I’m Screaming, “I Love You So” (Poetry and other writings)

[LipsOfAnAngel]

here's my first poem. i wrote a couple weeks ago. hope you like it.



My Bittersweet Heart
By: Nikki Pulcinella

My bittersweet heart
I hate you so
You make my life ****
I wish you’d just go.

My bittersweet heart
Can’t you see?
I love that boy there
But you won’t let us be.

Oh bittersweet heart
I try to lose you
But you keep coming back
Just that much stronger
Where I cry because of the pain
And the hurt you cause me
My bittersweet heart
Slowly, you will kill me.

[<3ByYourSide<3]

wow...thats AMAZING! i love it!!! :D

[TH_luv]

Wow that was a beautiful

[LipsOfAnAngel]

took me long enough but i wrote another poem today.

. : I Can Not : .

My eyes are burning
Tearing up
The pain is unbarable
I can’t take it anymore.

My throat is dry
A lump is forming
I can’t speak
It hurts too much.

My legs are weak
Pain shoots through them
I can’t stand, let alone walk
I am crippled.

My head is hurting
I can’t focus on anything
The pain is killing me
It feels like i’m dieing.

Why do I have to experience so much pain?
What did I do to deserve this?
I have done no wrong
I’ve tried my best to be good.

I can not see.
I can not speak.
I can not walk.
I can not think.

I Can Not.







i hope you liked it!!!

[LipsOfAnAngel]

this is the first poem i ever wrote. i was feeling depressed that day. it doesn't have a title but i hope you like it.

all is quiet and calm
still and silent
while the music blares
and the speakers drum
i am silent
but inside i’m screaming
i am still
but inside i’m running
i am calm
but inside i’m frantic
i am quiet
but inside i’m loud
yelling my feelings
and breaking rules
crying my eyes out
to all of my broken hearts
and i water the plants
with my tears
hoping for joy
and love
and happiness
and for good things to come
but as i sit and wait
the day passes me by
and i slowly die inside
the person that wants to get out
and be free from it’s nobody prison
the person with passion
and energy
its dies as the nobody shell rules
and lives life without living
i would cry but i have no tears
i would scream but i have no voice
i would live but i have no life
please help me
save me from my fate
the fate of no life
as i wait for the time
the time to have my first date
the time to have my first kiss
the time to have my first love
to live without that
is not living
as i be but not live
as i watch but not join
as i see but not do
please help me
break free from my shell
my prison
so i can be who is inside
and show my energy
my life
and live
how i always wanted
to be me
the me no one knows
but only if you help me
break free and be me

[LipsOfAnAngel]

wow, it's been awhile. i thought i'd start using this thing again.


Inner Thoughts


I can’t take it anymore.

I’ve been having so much trouble
trying to make it in this life
that trying just isn’t enough.

Do you understand?

Most people don’t.

I am different.

I get it.

I’m not like the others around us.

You, you get it.

You might not know it... or me for that matter.

Life sucks, majorly.

I’ve been fighting everyone
around me who think i’m a freak
and don’t belong.

And because they think I don’t belong
they make fun of me and what’s different.

I have feelings you know.

More so then you I think.

I hate most people.

Especially thoughs who think
they’re better then everyone else around.
Better then sliced bread.

And I like sliced bread.

Thoughs bleach blonde, manicured nailed freaks.
Yeah, you heard me right, freaks.
They’re just as bad as me, worse even.

I see you staring.
I’m just expressing myself... what are you doing?
Trying to be like everyone else?
That’s boring, and trust me a know boring.

Hello.
Goodbye.

[Haley1018]

this is the first poem i ever wrote. i was feeling depressed that day. it doesn't have a title but i hope you like it.

all is quiet and calm
still and silent
while the music blares
and the speakers drum
i am silent
but inside i’m screaming
i am still
but inside i’m running
i am calm
but inside i’m frantic
i am quiet
but inside i’m loud
yelling my feelings
and breaking rules
crying my eyes out
to all of my broken hearts
and i water the plants
with my tears
hoping for joy
and love
and happiness
and for good things to come
but as i sit and wait
the day passes me by
and i slowly die inside
the person that wants to get out
and be free from it’s nobody prison
the person with passion
and energy
its dies as the nobody shell rules
and lives life without living
i would cry but i have no tears
i would scream but i have no voice
i would live but i have no life
please help me
save me from my fate
the fate of no life
as i wait for the time
the time to have my first date
the time to have my first kiss
the time to have my first love
to live without that
is not living
as i be but not live
as i watch but not join
as i see but not do
please help me
break free from my shell
my prison
so i can be who is inside
and show my energy
my life
and live
how i always wanted
to be me
the me no one knows
but only if you help me
break free and be me

I love this.<3

[LipsOfAnAngel]

danke

[LipsOfAnAngel]

my inspiration... painting my nails black haha



Black

Black bottle
Sitting on the table
Black liquid
Pouring out
I paint my life
with the color black

Black nails
Symbol of my life
Hardcore
Don’t mess
with me

Black hair
Spiked high
Black lines
Around
his black eyes

Black words
Reach out
to me
Calling
my name

Black ways
Dark ways
No way
Out

Black clothes
Scream black words
I listen
No sound

Black... everything
No escape

Black

[LipsOfAnAngel]

Coming For Me

I run so fast
But not fast enough
They are coming for me
For me, what did I do?
Nothing, that’s what
But I have to run still
Or they will catch me
and kill me

They are coming for you
I’m sorry to tell you so late
To break it to you
But it’s true
They will kill you
If they catch you... if
Run, run now
This way, now

They are coming for us
We have no where to hide
All we have is running
Running for our lives

I think back, to all I have done
I see no faults
No mishaps
My slate is clean
So why are they coming,
Coming for me?

They are gaining on me
You
Us
Run... faster... now

They almost had me
Keep going, don’t look back
If anyone should be punished
It’s me, not you
I know you did nothing
I am positive
Keep running, don’t look back
I’ll be fine

They have me now
I am to die
For what? I ask
I get no answer
They tie me down
They beat me up
They take me away

Keep running, don’t look back

They were coming for me
But now they have me
I will die for something I did not do
As long as it’s not you that’s dieing
I wouldn’t be able
to live with myself
if you did

I lie here now
On the cold ground, waiting
They are coming for me

Coming for me

[LipsOfAnAngel]

S.A.T.
[Suck *** Test]


I sit here now
It&#39;s finally over
I am tired
Oh so tired
It has worn me out
That... that thing
That thing created to torture people

My body doesn&#39;t want to move

I had to sit through that four hour torture
Frying my brain for a stupid reason

I&#39;m hungry
I haven&#39;t eaten in so long
Because of... that thing

The SAT

What does it stand for?
Suck *** Test
Yes, that is right
Why?
Because I so much want to say to it,
"Suck my ***, test."

Fin

[LipsOfAnAngel]

Opposites



Call me to you
I am waiting

I will give you all of me
I give you myself willingly

Danger in love
Love in danger

Bleeding heart
Falling tears

Damaged hands
Broken mind

Crying for you
Wishing for you

*~*~*

Stay away from me
I don’t want you

You poisoned me
You crushed me

You lied
You cheated

I am better off without you
I love my life how it is

My friends are my life
Not you, never you

Goodbye
You mean nothing to me

[LipsOfAnAngel]

this poem just came to me in a moment of pure joy.



Pure Joy


Dreams
Lovely, little dreams
Fragments of hopes
Beautiful
Sunshine, shining bright
Roses
petals on the ground
Red and white
Calming
Whispers of love and happiness
Dreams
Big, wonderful dreams
Dancing under the stars
In the rain
Singing to the world
For your friends
Smiling
Laughing
So hard you can’t breath and you cry
Friends
Family
Love
Together
Here
Now
Forever

[D.C.Valentine]

my inspiration... painting my nails black haha



Black

Black bottle
Sitting on the table
Black liquid
Pouring out
I paint my life
with the color black

Black nails
Symbol of my life
Hardcore
Don’t mess
with me

Black hair
Spiked high
Black lines
Around
his black eyes

Black words
Reach out
to me
Calling
my name

Black ways
Dark ways
No way
Out

Black clothes
Scream black words
I listen
No sound

Black... everything
No escape

Black

This made me think of the line

"I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors any more I want them to turn black"

from "Paint it Black" by the stones.

-DCV-

[LipsOfAnAngel]

this is an excerpt from a book i'm writing. this is a work of fiction but the feeling described in the beginning did happen to me. hope you enjoy.



Trapped


I felt... trapped.
I couldn’t breath.
The hot air pressed on me from all sides,
locking me in this prison cell.
I needed to get out.
The bell rang,
I jumpped up but still,
there was something in my way.
I couldn’t get out.
I tried not to run to my locker,
I tried not to break down in front of everyone.
I didn’t know why I was feeling this way.
I managed to get my stuff and to the front door.
The cold air hit me, it was lightly misting.
I breathed deep,
the cold air pushing out the hot, stall air from inside.
It cleared to fog in my head.
The crisp, clean, cold air was wonderful.
I walked down the street to the apartment building where I lived.
I tried not to think about him.
I focused on Mary and her coming home.
But when I got home and settled in my room,
the anxiety got to me.
I couldn’t breath again.
It was hot in my room.
I opened the window,
cold air coming in.
It wasn’t enough.
I went into the living room and opened the sliding glass door to the bolcony and the window in the dining room.
It got very cold in there.
Maybe it was from the slight panic of knowing that Sterling might, in fact, be a vampire.
I went back into my room.
Panic gripped me, incapacitating me.
I fell to the floor and wrapped my arms around my chest, trying to keep it all in.
I cried out in pain and gasped for air.
I stayed like that for most of the afternoon.
But I got myself together before my dad got home.

[D.C.Valentine]

My thoughts you can't decode.

-DCV-

[LipsOfAnAngel]

My thoughts you can't decode.

-DCV-

ha nice.

[D.C.Valentine]

It took me awhile to catch it, or I would have had it on the first post.

:)

-DCV-

[LipsOfAnAngel]

Catch me as i&#39;m falling
And i&#39;ll be yours forever.

[LipsOfAnAngel]

Second Chances


Second chances don’t come often.
I gave you a second chance,
but you messed it up.
Now look at you,
you miserable little thing.
No one will give you a second chance now.
I’ll make sure of that.

Go ahead, try to make me fall.
Try to crush me.
I dare you.

Didn’t think so.
Ha, you’re so funny.
Look at you squirm.
I’m watching you and you know it.
I can see it in your eyes.
As much as you tried, it didn’t work.
You failed.
Sorry.

Oh look, i’m hanging out with friends,
having a great time.
And look at you,
you’re trying to act like you’re happy but you’re not,
I can tell.

Asshole.

Bye now.
I can see you wish you didn’t mess up.
I can see you staring at me,
wanting me.
But you ain’t getting any.
He might.
She might.
Oh yeah, I went there.

Now look at you squirm.
Hilarious.
Hope you’re happy,
‘cause I am.

So much for second chances.

[LipsOfAnAngel]

Wacked Up Rap


i hate... chu.
i hate chu and your tee-sers.
makes me wanna be lieke yoo.
i feel like rym-in. *wiggles fingers*
don&#39;t know wha tim-in. *shakes head*
can&#39;t what for next up
date it betta be soon, girl



uuuumm...................... i felt like rapping and it ended up in a comment to steevie! story 'soft spoken songs'. that's the only explaination i've got.

[LipsOfAnAngel]

Sometimes I wonder why I do some things
But then I remember, it&#39;s because you guys are my friends

[xgennevievex]

this is the first poem i ever wrote. i was feeling depressed that day. it doesn't have a title but i hope you like it.

all is quiet and calm
still and silent
while the music blares
and the speakers drum
i am silent
but inside i’m screaming
i am still
but inside i’m running
i am calm
but inside i’m frantic
i am quiet
but inside i’m loud
yelling my feelings
and breaking rules
crying my eyes out
to all of my broken hearts
and i water the plants
with my tears
hoping for joy
and love
and happiness
and for good things to come
but as i sit and wait
the day passes me by
and i slowly die inside
the person that wants to get out
and be free from it’s nobody prison
the person with passion
and energy
its dies as the nobody shell rules
and lives life without living
i would cry but i have no tears
i would scream but i have no voice
i would live but i have no life
please help me
save me from my fate
the fate of no life
as i wait for the time
the time to have my first date
the time to have my first kiss
the time to have my first love
to live without that
is not living
as i be but not live
as i watch but not join
as i see but not do
please help me
break free from my shell
my prison
so i can be who is inside
and show my energy
my life
and live
how i always wanted
to be me
the me no one knows
but only if you help me
break free and be me


This is my favorite
: )

But they are all wonderful

[xgennevievex]

Sometimes I wonder why I do some things
But then I remember, it&#39;s because you guys are my friends


That would make a wonderful icon
^_^

[LipsOfAnAngel]

Don't

Break me,
Crush me,
Stop my heart from beating.

Use me,
Abuse me,
Kill me when you're done.

I stop you,
I beat you,
Try and hurt me again.

I'm stronger then I look.
I'm smarter then you think.
Don't Do It Again.

[LipsOfAnAngel]

.:Wait:.


Wait, don't go.
I love you so.
Don't you see?
I've been giving myself to you for years.
Don't push me away.

Wait, listen to me.
Let's be friends.
It didn't work before.
But let's try again.

Wait, what was that?
I didn't hear you.
Nothing?
Right.

Wait, I saw you with her.
Don't think I didn't.
So much for what we almost had.
You blew it.
Your lose.

Wait, i'm not done.
You've put me through so much.
I've forgiven you and this is how you treat me?
You've put me through ****.
You don't deserve me.

Wait, was that a tear?
Are you crying?




Good.

[LipsOfAnAngel]

i feel unloved

[LipsOfAnAngel]

I miss you like the sun misses the sky

[LipsOfAnAngel]

Will I Survive?


My heart aches for what almost was.
For what almost happened.
I almost met you, my smiling angel.
I almost saw you, standing there waiting for me.
My heart aches with pain I didn’t expect for a stranger.
I’m worried for you.
I’m worried about you.
Will you make it?.
Will I survive?.

There’s a hole in my chest
where you would have been.
Where you belonged.
I still wait to see your face.
Will he let us be together?
Will I suvive if he doesn’t?

I think your name in my sleep.
I dream of your face.
I imagine how it would have been.
The fun we would have had.
The laughter.
Will I survive without this?

Will I survive what I wanted it to be?
Will I survive seeing you with someone else?
Will I die?

[LipsOfAnAngel]

..::rAnDoM::..


Tired and tried
Used up
Energy gone

Hey you, I don’t like your-
Boyfriend?
No thank you not

Caught in the middle
Tragedy
Lie’s upside

Down that street
She sits and waits
Gotta Love

Maybe I should
No sir
Mister Robot-

Oh! You!
There!
Wait!

Darn, there he goes
Meet again
Maybe not

For me i’m sure
To you with
Hate that

Can’t stand that
Why would you
Be nice, please

Stand, sit
Walk
Go, stop

Wait!
Come
Back length

What?
RaNdOm
Yeah

[LipsOfAnAngel]

+Progresstion+


The Progression of Time and Space
The Moving of the Moon and the Stars
The Way the Sun Spins
And All the Little Things

Stopping the Wind
Slowing the Waves
Silencing the Voice

I watch the World around Me
I Catch what is Happening
And when It starts Again
I Will be There when It does

Progression of Life
Progression of Love
Progression of all the things You Know
Progression never stops

But It will Always be There

[LipsOfAnAngel]

new moOn


Late at night,
As I sit here at my desk,
I watch the stars overhead.

The moon is round,
And hanging low in the sky.

The stars wink at me,
Far up above.

And then he moves,
I see out of the corner of my eye.

He stirs,
Stepping forward into the moonlight.

I watch him,
But not letting on.

But I know,
He knows and he smiles.

I turn to face him and he&#39;s standing there.

I never know what to say.

So I just smile back before he disappears into the night,
Taking the moon with him.


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this has nothing to do with the book.