dont even love him that stupid hoe i hate her. and right now i hate bill to.