Love in hindsight (tradmarked!) Chapt. 20 up! completed!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter One: The Beginning


People like Kyan are hard to come by. Loyal, stubborn, talented, and extremely driven. She is just a small thing, a few inches shorter than I, though I stand in her shadow and feel small in comparison for the reason that she brings more life and reason to me than I will ever understand. She is my best friend, and the reason that I can say that I have any desire in my heart to do what I was made for. To do what we are both made for. Not too long ago, I introduced Kyan to the love of her life. Neither of them really knew it then, but as it turned out, neither did I.

It seems like just yesterday we were sitting on my bed one morning, struggling awake from a hard nights sleep and I was talking about what I talk about the most, a teen sensation German band, Tokio Hotel. She had heard about them thousands of times...after all, she is my best friend and has to hear about all my obsessions, from Tokio Hotel to the color green. It wasn't until that morning that she took a good look into the eyes of the bands guitarist, Tom, and realized there was more to them than she had taken notice of before. Her face lit up like I had never seen before and she pulled my laptop towards her.

"Don't do this to me, your going to make me fall in love!" She breathed, but I knew it was too late, she was a goner. The next few weeks were filled with late night Kaulitz talks, She and I would exchange pictures and videos via our myspace's and text each other until two or three in the morning. During this time, we began to share our love for music and decided to combine her talent with the piano and my talent in singing and start something wonderful.

Love in Hindsight was born. We had quite a few days of frustrating long hours of trying to write our music, and when our first song was finally finished, we were very proud of it. It was inspired by Tom himself, and she had written the lyrics, and combined with the effort of a good friend, we recorded the song into a demo and made the nervous trip to the mailbox. Each with a hand on the corners, we placed the small, sad looking little package in the mail. It held every dream we had in our bodies and we our every fear rested in that one moment.

The package was to be sent to the studio that Tokio Hotel was signed with, while underneath it was a smaller one with the same Cd, which included a letter, for our musician heroes. The days dragged on. Each passing day we checked her mailbox with nervous anticipation. Nothing, first one month, then the next. The growing disappointment inside my heart could only mirror Kyans, but I kept a light mood to ease the frustration.

Exactly two months and four days after we sent out the two pieces of mail, Kyan called me. Kyan never calls me. We have a silent texting pact, as neither of us really like to talk on the phone. I picked up, curious, and she was all squeals and jitters on the other line. "Get over here right now!" I could barely contain myself as I made the ten minute drive over to her place, and she met me in the driveway, waving an unopened letter. I nearly lost my lunch as I realized what this could mean, and we stood will shaking hands, opening the letter.

Kyan and Jesse,

Hello! We received your demo a few weeks ago and listened to it - first Bill, then the rest of our band. The song was well performed and written, good job! We do not usually respond directly to our fans, but you have interested us. We would like to meet with you, and see you play in person. Enclosed are two tickets to Rome, Italy, set to leave the twenty third of September. Look forward to our meeting.

-Bill, Georg, Tom, und Gustav
Tokio Hotel.

My jaw fell open and Kyan let out a triumphant yell. We hugged and jumped up and down. Our dream was about to come true!

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[Ich_liebe_bill]

haha no pressure at all :P I love to write!

I'll write more when I am finished with my chores, give me an hour ^.^

[ILuvKaulitzTwins4E]

OMG I LOVE THIS.......i can't wait till you write more
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[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter Two: The Trip.


The flight was planned for only a week away, which did not give either of us much time to patch things up and prepare to leave. Kyan is in school to be a nurse, and we both had horses and lives at home so it was more than a little aggravating getting things finished. There was not much else to do but hope that this wasn't just a dream. It crossed my thoughts on more than one occasion that someone could be playing some sort of cruel trick on us, but I dared to hope. I sang every day until my throat ached. Kyan's fingers bled on more than one occasion from playing her piano so much, but we couldn't stop, our dreams were about to become reality.

The morning of the departure, family and friends gathered to wish us good look, the return tickets didn't come in to effect for another month and we had no idea what it would all entail. Between the tears and excitement, Kyan and I somehow managed to get on the plane. Once seated, my stomach balled up into a thousand tiny knots and I could barely sit still. We had a connecting flight that was hours away - nearly 6 hours away - so I knew I would have to calm down just so. "What if they don't like us?" Kyan bit her lip and turned to me, her eyes filled with worry. I felt the same way, I wasn't sure what this trip was going to bring us. "I...I think they will. We work so hard." I tried to put my best foot forward, and gave her a wavering smile, but I could tell that she knew I was just as nervous, if not more so.

Thank goodness, I slept through most of the flight. I awoke to the captain rambling about Portugal, the weather and the like, as that was where our connecting flight would leave the following morning. Such a lay over, and we had to stay in the airport all night. The landing was an easy one - and we get off the plane, stiff and tired. As we entered the airport, we were stopped by an employee at the airlines desk. She looked about our age, and she was wide-eyed. "Love in Hindsight?" She spoke with a pretty accent, and we exchanged bewildered glances. "Thats us." I spoke softly, entirely confused about what was happening.

"There are some people waiting to finish the remainder of your trip with you...over there." At first I wasn't sure I had heard her right, and I looked in the direction she was pointing. I heard a thump and saw that Kyan had dropped her messanger bag and wasn't moving. "Tokio Hotel." The pretty girl behind the counter whispered the two words and at the very same moment I caught sight of A tall, lanky boy wearing a grey beanie and smiling in my direction. Another boy stood up behind him, shorter, and with sandy blond hair, looking slightly less confident.

It took me a minute to regain myself and I smiled at the girl and thanked her. I grabbed Kyan's hand, which was shaking worse than my own, and stepped towards the two boys. The taller one was Bill. My idol. He could hold a note much better than anyone I had ever heard. Behind him was Gustav, the teddy bear drummer. I smiled the best I could, and tried to sort out in my mind why they had met us half way. Before I could, however, I was knocked nearly half- over. After a moment of being squeezed near to death, both Kyan and I at the same time, we were released to find a grinning Georg. "Hallo." I righted myself, and this time it was Kyan who was the braver one. "Georg, guten tag!" A moment later Tom seemed to appear out of the woodwork.

"Ve realized dat you might not feel comfortble by yahourself heere. Ve came to make you fheel more velcome." Bill spoke and offered me his hand. I took it and lost my hand completely in his. We shook gently and I was snapped back in to reality. Danke, guys. We were pretty nervous." This trip was turning out to be even better than I had thought and it hadn't even begun.

[LipsOfAnAngel]

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[Ich_liebe_bill]

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[snowwhitecqueen]

omg jess i love it!!!!!!!
dont stop writing you're going to become an instant tokio hotel celebrity : ]

ILUBFF!!!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter 3: Connection


Every few minutes I could feel myself begin to nod off, but something kept me awake. The airport was dead, every once in awhile people would rush by on their way to a 2 a.m. flight or whatever it might have been. The loud speakers would crank on every once in a great while and tell people to stay with their luggage in about five different languages, but all this was not what was keeping me awake. Sitting diagonal to me on the floor, legs crossed Indian style, was Bill. He was playing with his hair and chewing on his lower lip, something he had been doing for a good hour or so. I tried really hard not to stare at him, but it was next to impossible when he was staring at me. We locked eyes a few times and I had to force myself not to blush.

This was all over shadowed by Kyan, however, she was sitting knee-to-knee with Tom, and they were deep in a debate about guitars. I watched them a moment. It was sort of funny, listening to them banter in two different languages, each using words in the same sentence from both. Kyan sat back in her chair and grinned wryly at Tom, and he returned the grin, and I knew that her feelings for him had just grown, though it made me proud to know that she was keeping her cool through it all. I turned to look at Georg and Gustav, and couldn't help but smile. Georg was listening to music, head tilted back, mostly asleep. Gustav had set his bag on the ground and laid his head on it as a pillow and was snoring quietly.

"You svould heere heem vhen he ees een a hahotel room." I turned and Bill was watching Gustav as well, a slight grin on his face. He rolled his eyes in my direction. I caught myself wishing that I could do my make up the way he did. It was perfection to a T and I didn't quite understand how someone could get it to be that way. Mine always rubbed off or just simply frustrated me to no end. I drew my legs up underneath my chin and heaved a sigh. "I can imagine." I paused a moment and looked up at him. "Why did you ask us to come? What was it that made you decide...?" Bill raised an eye brow. He paused a moment, and then scooted towards me, sliding his bum over and planted himself just inches to my right.

"Sing." He titled his head and looked at me. "What?" I was thrown off a little. "Sing." He put his hand on my knee and opened his mouth."Through the monsoon, beyond the world, to the end of time, where the rain wont hurt..." He stopped and squeezed my knee. I trembled a little bit and turned to face him. I looked directly into his eyes and realized that this is what I had wanted for so long. "Fighting the storm, into the blue, and when I lose myself I think of you..." He smiled largely and joined in softly. "Together we'll be running somewhere new and nothing can hold me back from you...through the monsoon...just me and you..."We both stopped abruptly and I looked up to find Tom and Kyan staring at us. Gustav was sitting up, and Georg had taken one ear bud out.

It took a moment for someone to speak, and this time it was Tom. "Das ist vhy we asked you to come." Kyan exhaled as if she had been holding her breath for the both of us. I felt myself crumple and I lay back, staring at the ceiling, not really caring what they thought. It was entirely overwhelming. Kyan stood and came to sit down next me. "We can't be more greatful, guys." I don't know if it was just me or not but I was sure she was staring strait into Tom's eyes. This. Was. Amazing.

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[snowwhitecqueen]

ah yes i would so be debating guitars : ]

[LipsOfAnAngel]

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[Ich_Liebe_Dich_Tom]

Well, now to be completely honest about myself. Let's see... I'm bisexual. And I also happen to be a transgirl. So, I am depressed having to wear guy clothes and go around acting like a guy all of the time, when I feel that who I really am is Sarah Jessica Lewis, not Brian William Lewis (the devil himself could not pronounce a name more hateful to mine ear). I'm seeing a therapist for my gender dysphoria, and my meeting on June 5 will be my second out of five scheduled ones - the meetings may continue beyond that if neccessary. It's not therapy that's treating me like I'm crazy or anything - I try not to feel crazy and be proud of who I am. Sure, I have already lost some friends, and I may lose many more. But I'm not going to stop being myself, and I won't stop working towards making my outside reflect who I am on the inside. That's when I'll be really free, and happy.

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Well, now to be completely honest about myself. Let's see... I'm bisexual. And I also happen to be a transgirl. So, I am depressed having to wear guy clothes and go around acting like a guy all of the time, when I feel that who I really am is Sarah Jessica Lewis, not Brian William Lewis (the devil himself could not pronounce a name more hateful to mine ear). I'm seeing a therapist for my gender dysphoria, and my meeting on June 5 will be my second out of five scheduled ones - the meetings may continue beyond that if neccessary. It's not therapy that's treating me like I'm crazy or anything - I try not to feel crazy and be proud of who I am. Sure, I have already lost some friends, and I may lose many more. But I'm not going to stop being myself, and I won't stop working towards making my outside reflect who I am on the inside. That's when I'll be really free, and happy.


*blinks* hun, I think you have the wrong thread? Thats ok though...glad you are able to be yourself.

as for chapter 4....wriing it now!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter 4: Rome


Somehow around four a.m. we all managed to drift off. I awoke first to find us all in a pile, which completely embarrassed me. We had just met these boys, what would they think? I began to sit up but was stopped by a pressure on my legs. I looked down and bill was sleeping with his harms wrapped around them tightly as if they were a teddy bear. How even more embarrassing. I looked around to make sure no one had noticed and saw what I dreaded. A group of about ten girls about my age were staring silently from seats not far off. I dropped my gaze and tried to lay back down without causing any ruckus, but ended up elbowing Georg in the face and caused him to yelp and sit up. This was definantly no way to start this out.

Gustav had fallen asleep a ways off and was rubbing his back, as we had all slept on a hard floor. Bill finally opened his eyes and let go of my legs, giggling a little to himself. Well, at least HE was not embarrassed. I looked over for Kyan and she was laying on the other side of Bill, just waking up. Next to her, drooling a little on himself, still completely dead to the world was Tom, who had his hand flung over her stomach. She looked like she was about to explode and I almost ruined the moment for her, but i kept my mouth shut. It occured to me to look at the time on my cell phone, and I pulled it from my pocket. 8:10. I set it down, and then froze. 8:10? Our flight was at 8:15!

I jumped up, barely avoided kicking Bill in the face, and tried to grab my bag all at once. "Our...flight...leaves...in...five..." I was in a little bit of a tizzy and couldn't hardly get out my words. Kyan realized and jumped up, letting Tom's arm fall to the ground. Everyone was about to take off towards the gate when Bill kicked Tom in the side. Tom awoke with a start and glared at his brother. "Idiot." Tom mumbled, but when he looked around and saw how paniced we were, he understood and pulled himself to his feet, nearly tripping on his long pants in the process.

We took off at a dead run and it took me about thirty seconds to realize we were being followed by people. I wasn't used to it and felt really out of place. Just as we reached the place where our plane was boarding, they began to close the gate. "NEIN!" Georg yelled first and we all pulled up, panting. The hostess took one look at us, raised an eyebrow and opened the doors again. It helped to be with recognizable faces.

Once on the plane, we sat three to a section, I ended up between Bill and Gustav, and Kyan between Georg and Tom, who were right behind us. Bill kept wadding up napkins and throwing them at Tom, who in turn at one point during the flight poured water down the back of bill's shirt. I talked to Gustav for most of the trip. He worked hard to teach me more German than I knew and sometimes I would correct his English, which made him blush. Bill busied himself with doodling on the napkins he hadn't thrown at his brother.

When we landed in Rome, I watched Bill tense up a little. I hadn't realized plane rides were not his thing and felt bad for him. He perked up instantly after the plane had landed, however, and we all entered the Rome air port chattery and eager, something I hadn't felt until that moment. Kyan bounced over and leaned into my shoulder to whisper in my ear. "Tom is soooo much cuter in person, did you know that was possible? And I think he likes me!" Her eyes were wide and honest, and I knew she wasn't being a stupid fan girl, but just another girl who was hoping the boy she liked had feelings for her in return.

Once out in the open air I couldn't stop gaping at the surroundings. Everything was full of history, something I was not used to, back in the states, nothing was like this. Gustav bumped my arm and grinned at me. "Vu look stunned." I nodded at him. "This place is completely insane." I looked over at Kyan. She had the same bewildered look on her face, and I knew we both probably looked completely odd to the boys. "Lets go to da hotel, I aam starvving." Tom announced, and marched ahead. Georg picked up the pace and stepped up beside him, saying something quietly in German I didn't catch.

Once at the hotel, Kyan and I unpacked our things into the drawers since we knew we would be staying awhile and knocked on the door that connected our room to theirs. Gustav opened the door, and I turned as red as a tomato. I could hear the shower running in the bathroom, thank God the door was closed. Georg stood at the mirror flexing in a towel, his hair fluffing out a bit as it dried. He glanced over, grinned and went back to his flexing. "Vu are red, eets ok, I amm not shy." He spoke to the mirror but to us, and turned to look at himself another direction. Tom was sprawled out on one of the king sized beds, talking to someone on the phone. I heard something that sounded like "room service" and I was glad, my stomach had started to ache. A moment later, Bill appeared out of the bathroom fully clothed, his hair rapped up in a towel.

The first few hours went by in a blur. We ate some of the most amazing pasta I had ever had, and drank wine. Tom eventually pulled out his acoustic guitar, and Bill and I worked on harmony. I still was not sure why they wanted to sing with us, but I didn't complain, and I was too afraid to ask. Kyan pulled out the case that held her keyboard and gently pulled it out. It was her prize possession and I saw the look of relief on her face when she saw it wasn't damaged. She began to play a haunting melody she had written for a potential intro to a song, and Tom watched a moment before picking away at his guitar strings, adding his own touch.

tomorrow, Bill had told me, they would take us the recording studio. I couldn't wait.

[snowwhitecqueen]

gah i would kill someone if my key board got damaged i loooove it as usual best writer in the world right there : ]

[LipsOfAnAngel]

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[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter 5: Famous?


I am not a coffee drinker in the least bit. The bitter taste does not agree with my tongue. I needed something to keep myself awake that morning, however. The jet lag had caught up with me and punched me in the stomach so to speak, and I knew I must look like a wreck. So when Gustav appeared at our adjoining door that morning with large latte's, it was all I could do not to throw my arms around him in relief. I had downed half of mine before Bill marched in and snatched it away. He set another drink down in its place. Tea. Now if there is anything I hate more than coffee it is tea. I looked up at him and made a little hint of a face. "Vu drink." He marched off carrying away my beloved latte and left me staring at the green liquid.

Kyan paused from where she was fooling around on her piano to look over at me. She grinned. "Don't give me that look, do you know how many girls would kill to be in your position right now?" I lay back on the bed with a flourish. "You mean being forced to drink liquid yuck?" I could hear her get up and felt her sit on the edge of the bed. "He is just looking out for your voice, you know." I nodded and sighed. Truth was, I loved that he cared enough to tear away my life saver. I knew Kyan already knew that too. I sat up on my elbows are glanced over at the open door to the boys room. They all seemed preoccupied for the moment.

"What is with you and Tom?" I whispered to her, and she blushed. Her eyes darted to the open door and back to me. "I...I don't know. He is being really attentive." I smiled and sat up, giving her a push with my elbow. As if on cue, Tom came bounding in. I don't know where he got so much energy at that time, I felt like I was about to die. "Sneak attack!" He yelled and I winced, my head aching from the coffee and the jet lag. I lept off the bed and away, however, as a blur of baggy clothes tumbled onto Kyan. I watched them play fight a moment, Kyan squealing. I couldn't help but smile and was surprised when Georg appeared at my side. "He likes her, vu know." The devious look in his eye only characterized him, and I nodded, looking up at him. He was only a year older than me, I would be twenty and he twenty one in the same month.

The play fighting had stopped and both of them lay gasping for breath side by side on the bed, and I squeezed Georgs' arm, signaling that we should leave. He understood and we walked in to the other room. I sat next to Bill on his bed as he looked in the mirror in front of it. He was putting the finishing touches on his make up, and I watched in complete awe. He finished and slipped all his makeup in a bag. The TV was blaring some show in Italian, it looked like a version of our "E! tonight". I watched not really understanding a word, or even recognizing it. Suddenly, just as I was about to lose interest, My face flashed on the screen! I opened and closed my mouth in shock, not really sure what to make of it. Then there was a picture of all of us asleep awkwardly in the airport. Bill let out a little squeak and then laughed, throwing his arms around me in a hug. I didn't really know what to do, but after a moment I returned the hug.

It took me about thirty seconds to realize he wasn't letting go. He finally did, but only one arm and I found myself being cuddled with by Bill Kaulitz. My heart pounded. Yes, I found him to be incredibly attractive, but I had always made myself focus on the music and we had only known each other now for three days. Georg winked at me from across the room and I knew that Kyan and I couldn't go home. Not in a month, maybe never. I hadn't seen Kyan in those few moments, and I knew she must be in the same state I was in.

In fact, she was. Tom had pulled her close. "Vu are not like any girl I have meet." He had whispered to her. "Vu make me vant to be loyal. I do not understand. I do not barely know vu." There was more fate here than I could understand, and when Bill had his arm around my waist as we sat on the bed I began to feel myself relax.

About ten a.m. we all managed to get ourselves together and out the door. There was a van waiting for us outside the hotel lobby and we all climbed in. Tom was not interested in hiding his feelings any more and had his arm around Kyan's shoulders, practically covering her, he was so much larger than she was. After we had been riding in silence a few moments, Georg and Gustav began singing a song in German loudly that I didn't recognize, and Bill quietly slipped my hand into his. After they ended the song, Tom chimed in, singing "Love in this Club" by Usher, and we all began to chatter as the adrenaline finally kicked in. The van was a buzz with English and German completely mixed, and it got a little confusing sometimes for all of us, but despite this we were having a blast with it anyways.

The recording studio was right in the middle of busy downtown Rome and we were apprehended by about thirty panicked girls who somehow knew the boys would be there. They obliged sweetly and took some pictures and signed some autographs, while me and Kyan stood to the side with their agent talking quietly. Finally, we were able to go inside and I was shocked with how nice the place truly was. Modernized, everything was oak and sleek metals. We were led to the back room by a man who introduced himself as "Manny" and he left us to our work.


Next chapter: chapter 6: recording and stage!

[LipsOfAnAngel]

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[snowwhitecqueen]

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[amandaaraujo]

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[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter 6: Recording and stage.


The very moment we were left to ourselves in the studio all the boys began to talk at once. Even Gustav, which surprised me some because he always seemed so quiet. They all had the same look of boyish anticipation and eagerness and I couldn't help but turn red at the fact that this was all for us. I knew that there was no one in the world as lucky as we were at the moment, and I didn't at all feel worth it. No one was giving up the chance to speak and Tom pushed bill into a guitar stand, Gustav pushed Tom into Georg and Georg pushed back, pushing Tom into Bill who had just picked himself up.

I stood from my stool and watched them tussle a minute more for the limelight. "HEY!" I finally got up the nerve to yell, and they all stopped and looked at me sheepishly. My shout had hurt my ears in the soundproof room and I rubbed one gently. "One at a time." Their manager spoke from the soundboard room, and I was greatful. I loved these boys a lot, but they were boys and all boys fought sometimes. It was no surprise when Bill spoke first, he was the usual speaker for the group anyway. "Ve want to do a new tarack ov monsun with vu both." That was better. I couldn't believe my ears and I took a deep breath. This is exactly what I had wanted but it was still something to get used to.

The set of head phones I was handed was almost as big as my head, and heavy as I put them on. Usteady but on cue, I sang into the studio mic. It took seven tries just to get the first verse and chorus perfectly right. After a few hours, I grew tired and Bill went in to record. They played back our voices together without music and I was impressed of their ability to put our voices together so well. Kyan went in to the recording studio with Gustav, Georg, and Tom to add in music, with her piano mixed in to the original instruments. It was nearly four o'clock when they got to a stopping point and we all traipsed back to the van oddly tired.

The boys decided it was time for us to go eat, since we had not bothered to stop recording for lunch, and so we arrived at a small restaurant in the middle of a quaint little shopping area and were ushered inside by a nice looking man who spoke no English. We made fun of each other as we all tried to understand the menus and struggled to talk to the waiter, who also had no grasp of English or German. We knew we were pronouncing each word wrong, but the waiter was nice about it, and ended up simply bringing out a large pot of spaghetti and some of the most delicious Italian bread. When I felt like my stomach might burst, the waiter brought out a hole chocolate cake and set it before us. Bill cut himself a large piece and sliced his fork into the moist cake. Turning to me, he offered it to me. I blushed red and opened my mouth a little. He slid the fork in my mouth and winked at me.

Kyan squealed from across the table. I turned to see why and found that Tom had gone to do the same with her, but instead of feeding it to her nicely, he had shoved a large piece in her face, covering her in chocolate. He was giggling hysterically. There was a camera crew there for an episode of Tokio Hotel TV, and so it had all been caught on video, which made it even better. The whole table cracked up a moment, and then grew quiet. Their manager spoke up. "Have the boys told you yet? We know it is soon, but there is a concert tomorrow night and we want you to perform Monsun with them." He smiled at us and filled his mouth with cake.

That night I lay in bed, wide awake, thinking about the day. Kyan was still in the other room playing a new song for Tom and I had retired early, wanting some time to think. The one thing I hate about myself is the one thing that could possibly ruin my chances of reaching my dreams. I have terrible stage fright. There was nothing that could really be done about it, but I knew that this would be a problem. I had expected to be on stage, of course, but I had thought I would have more time to prepare. This was not the case. Someone slipped into the dark room, and I thought it was Kyan, so I did not do much, just sunk deeper in my pillow. Who I assumed was Kyan lay down next to me of the bed, and I realized that this person was much too tall to be her.

Bill smiled softly at me and I smiled back, wondering what he was doing there, but I didn't speak. He searched for my hand under the covers and I lifted mine to his and he laid our intertwined fingers on his chest. I closed my eyes and let myself get lost in new love a moment, just sitting quietly in the dark. After a moment, Bill spoke. "Kyan told me vu huhave stage frright." He paused. "Do not vorry, Jessa. I vill take care of it." He squeezed my hand, stood and left. I began to wonder but was suddenly very tired and closed my eyes. It didn't take very long after than for me to sleep.

My ear itched like mad. The ear piece and glue staid snug, but I felt like it might fall out any minute. Not quite so muted in my other ear was the sound of 7,000 screaming girls. I peered from the side of the stage out into the crowd and felt my stomach lurch. There were so many people and they had no idea who I was, or that I was even there. Kyan came up behind me and squeezed my arms. I felt slightly comforted, but I had no idea how I was going to do this.

A man walked on to the stage and began to speak to the crowd. I could hear his voice in my ear piece, and he was speaking in Italian. After a minute, I heard what I had almost been dreading. "TOKIO....HOOOTEEEL!" The boys jogged by us and Bill winked at me. The fans went completely wild and made more noise than I had ever heard in my life. They went right into "Break Away", which they sang in English, and myself and Kyan really got into the music on the sideline. Three songs later, Bill hushed the entire crowd, which took a lot of effort. I had no idea what he was doing, and I felt my stomach turn.

"Dees ees a special day. Everyone reeemember das name. Love in Hindsight." He spread his arms out and told the crowd to stay quiet for a minute or more longer. The lights went out and a few people in the crowd squealed, but no one made a sound other than that. A spotlight shone on Bill after just a moment, and he still had his arms spread. Quietly, and then louder, and louder, he began to speak the words to Monsun in German. Tom, Gustav, and Georg joined in, yelling their lyrics. I felt my stomach loosen. A tiny bit of adrenaline kicked in, and I lifted my eyes to the source of the spotlight.

Kyan squeezed my hand and inhaled, I could tell that this was giving her a bit of a buzz too. The boys went quiet and Gustav began to beat the drums. Adrenaline pounded through my veins out of nowhere and I felt my feet carry me on stage. The entire place erupted in screams and I pulled the microphone to my lips as the boys and Kyan played what wasn't Monsun, but their own ad lib music, which ripped through my body. With one resounding clash of the drums,Tom started in with the intro to Monsun and Bill sang with all his might. After freezing for just a moment, Bill came over and sang in English. "My room is cold its making me insane..." I turned to him and dropped the mic to my side, and heaved a deep breath. I mouthed "Thankyou" and pulled the mic to my face once more. "Running through the monsun, beyond the world..." The crowd erupted with screams and by the time it was over I had really gotten into the song and was gasping and shaking. I loved it. I loved the stage. I couldn't believe it.

Before we left the stage, Tom grabbed Kyan and pulled her to the front of everything. He pulled her close against his guitar and yelled to the crowd into Bill's mic that he had put back on the stand. "I LOVE DEES GIRL. I VANT VU ALL TO KNOW!" He smiled so big that I thought his face might split, and I found myself smiling too. Kyan was as red as could be and Then something even more surprising happened. Tom pulled her close and kissed her. Their first kiss, on stage, in front of 7,000 people and maybe more on TV. The girls in the stadium went insane and the sound was even more deafening than before. They pulled away and looked at each other a moment, before Kyan turned to the crowd and pumped a fist in the air, causing a new stir.

WHAT. A. RUSH.


coming up! Day at the beach

[<3ByYourSide<3]

*new reader*

oh my gosh! im in LOVE with this story! more soon!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

*new reader*

oh my gosh! im in LOVE with this story! more soon!



^.^ danke shon! besides Tokio Hotel, writing is my thing, so i thought...why not combine the two?

tomarow i will write a new chapter...i like to keep people in suspense ;)

[LipsOfAnAngel]

omg tom and kyan kissed!!!!!!!!! mehr bitte!

[DeeDee]

* new reader*

oh god the emberassment being kissed infront of 7000 people

mehr bitte wenn du kannst :D

[Ich_liebe_bill]

ahhh! i have readers! i feel loved ^.^

[snowwhitecqueen]

i feel like a mini celebrity

[ILuvKaulitzTwins4E]

omg i love this story it is soo good please update soon

[tokiohotel26]

more more more!

[amandaaraujo]

AWWWWWW that was so cute hehe update soon!!!!

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

wow you are such a good writer....i really like your story and I cant wait until the next chapter comes out...

[bbgroove]

Now after reading this I&#39;m even MORE honored that you liked my story (^_^)... can&#39;t wait for the update

[Ich_liebe_bill]

HOLY...cow. I feel so honored to have so many people reading and loving my story! I am writing more now!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter 7: Day out.


I don&#39;t think we arrived back at our hotel until nearly five that next morning, and I collapsed into bed without undressing. Tom was tipsy from a late night party and was giggling to himself over something he had done from the other side of the room as Kyan helped him to sit down on her bed. He was a reletively humorous drunk, but I was so tired that it was almost annoying to me. Lucky for him, Kyan is the kind of girl, who, although she is independant, she is loyal. I half-listened to her whisper to him about laying down and getting him some water, and he slurred something about how cute she was. I drifted off to the sound of Tom puking into the trashcan, which to say the least wasn&#39;t exactly a lulliby.

I woke up around three o&#39;clock in the afternoon to a tickle on my nose. Bill was asleep, drooling on the pillow next to me. His hair, which had been fluffed out the night before was slightly flattened but still sticking out in some places, which I assumed was more bed-head than styling, and he must have rolled over, hence the hair tickling my nose and waking me up. A day or two I would have been surprised to find him sleeping there, but I wasn&#39;t now. Though it had been such a short amount of time, I felt as if we had connected in a way the night before through music to the point that I found myself wanting to snuggle closer to him, which I bravely did.

He opened his brown eyes and looked into mine. I took a deep breath. He had chosen not to drink heavily the night before, which I was glad for because otherwise I knew his breath probably would not have been that pleasant. "Good morning, bed head." I smiled at him and he smiled back, turning on his back and rubbing his manicured hands over his face vigorously. I sat up and stretched. In the process I looked over to see Kyan sleeping, piled under her thick comforter and several pillows. I had to smile at Tom who was asleep on the floor, still looking a little green. Georg and Gustav were talking in the other room, and I couldn&#39;t really make out anything, even though with the head ache I had at the time, it almost seemed like they were yelling.

I was going to lay back down next to Bill but Georg came bounding in. "Gut. Your up. Vu might vant to see dis." I got up and padded on bare feet into their room and found Gustav watching TV, lounging on one of the beds. Georg was standing next to the door watching as well. A sleek looking woman speaking in English was giving the news, and it took me a few seconds to register the picture in the top left corner of the screen. It was Bill and I facing each other, mics held close to our faces. ..."sensations made a big ruckus in the world of media yesterday." I raised my eyebrows and sat with a heavy sigh into one of the overstuffed chairs in the room. "...biggest shock of the evening was when the guitarist and teen heart throb Tom Kaulitz announced he was in love with the pianist of this new duo, and kissed her on stage..." A picture of Tom and Kyan locked in a kiss flashed across the screen. I wasn&#39;t sure if I should be happy or appalled. Gustav grunted from his bed and I closed my eyes.

It took us a few hours to regain full consciousness and gather ourselves together. Another nights sleep would do us well. Dinner was meager, as no one was really hungry from the hard partying the night before and so we all munched on pizza sent to our rooms. Bill licked some sauce from his fingers and leaned his shoulder into mine. "Gustav und Georg av a Tokio Hotel TV episode tomorrow. Me und Tom are taking vu out." He grabbed another piece of pizza and lay back on the bed. I didn&#39;t say anything in reply, I was drowsy and only nodded.

The next morning I felt better in so many ways I couldn&#39;t begin to list them. I snapped awake at about seven and instantly felt the energy I had been missing. Kyan and Tom were both awake and chatting away with Gustav and Georg who were all piled on their bed, and Bill was still sleeping soundly. I could tell that I was not the only one whose energy was renewed and Gustav was the first one to see me awake. He stood up and flounced over. "hallo!" He did a humorous dance, and for the first time I noticed the camera in the corner with a familiar camera man behind it. I groaned and snatched away Gustav&#39;s hat. He leapt after it and landed on Bill, who yelped as he was so rudely awoken and fell out of bed with a thump. He wrapped his legs around Gustav&#39;s legs and they tussled for a moment. Classic boys.

A few hours later Gustav and Georg had left with the camera man to do some things for the youtube channel, while myself, Kyan, Tom and Bill made our way in the van to the beach. Kyan sat next to me on the way there and we giggled at the boys who began to sing "Oops I did it again" By Britney Spears in the most obnoxious voices they could muster. We arrived at the beach excited and energetic and I was actually thrilled to find it was a private beach. I let myself go and took off at a full tilt run, laughing and enjoying the sea air whipping at my face and hair. Kyan took off after me, and the boys lagged behind, talking.

I pulled up panting, and Kyan crashed into me from behind and we fell to the sand, laughing. "This is the most fun I have ever had. Oh my gosh, Jesse. I don&#39;t know what life would have been like without this." Kyan spoke between gasps. Tom and Bill walked over, shirtless, and I caught myself staring at Bill. I had always been a sucker for skinny boys, and he was no exception. We spent the afternoon in a dream. The day was beautiful and we played in the water. Tom carried Kyan out of the water after awhile and laid her down on a towel. They snuggled on the beach while Bill and I floated on rafts in the water. "Jessa. Vu are beautiful." I turned red and Bill pushed my damp hair from my face. I turned to look at him and found his raft right next to mine. We had not yet kissed, and I felt my stomach become a million knots. Softly, he kissed my nose and pulled away, smiling at me. Somehow, that was enough and I smiled back.

On the beach, Tom and Kyan were building a giant sandcastle. I climbed out of my raft and tugged it behind me, reaching the beach just before Bill and sitting on a towel that was set near the model they were building, and Bill climbed over to help them. A few hours later, after a picnic lunch and a good nap on the beach snuggled close, The sun began to set. Gustav and Georg appeared with dinner, which was home made sandwiches and fruit, and we built a bonfire as the sun set. It had been the perfect day, and I couldn&#39;t wait to see what the boys had in store for us tomorrow.

[<3ByYourSide<3]

I turned red and Bill pushed my damp hair from my face. I turned to look at him and found his raft right next to mine. We had not yet kissed, and I felt my stomach become a million knots. Softly, he kissed my nose and pulled away, smiling at me. Somehow, that was enough and I smiled back.

Awwwww...thats sooo Bill.
More soon!

[LipsOfAnAngel]

omg. that was soo sweet! omg! i wish i had that! mehr bitte! :mrgreen:

[DeeDee]

aww bill is soo uber sweet
oh come on kiss her bill we know you want to lol

mehr bitte wenn du kannst

[tokiohotel26]

awww definitely uber sweet!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter 8: Days go by.


Kyan and I needed time to ourselves. It had been a few days since the beach and we hadn&#39;t had much time to talk at all, and there was so much to talk about. The song had been finished and was set to be released shortly, which both excited and scared me. I hated the idea of rejection, but at the same time I had the hopes that people would except us and love us, so that maybe one day we could release our own music. I had talked to Kyan and we had decided to take a break from everything that was going on and just take a girls day. We made an appointment at a local spa for massages and decided the rest of the day would be spent shopping, something we both loved to do and had not got the chance to do since we had arrived.

The streets were busy as we made our way through the small shops in the downtown area, and several teens stopped to stare at us, but no one approached us. "This is cute, what do you think?" Kyan held up a flowy top and looked at me expectantly. We were standing in a small boutique that reminded me of something out of a movie. "Love it." Kyan has the tendency to be able to wear anything and everything and look completely adorable in it. I am the complete opposite, and I hate it. I have curves, and it makes it near impossible for me to be able to wear the same sort of things that Kyan does. Bill seemed to over look all that, so I couldn&#39;t complain too much, although my self esteem will always be reletively low, it must be a girl thing.

At the same boutique I found an amazing pair of leather pants, however stupid people think leather pants are, I am a bit eccentric in my clothing choice so I chose to ignore the little voice inside my head that told me I would be laughed at. "You know, I am kind of in to this whole spot light thing." I had been zoned out for a few minutes as we walked from the store, bags in hand, and Kyan snapped me back to reality. "Yeah, its alright. I just don&#39;t know about all the conspiracy, you know?" She knew I was referring to her and Tom, and she kept quiet a moment. "I mean, I just want people to like us." She nodded and looked at me, raising her eyebrows. "Do you think we will be able to make our own CD? I love the boys, but I want to be able to make our own music, too." I had been worried about this myself for awhile, and had considered asking about signing with the label on our own, but was much too shy. "I don&#39;t know, Ky, I sure hope so."

It was relaxing to walk around, and even more relaxing to get the massage. "I think I love him..." Kyan mumbled into her massage bed. I sighed in contentment and closed my eyes. "I know, I can see it in your eyes, and in his. I think you two are made for each other." I could hear her giggle a little at that and I knew that I had said the right thing. I meant it, too, every word of it. When I saw them together it was like seeing a post card, or a Hallmark card in living color. I wondered what she thought of Bill and I but did not bring it up. It seemed our relationship was a little different than Tom and Kyans. The two of them were much braver than I was, and I felt like every time Bill and I were together, just being there was enough. I didn&#39;t quite understand it myself, but no matter.

The day out with my best friend had refreshed me and we arrived back at the hotel room talking happily and ready for whatever might happen next. The rooms were both empty so we laid out on our beds and watched the fairly odd parents on Nick, which was in Italian. It made it even better, and we laughed at everything, mainly because we didn&#39;t understand anything. There was a knock on the door and Kyan and I exchanged questioning glances. I turned the TV on mute and got up. Peaking through the viewer, I saw two girls about our age standing on the other side, looking slightly impatient. They looked a little familiar perhaps but I wasn&#39;t sure, and I opened the door hesitantly. "Hi..." I offered a pathetic excuse for a greeting. Kyan came up behind me and they smiled a little at her.

One of the girls, taller than me by at least four inches, spoke first. "Hello. I am Monica, and dis is Anna." She gestured to the shorter, chubby girl standing next to her looking almost timid. Monica had an accent that sounded Russian to me, and I couldn&#39;t read her face at all. "Hi, girls, what can we do for you? I am Kyan and this is-" -Ve know who you are. Ve came here to tell you someting." Anna piped up, and she didn&#39;t look quite to timid anymore. In fact, she looked pretty ticked. "Stay AVAY from our boys." Anna glared at me, and I shrunk back a little bit. Their boys? Bill? I blinked a little. "Are you...are you with two of the boys?" I blurted, not meaning to speak at all. "No. JUST STAY AWAY." Monica looked down at me and snarled. I realized suddenly that these girls were fans. How did they find us here? I started to close the door in their faces, when Anna shoved it back. This was not going well.

It took me about thirty seconds to regain my vision. Anna had shoved the door into the side of my head and I had staggered back, falling to the ground and was blinded momentarily. Kyan shouted and ran to my side. My head pounded and the other two girls advanced on us like animals. Someone tried to push me down as I struggled to stand, and I didn&#39;t know what in the world was going on. Just as I regained my sight and balanced myself, more people flooded the room. Great. But to my relief, it was the boys. Gustav grabbed Monica&#39;s arm and pulled her back. She had been about to strike Kyan. "Out." Anna began to protest, but Bill spoke again, firmer and much louder this time. "I SAID OUT." Both girls retreated as I felt blood drip down the side of my face. "Ve have to get you to the hospital. Now." Bill grabbed something white, a towel, and pressed it to my head. Then everything went blank.

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

aww...please say shes ok...i fell bad but may i ask you a question?

[Ich_liebe_bill]

aww...please say shes ok...i fell bad but may i ask you a question?


Sure, go ahead

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

aww...please say shes ok...i fell bad but may i ask you a question?


Sure, go ahead


can i be in your story??? :D

[Ich_liebe_bill]

aww...please say shes ok...i fell bad but may i ask you a question?


Sure, go ahead


can i be in your story??? :D

^.^ I was actually thinking of opening slots for more characters! I'm thinking...four slots... hmmm.....*goes to post*

[Ich_liebe_bill]

ANNOUNCEMENT!


Thanks to the lovely Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S, I am going to go through with an idea I had, and was asked about SOO. I have four new characters to be introduced into my story. If you want to be one, Well...there are only three slots open,(Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S, go ahead, you get an automatic first choice!) SO! hurry, hurry quick! Just PM me with your name, which one you would like, and a little bit about your personality :)
1. Kyan&#39;s and Jesse&#39;s personal agent - Amanda
2. New girl in the band (guitarist) - Lexi
3. Stalker :P
4. Georg&#39;s girlfriend - Karissa

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

*squeals* here...i want to be the first person...sorry if im freaking you out but i love your writing... :D and im really hyper right now i just had a couple home made mints that are pure sugar...

Name:Karissa
Age:18
personality:nice,innocent,sweet, but cracks when it is something she is against
style:one who wears cute clothes(babyshirts, cute tops), jeans, and converses
hair:dark brown and has a rock cut to it for easy hair-flips(i love doing those!)
height:5'7
loves: phantom of the opera
one thing that she believes in is being pure until marriage

okay im done!

#4 of course!!!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

*squeals* here...i want to be the first person...sorry if im freaking you out but i love your writing... :D and im really hyper right now i just had a couple home made mints that are pure sugar...

Name:Karissa
Age:18
personality:nice,innocent,sweet, but cracks when it is something she is against
style:one who wears cute clothes(babyshirts, cute tops), jeans, and converses
hair:dark brown and has a rock cut to it for easy hair-flips(i love doing those!)
height:5'7
loves: phantom of the opera
one thing that she believes in is being pure until marriage

okay im done!

#4 of course!!!

^.^ The spot is yours! I'll be posting a new chapter tomorrow, I've got a few ideas brewing! Thanks so much for the compliment, I feel honored![/quote],

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

yay!!!!im excited now!!! Danke!!! i cant wait...sorry i pmd you too.....

[tokiohotel26]

can i be the new girl in band???
name:lexi
Age:18
personality: nice,sweet, funny, always tries to help
style:a mixture of bill and tom
[[i like to shop at places like aeropostale and hollister and hot topic]]
hair:dark brown and has dark purple highlights and is straight

[LipsOfAnAngel]

great chappy! poor jesse. mehr bitte!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter 8: Headache. Part 1


The lights were dim when I opened my eyes, and I found myself staring at an unfamiliar ceiling. I was wrapped in blankets and felt as if my head was also wrapped in a blanket, and I went to sit up, wondering why in the world someone would wrap my head. I was stopped by a sudden pain, however, and laid back slowly, moaning as I did so. The left side of my head pounded. There was a face in view and I struggled to make it out. Bill. Bill Kaulitz? Tokio Hotel? What in the world? Oh. It all came rushing back in a flood of memory after a moment. I had assumed that had been a dream, I had been sleeping, hadn&#39;t I? No. I had been hit in the head. ********.

Bill put his hand on my shoulder and spoke softly, but with the throbbing in my head it sounded like he could have been yelling with a bullhorn in my ear. I winced and he grew silent, sitting down on the bed and taking my hand. I deducted that I must have somehow arrived at the hospital. I took a deep breath and slowly opened my eyes again. I was greeted with worry-filled brown eyes. No makeup. Unusual, but I didn&#39;t think much of it, I was much too hazy. Someone else came in, and Bill spoke to her in a whisper, and nurse. She fiddled around a little and then left. A moment later, the pounding in my head died down and I was able to think a little more clearly.

An IV in my hand, a night gown. Yes, definantly a hospital."Am I alright?" My words came slowly and I made the brave choice to try to sit up once again, this time slower. I achieved a semi-comfortable position. "Ja, just a minor concussion. Dat girl heet you hard. But dats ok, vu are loved by many more." He smiled and squeezed my hand. I blinked at him and then focused on the rest of the room. I was shocked. Everywhere, lining the walls and the windows were unopened cards and flowers and teddy bears. "I don&#39;t know how da media found out, but vonce it did, everyone vanted vu to have dees things." He smiled brightly. I had no idea that anyone even really knew who I was, let alone LIKED me, and I sunk back into my pillow, taking it all in.

Kyan and Tom walked in a few seconds later, and when she saw me sitting up, Kyan let go of Tom&#39;s hand and came to the bed, gently hugging me. "You ok! Oh my god. We foudn those two girls and are pressing charges." Tom nodded behind her and his eyes sparked a little, and I was glad to have my friends close to me. "Here, we brought some food. The hospital food in Europe is not any better than at home. At least, according to Bill." Tom held up a giant McDonalds bag and I mustered a smile.

So glad to have a cheeseburger, I savored it by nibbling on it. After about ten minutes, I had gotten through half of it and looked up to see Gustav standing at the door, Georg and an unfamiliar girl standing behind him. In Gustavs arms was the biggest teddy bear I had ever seen. He was blushing furiously. "Gustav!" Bill laughed and stood, extending his arm towards me. The blushing drummer stepping into the room and set the huge floppy brown bear down on the foot of me bed. "I know vu have many bears, but I vanted to give vu a special one." He patted my arm, and continued to blush furiously. I smiled up at him and reached down, pulling the huge bear up towards me and hugging him to my stomach. It was large enough that its feet extended past my toes, and I loved it. "I&#39;ll call it Gusti." Gustav lit up in a smile that spread from ear to ear and I felt like the most pampered girl in the world, despite my headache.

Georg appeared behind Gustav. "I got you something too." He tossed some asprin on the bed and I laughed a little, wincing at the ache in my cranium. "Thanks, Georg, I need it." Bill nudged Georg. "Oh, ja. Jessa, Dis is Karissa, my girlfriend." The girl stepped around him, and smiled at me. She was very pretty, with hair to die for and comfortable looking jeans and a light blue T that had an artistic design splattered on the front. Hi, I am so sorry about what happened." She had an very slight English accent which only made her more likable. I Tucked the teddy bear under the covered next to me and smiled as I closed my eyes. It was compeltely exhausting, just sitting here.


PART TWO COMING IN A FEW HOURS.

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

yay! im in the story!!!...anyways another great chapter as always and im glad shes ok...

oh another question... :D

is Gus-Gus going to have a girl later on??? i dont like people being lonely in stories...

[amandaaraujo]

omg i love it i cant beleiver those girls did that wow oooooohhh can i be in your FF aawww the giant teddy awww.
Name: amanda
looks: now i have shoulder lenght black hair with ice blue eyes. has curves and not skiny but not fat
personality:fun outgoigirl knows when to be serious and when i mean buisness is buisness (deal or no deal ahahh) friendly understanding findsways to get oout of a problem listens to anyone and easy to open up t and keeps a secret untill the grave.and responsible
age: 18
#1 if i can

[tokiohotel26]

awesome chapter!
yay ur pressing charges!
they deserve it

[snowwhitecqueen]

oh jesse you sure know how to cause a rucuss in the music industry ; ] you should put seely in it somewhere he should be like a producer or something lol or a cousin haha idk but hes a huge part of our lives now

[Ich_liebe_bill]

oh jesse you sure know how to cause a rucuss in the music industry ; ] you should put seely in it somewhere he should be like a producer or something lol or a cousin haha idk but hes a huge part of our lives now


OMG THATS BRILLIANT. I just have to figure out where he fits! *racks brain*

[Ich_liebe_bill]

yay! im in the story!!!...anyways another great chapter as always and im glad shes ok...

oh another question... :D

is Gus-Gus going to have a girl later on??? i dont like people being lonely in stories...


Hmmmm....I was thinking about that. I just had a pretty good idea about it too :D.

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

yay! im in the story!!!...anyways another great chapter as always and im glad shes ok...

oh another question... :D

is Gus-Gus going to have a girl later on??? i dont like people being lonely in stories...


Hmmmm....I was thinking about that. I just had a pretty good idea about it too :D.

what kind of idea???

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter 9: Headache, Part 2.


The boys were growing restless, and I could tell, and in my haze from the morphine I managed to tell them to go have some fun. Kyan and Karissa shooed them off after a few moments of their half hearted protests. Glad the room had mostly emptied out, I shoved off my blankets. I had been burning up underneath them for a good thirty minutes and had felt awkward exposing my hospital gown to a room full of teenage boys. Dinner was brought to me and I pushed it around on my plastic plate, staring at. I didn&#39;t even know what it was, so I didn&#39;t try to take a bite. I still was full from the Mcdonalds any way, so I just pushed it aside.

Kyan looked up from her magazine. "So what now?" She looked a little worried and I shrugged. Karissa shifted in her chair from where she had sat to watch Scrubs, which, thank God, was in English. "When I started dating Georg in my junior year I got a lot of crud for it, but I never let it bother me, and now people leave us alone. Just don&#39;t let them know they got to you." I turned to look at her. She was looking at me with wide, earnest eyes. I chewed my lip. "I just wanted to make music, you know? I never thought I&#39;d fall in love." It was the first time I had spoken about it out loud and I turned as red as a tomato. She smiled warmly and I could see she understood.

The door opened and Tom stepped in, looking a little bit like he had just done something he wasn&#39;t supposed to, not a big surprise to me. That was what was so great about him. He walked over to me. "How are vu feeling, Jessa?" I squeezed his arm and he offered me his winning smile that matched Bills. "I&#39;m alright, aren&#39;t you supposed to be out with the boys?" He grinned and winked at me, before turning to Kyan. "Come on, Ky-Ky." I didn&#39;t think I had ever heard that name used before for her, and Kyan looked as if she hadn&#39;t either, which was kind of sweet. She looked at me and I smiled widely at her. Tom took her hand and led her out the door. "I wonder what he is up to. That boy has been trouble since I met them." Karissa laughed a little. She seemed like such a nice girl, and I was glad that Georg had a girl like her. I wondered how Gustav felt, being the only boy that did not have a girlfriend.

A few hours later, Georg and Bill wandered into the room looking like they had just been to a party and back, even though it was the middle of the day. Karissa was asleep in the window seat and Georg went over and lifted her up gently. She awoke and smiled up into his face, and he sat down with her draped in his lap. They shared a few sweet kisses, and then began talking about the sights outside the window. I turned to Bill who had stayed behind a little, and he produced one single red rose from behind his back. I breathed in a little, surprised. I had never been given flowers or chocolate or anything of the sort. "Do vu feel gut enough to valk?" I nodded and he helped me to stand slowly.

We left Georg and Karissa in the room together, snuggling together, and made our way to a little out of the way lobby. I was still in my gown and felt my face grow warm. I knew the back was open, but Bill didn&#39;t look. He helped me to wheel my IV as we walked and held my hand. Neither of us spoke, and when we got to the lobby, he helped me lean against a wall. We were facing bay windows, over looking a huge river with barges and a bridge that rose up whenever one needed to go to the other side. I gazed out into the view and sighed. So much had happened lately and I was beginning to feel tense again, even after the massage earlier that week.

I turned to look at Bill and found him already looking at me. He had put make up on and was looking extra cute. A soft smile played on his lips and he stepped forward and wrapped his arms around my middle. "Even in a hospital gown and head wrap vu look stunning." He bent down to whisper in my ear. I buried my face in his hair and shoulder and inhaled, intoxicated by the way he felt and smelled. Pulling back, he looked down into my eyes with such sincerity that it almost made me cry from the beauty of it all. Then, as if the moment had been set to happen since time itself, he leaned in and kissed me. Our lips touched and electricity shot through my soul. The kiss was so soft that it felt as if an angel was gracing my lips, and I stopped breathing for those few moments. When he pulled away, I couldn&#39;t do anything but heave a sigh.

A giggle came from behind us and Bill turned. Kyan and Tom were standing there, both looking a little bit more than mussed. "Nice one." Tom was grinning from ear to ear and strode over as if he was on top of the world. Kyan bounced over to me and whispered in my ear. "We did IT." I looked at her, eyes wide, and almost burst out laughing. If it wasn&#39;t for my headache, I might have. "What??" I was barely able to get it out without giggling. I had no problem with that kind of thing, I was conservative, but at the same time I liked to be a little crazy sometimes. "In a storage room, here!" She whispered again, practically wiggling around like a little puppy. I was almost jealous that I couldn&#39;t be that crazy with Bill, but at the same time, this girl amazed me.

A little while later, the doctor came in to inform me that I would be able to go home in the morning. Which was good, because we had all been scheduled for an interview on some show, I wasn&#39;t sure what one. Tom announced that he would be telling the whole world he had slept with Kyan, and Kyan looked wide eyed but agreed. They where the perfect dare devil couple, and continued to surprise me, but that was what made them so right for each other. Gustav appeared, starry eyed, but didn&#39;t say much. There was something different about him, and I planned on asking him later.

The next morning when I woke up, everyone was piled around, sleeping soundly.

I had...and have...some of the best friends in the world.


NEXT: TWO MORE NEW CHARACTERS, MORE DRAMA, AND HUGE NEWS.

[Ich_liebe_bill]

yay! im in the story!!!...anyways another great chapter as always and im glad shes ok...

oh another question... :D

is Gus-Gus going to have a girl later on??? i dont like people being lonely in stories...


Hmmmm....I was thinking about that. I just had a pretty good idea about it too :D.

what kind of idea???

Starry-eyed Gusti in the new chapter...you'll just have to wait and see! ;) (lol I like suspense)

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

aww...fabulous chapter by the way...loved it! gus-gus in love??? huh?*nudge*

I WANT TO KNOW!!!!

but take your time...

[snowwhitecqueen]

WOOHOO storage closet!!! oh so very me ; ]

[jackjackio]

Ohh, me loves it.
Please write more ;]

[tokiohotel26]

ooooh when do i come in? :)

[LipsOfAnAngel]

sweet, i love that krissa (?) is in the story. mehr bitte!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

ooooh when do i come in? :)

the next chapter, actually! Once I get all my thoughts together, I'll write it :)

[qweenb717]

**** i thought you updated lol...cant wait to find out what happenes to Love in Hindsight's career now

[tokiohotel26]

ooooh when do i come in? :)

the next chapter, actually! Once I get all my thoughts together, I'll write it :)
woo hoo! yeah! im so excited!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter 10: Interview and something big.
(Part 1)


My headache was numbed considerably well once I left the hospital. I had been handed a bottle of strong pain killer and told to lay low awhile, but I knew that was not going to happen. The van had been upgraded to the boys tour bus, as the group had gotten bigger quite suddenly, and we lounged around in different places on the bus, making our way to a local TV station to do our scheduled interview. Bill and I lay on his bunk, my head placed carefully on his chest. He absent mindedly ran his fingers along my arm and I just stared into his shirt, completely lost in thought.

While we lay there, Georg and Karissa rivaled us in cuteness. Georg was nuzzling her neck, while she hummed to herself. She had ear buds in and I recognized her tune as being from Phantom of the Opera. Sitting across from them, on one of the booths, was Tom and Kyan, who were sharing a Monster energy drink and looking into the lit screen of Kyans Mac, watching Youtube videos. Gustav was air drumming on his bunk, eyes closed, listening to his Mp3 player. Along with these people, my friends, were their agent, who was sitting chatting with a girl I had yet to be introduced to. She looked about the same age as I was, with dark shoulder length hair. She shared my body type - generally skinny with curves - and it made me feel good because I was surrounded by walking poles, girls and guys alike. Besides the driver, the only other person on the bus was Seely, a 20 - something eccentric guy who I had been introduced to as Bill&#39;s personal aid.

I had a feeling our group would grow even more eventually, but right then I was glad to have the people we did. After a little while of driving, we arrived at the station. I had never been more glad to have pain pills available to me in my entire life. Lining the walkway up to the building were a few hundred screaming fans. They were all waving things from magazine cut outs to stuffed animals, and using their vocal chords like no one ever should be aloud to. They were being held back by a thin line of tape which made me nervous, and Bill took my hand to calm me. That would cause a stir. Gustav was the first to step off the bus, and the crowd erupted like never before. Following behind was Georg and Karissa, who stayed close to Georg as he went to sign some autographs. Tom pecked Kyan on the forehead and swaggered off the bus, with Bill in tow, leaving Kyan and I to step down together.

When the sunlight hit my eyes, I had to steady myself a moment, my headache was slowly making its way back to me, but I chose to ignore it, and stepped forward, to find the shock of my life. People were pushing at each other to reach us. Not just the boys, but US. The new girl who had been talking with the agent on the bus stepped closer to me. "Here." She smiled and handed me a permanant marker, and then handed one to Kyan. We stared blankly at her a minute. "Well?" She gestered to the crowd, and I turned around slowly. About fifteen pieces of paper and pictures of me at the concert were shoved in my face and I backed up a step, trying to take it all in and reach for one. My autograph looked so lame. I had to work on that. Kyan was across the way now taking pictures with some girls. I had not expected this at all and couldn&#39;t help but grin.

Finally inside, I inhaled and felt myself looking like a wide-eyed child, but I didn&#39;t care. All that had just happened was overwhelming and new to me. We were ushered immediately onto a stage and sat down on a large couch. It was myself, Kyan, Karissa, and the boys. We were all pretty cramped, and so they brought out a few extra chairs, and Bill and Gustav opted for them. I sat myself down between Kyan and Karissa, which made me feel safe. The lights blinded me, and a man came out, all big smiles and overly nice, and introduced himself as Paulo. Another man announced "Fifteen seconds!" I felt my toes go numb. What if I messed up?

"Annnnd we are back! Here with me I have teenage German sensation, TOKIIIOO HOTEL!" The studio audience had a applaud attack."Also here today for an special appearance only seen here, Georg&#39;s girlfriend, Karissa, and Love in Hindsight - the two girls discovered by the boys!" I blushed and smiled out of nerves into the overly excited Paulo&#39;s face."So tell me, how did this all get started?" On cue, Bill launched into our story. "And there is conspiracy about Tom and Kyan, is there not?" The mans eyes twinkled, and I didn&#39;t like him suddenly, but I kept my cool. Tom piped up almost instantly.

"Ja, isn&#39;t she killer? I fell in love. For da first time now." He smiled and wrapped an arm around Kyan, who was blushing something fierce. "All da girls in da world are going to have to know now that I have a girlfriend. They will be upset but its gut because dat means I am liked." Tom&#39;s cheeky attitude was coming out. "und you know, yesterday we made it, and I chose da right girl to love. She knows what she is doing." Kyan laughed and looked like she was going to die, but at the same time she loved it, and loved the spotlight. "So the sex, its good?" The interviewer was playing on him and his perverted announcement. "She is gut all around, das ist the truth." Paulo and Tom bantered back and forth for a few more minutes before the interviewer turned to me.

"And you, you are Jesse, the lead singer of Love in Hindsight, yes?"
"Yes, thats right."
"I heard that you were attacked by a fan. But why would you be attacked, do you have a romantic tie in the band?"
I blushed fiercely and looked over at Bill, who I could tell was itching to speak. "Y...yes actually. I think that..." Bill was practically about to burst. "it ees me, it ees me! I vonce said I could never keep quite if I was in love, and I cannot, I cannot, Ich leibe das madchen." The audience began to protest.

We kept on changing history every day, and I didn&#39;t know how I felt about it. [/center]

PART TWO WILL COME TOMARROW, THIS GOT A LITTLE LONG. BOTH LEXI AND AMANDA WILL BE MAKING FULL APPEARANCES IN THE NEXT CHAPTER.

[tokiohotel26]

yay! btw can i be back up vocals, too?
i have no idea how to play the guitar but i can sing up a storm!
btw u described me perfectly [[if u were describing me]] i am skinny with some curves!
*hugs tightly*
thank u for putting me in your story!!!

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

good chapter and if i forget to tell you later I am leaving to go to Hume Lake Christian Camps tomorrow so I will not be able to listen to my i-pod, be on my computer, or on my cellie...and id be a little upset if i got the tickets to Rome...and i wont be able to answer my phone...anyways ill miss you and ill read everything on the 20th!

Love, Karissa

[Ich_liebe_bill]

good chapter and if i forget to tell you later I am leaving to go to Hume Lake Christian Camps tomorrow so I will not be able to listen to my i-pod, be on my computer, or on my cellie...and id be a little upset if i got the tickets to Rome...and i wont be able to answer my phone...anyways ill miss you and ill read everything on the 20th!

Love, Karissa

aww you will definantly be missed! have fun though :D

[Ich_liebe_bill]

yay! btw can i be back up vocals, too?
i have no idea how to play the guitar but i can sing up a storm!
btw u described me perfectly [[if u were describing me]] i am skinny with some curves!
*hugs tightly*
thank u for putting me in your story!!!

^.^ sure! i'll work that in somehow :D. I am the same way...guitar, i mean, i can do it, but freakin strum patterns get confusing. Singing is my thing. Actually, Love in Hindsight is the real deal, its my band...and Kyan...well...thats my best friend Cheyenne (I call her Kyan in real life too cuz thats how its pronounced in German)...she does actually play piano and its our dream to become famous :oops: :?

as for describing your perfectly, i'm glad! I could do it because thats EXACTLY me! my middle is tiny and my hips are...hippy. I have curves, a literal hour glass figure. Like...in...whats the song? the big butt song? lol. "her waist is small and her curves are kicking...ect ect" lol

[tokiohotel26]

lol! i love that song! that describes me perfectly! and yea i can play the guitar a LITTLE but if the world depended on me playing the guitar...well lets just say i cant play for shi.t and the world is doomed :lol:

and i totally get it because im trying to make it out there and get discovered, too. and my family has singers and models and stuff but they're no help so im on my own! ugh
and my story is about me and my bff alexis on our life the past few months
some parts are true and most are not
i only got to chapter 2 but it will get more interesting...

[Ich_liebe_bill]

oh! I'd love to read it ^.^
Well, maybe we could help each other get off our feet?
I mean, it can't hurt, right?
All we have is myself and Cheyenne (which works, vocals and piano, but still)
and my boyfriend who is a beast at drums (though he isn't really quite to interested in becoming famous, he wants to be a pilot =])

[snowwhitecqueen]

well luke is going to be in it whether he likes it or not because we need a good drummer

[tokiohotel26]

oh! I'd love to read it ^.^
Well, maybe we could help each other get off our feet?
I mean, it can't hurt, right?
All we have is myself and Cheyenne (which works, vocals and piano, but still)
and my boyfriend who is a beast at drums (though he isn't really quite to interested in becoming famous, he wants to be a pilot =])
oh cool! and yea we could definetly get each other off our feet. i can use all the help i can get. everything counts in the music business. ya know?
oh and if you read my story give me some constructive criticism. i would really love it if someone would tell mme whats wrong with my story

[Ich_liebe_bill]

well luke is going to be in it whether he likes it or not because we need a good drummer


*a-freaking-grees.


Kyan, love, what do you think? could we use another lady? I can't make this decision alone :)



By the way, new chapter coming tomarrow. Oh, and I'm writing another fan fic too. Don't worry, this one will stay alive :D

[tokiohotel26]

yay im so excited...and i just cant hide it! just like that song goes! :lol: :lol: :lol: :mrgreen: :mrgreen: :mrgreen:

[LipsOfAnAngel]

sweet! mehr bitte!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter 11: Something Big (Part 2)


A week went by and slowly everything began to align themselves. The girl who had supplied the markers for Kyan and I was named Amanda, and it turned out the boys agent, whose name I finally learned was Carl, had chosen her fresh out of school to be our own agent. I had taken to her instantly and we had even been sharing clothes. Her style was cute and I had made an appearance on the town in one of her fitted Ts. Kyan and Tom had been sneaking off more frequently of late to be alone, and I found it quite amusing. Gustav kept disapearing too, and every time I went to ask him about it he changed the subject.

Finally, I was much too curious to hold it in any longer and when Gustav slipped off one night, I slipped into some checkered Vans and followed him quietly. He walked instead of getting our vehicle, so I was about to follow close behind and avoid the lights as best as I could. A quick five minutes later, Gustav ducked into a bar, and I followed behind. He was perched at the front by a small stage by the time I got past the huge guy sitting by the door who thought I was fifteen or something.

I settled myself at the back of the bar and watched him. He was tapping one leg impatiently and looking at the stage as if he was waiting for something. A man came out on stage and announced someone named Lexi, and a few people clapped , including Gustav, who was a little too enthusiastic. An extremely pretty girl walked out on stage, looking confident, and wrapped her hand around the mic. Even from the back of the room I could see her eyes glitter. The first few notes she sang made my jaw drop, and the boy standing behind her playing guitar for her fell out of focus. This girl had talent, and I wanted to meet her. It looked like Gustav did too.

There was a hand on my shoulder and I turned to find Kyan standing there. She wasn&#39;t looking at me, however, she was looking at the girl. I knew she was thinking the same thing and she leaned over and told me she was going to get Amanda. Just like that, she was gone. The girl finished her song and smiled, before thanking the crowd and disappearing. Gustav got up to leave, red in the face, but caught sight of me and made his way over. "I&#39;m embarassed." I smiled and reached over, ruffling his hair. "Its ok, Gusti, she&#39;s wonderful!" Amanda and Kyan appeared. "Where is this girl? We want her." Just then, Lexi came out from behind the stage and made her way to the bar to get a drink. I stood and stopped her.

"You were amazing." She stopped and stared. "Your Jesse." I blushed red. I was still not used to people knowing me. "Yeah. Uhm, this is Kyan, and our agent, Amanda, and this is Gustav, who I am sure you know." Lexi turned bright red and smiled in Gustav&#39;s direction. She nodded to everyone. "We want you in our band." Kyan blurted, and bit the side of her lip, raising her eyebrows. Lexi let out a surprised squeak and stepped back. "Your...your joking, right? Love in Hindsight? You guys got huge in a week!" I smiled and extended my hand. "Welcome to the band, Lexi."


Sorry, short chapter...But, hey, Gusti fell in love :D.
New, much longer chapter coming ASAP. I am in the process of settling in at my best friends house (moved in today!) so bare with me :)

[LipsOfAnAngel]

gusti-bear fell in love!!! awwww!!!!! mehr bitte!

[tokiohotel26]

*squeals from happyness and excitement*
yay gusti is in love with me! yay im in the band! just plain YAY!!!!!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter 12: Life.


So the group was made. My hunch had been right and I had never felt so satisfied in all my life. Bill, Tom, Kyan and I all laid in a comfortable pile on the beach, while Amanda and Seely played in the waves, Gustav and Lexi stared into each others eyes in a sickeningly cute way, and Georg and Karissa were playing Frisbee. It was almost too good to be true. Lexi had been with us now a month and we were hard at work on our first album. We had our very first photoshoot of our own and with the boys the next day, all the girlfriends. There was a concert on friday, and once our CD was down and released, there was talk of a tour. International.

I reflected on everything. We had extended our stay in Europe permanently, and had all moved to Berlin. Kyan, Lexi , and I had found a flat that was completely perfect for the three of us and were thrilled with the record company paid for it. How did I ever live life differently? Something was wrong, though, and I could not put my finger on it. I turned over in the sand and looked over at Kyan, who was buried partly under Tom&#39;s arms. She had been acting a little odd before the three shows we had had since the first, and Tom had been too. I squinted at them, but shrugged it off and pulled myself up. Bill grinned over at me and I could just barely made out his eyes behind his huge sunglasses.

The few hours before the concert were full of nerves, but I did not mind, I was actually starting to enjoy it a little bit. Kyan and Tom disappeared about an hour before hand, but they disappeared a lot so I was not too worried about it. When the time came for us to leave, however, they were not anywhere to be found, and everyone began to worry. Bill was wringing his hands and pacing. He had been restless the last few days and I knew he knew something wasn&#39;t right with his twin brother. I went from place to place, looking. It occurred to me to check the flat, and I took Lexi, Amanda and Bill in my Honda. Gustav and Georg planned on going over to the concert hall to keep the fans at bay.

The door was unlocked and partly open when I got there, and Bill was near ready to rush in, when I pulled him back. "Tom ees in big trouble. Big, big trouble. Let me go." He was nearly in tears, and my heart broke. I let him go and he pushed the door opened. Two sets of horrified eyes greeted us. The scene that met me made me want to throw up. Tom had a needle and syringe and had it sticking into the crook of his arm. Kyan was rocking back and forth, but had froze when she saw us.

"YOU IDIOT! WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING?!" Bill ripped the needle away from Tom and held it with two fingers away from himself. I pulled Kyan to her feet, but said nothing. She coughed into my shoulder, and I could feel her hole body trembling. Right before an effing concert. Amanda and Lexi just stood in shock, I&#39;m sure they must have hated us then. "I have to deal some effing way, man. Its not all damm rainbows like you think." Bill looked at me. Tears were running down his face and he was biting back harsh words. This was going to be the worst concert of our career. Or so I thought, anyway.

[snowwhitecqueen]

oh dear what have i done ; ]


Turtle Turtle Turtle...

[tokiohotel26]

what the **** just happened? i did not expect that coming. i thought she was just pregnant or something @ the beginning of the chapter
it was a very good chapter btw.
:shock:

[Ich_liebe_bill]

GUTEN TAG!!!!!!

:P.

i'm so nerrvous tonight, i'm so neeervous.



omfg, i love you.

[tokiohotel26]

GUTEN TAG!!!!!!

:P.

i'm so nerrvous tonight, i'm so neeervous.



omfg, i love you.

Hallo!
r u talking 2 me? y r u nervous? wats wrong? i ♥ u 2!
:? im kinda confused here
y r u nervous?

[Ich_liebe_bill]

GUTEN TAG!!!!!!

:P.

i'm so nerrvous tonight, i'm so neeervous.



omfg, i love you.

Hallo!
r u talking 2 me? y r u nervous? wats wrong? i ♥ u 2!
:? im kinda confused here
y r u nervous?

oh gosh, sorry, darling :P. i was refering to my sister who posted above you, lol. it was inside jokes...haha. I'm glad i could surprise you on the chappie though! i was considering making her pregnant, but Kyan=my sister and she wont let me do it, lol

[tokiohotel26]

GUTEN TAG!!!!!!

:P.

i'm so nerrvous tonight, i'm so neeervous.



omfg, i love you.

Hallo!
r u talking 2 me? y r u nervous? wats wrong? i ♥ u 2!
:? im kinda confused here
y r u nervous?

oh gosh, sorry, darling :P. i was refering to my sister who posted above you, lol. it was inside jokes...haha. I'm glad i could surprise you on the chappie though! i was considering making her pregnant, but Kyan=my sister and she wont let me do it, lol

ok next time verify that!
freaked me out thinking something was wrong :lol:

[Ich_liebe_bill]

lol, so sorry! i hadn't realized you had posted under her >.<


tehe :P


so, was it a GUTT chapter twist? or bad? lol...

[tokiohotel26]

read last line first!

it was good for the story!
but bad for the character in it and all around bad for people

in case ur confused like i get when im writing stuff that doesnt even make sense to me: i mean that it was great!

it might sound insulting sorry! i dont mean for it to sound that way!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

read last line first!

it was good for the story!
but bad for the character in it and all around bad for people

in case ur confused like i get when im writing stuff that doesnt even make sense to me: i mean that it was great!

it might sound insulting sorry! i dont mean for it to sound that way!

haha, nope, not insulting. I was trying to make for some serious drama, and that is DEFINANTLY serious drama, seems like it worked. Plus my sister wanted to input some ideas for herself and she came up with that, and some other wild ones that I am going to put in to keep it shocking :)

[tokiohotel26]

cant wait! btw what do you think of side ponytails for lexi in my story? or yours? doesnt really matter just what do u think of them for me?

[Ich_liebe_bill]

cant wait! btw what do you think of side ponytails for lexi in my story? or yours? doesnt really matter just what do u think of them for me?


sounds intriguing :D. it can be like...your personal style!

[tokiohotel26]

yes! exactly! and ill have long hair with crazy purple highlights! im about to make a salon scene for my story!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

yes! exactly! and ill have long hair with crazy purple highlights! im about to make a salon scene for my story!


lol.

done and done!

[tokiohotel26]

yay!!!
this is the color i am imagining but they are only highlights.
http://www.donitaworld.com/Graphics/Gina/punky.jpg

maybe the length 2...havnt decided yet

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter 13: Recession meets Fame


The concert went well, to a degree, Tom and Kyan were both jittery, and Bill was not at his best to say the least. It took Bill two weeks to start speaking to Tom again, and the public began to worry, which is the only reason he spoke to him again. Once we were in private, however, you could cut the tension with a knife. Tom could not get thirty feet away from his brother, which I could tell was driving him up the wall. I woke up a few times to soft sniffling, and could only hold Bill.

I had no idea such a horrible circumstance was going to present itself at such a vital time in our up and coming career, but I had pulled Kyan aside. "It was a stupid mistake, I know. I don&#39;t really get why we did it." She was chewing her lip til it bled, and I had to stop myself from biting my nails until they did the same. "Kyan, just promise me you wont ever do it again, ok?" She laid her head on my shoulder and nodded, before falling into a weary sleep. The last few weeks had been challenging, fun, but stressful.

The confrontation finally came.

"Why are you so upset."
They had been whispering and Tom finally burst out.
"WHY AM I SO UPSET? WHY AM I SO UPSET? WHAT THE H.ELL?"
Tom coiled back, and everyone looked up from what they were doing. We were all sitting in the band room, innocently doing whatever it was we were doing. I had Lexi sitting in between my knees, facing away, dying her hair. She had wanted all over purple for awhile now, and we had a big concert coming up. None of us were big fans of salons, all do-it-yourself type of girls, and so she had asked me to dye it. I had stopped in mid-dye, however, and looked up, relieved and horrified at the same time.
Karissa nearly dove behind Georg, who had been teaching her a little bass, and Amanda&#39;s face drained all the color. I knew that this was going to be a big deal. Thank God Kyan had gone out for a little while with Gustav.
"Go ahead, little brother, TELL ME. JUST Fvcking TELL ME."
Bill burst into tears, something that was happening too much for my liking, and I wanted so badly to reach out to him.
"Do you know what the h.ell you were doing there? Do you know you just ruined everything?! DO YOU KNOW YOU HURT ME!?" Bill screamed.
Tom set his guitar down and stood. His fists were clenched as well as his jaw. I had never seen such anger in a boys eyes before, and I shrunk back in my chair. Lexi whispered faintly that she was going to go take a shower. She was lucky to have an excuse.

"DON&#39;T YOU THINK I&#39;VE FELT IT, BILL? WE ARE TWINS, REMEMBER? I&#39;M NOT RETARDED!"
"THEN ACT LIKE IT, QUIT BEING AN ***!" Bill slammed his fist on the table.
"MAYBE I&#39;D START ACTING LIKE IT IF YOU DID, WHAT DO YOU THINK IGNORING ME DOES? FVCK YOU!"
This threw Bill for a loop, and we all sat in stunned silence as Tom dropped to his knees, silent tears running down his face. Bill knelt and wrapped his arms around his brother, shaking fiercely.


Just then, Gustav burst through the door.
"Kyan, she&#39;s not here? ******! I can&#39;t find her anywhere."

[LipsOfAnAngel]

oh ****e!!!! mehr bitte!!!

[Unknown598]

*new reader


this is... well 4 me, near tear jerking @ points.... VERY GOOD! :D

mehr bitte... when u can :D :mrgreen:

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter 14: biting the bullet

Kyan was missing. For three days. Tom was beyond a mess, refusing to do any public appearances until she came home. Amanda, Bill, Lexi, and I all went out looking for her every second we could. She finally turned up, looking weary and sick, on our front porch. Tom had been sitting on our for practically the entire three days, staring into space, and when she appeared he was the only one there. Apparently she had enough energy to knock on the door, and he came flying to it like superman and caught her as she fell. He carried her inside and laid her down on the couch and did not leave her side as he waited for all of us to get there. The entire group appeared nearly at the same time, and everyone swarmed around Kyan. Amanda, upset, pushed everyone away except me and turned back to Kyan, who was now sitting up, looking around silently, not saying a word.

She pulled up one long sleeve to reveal bruises and cuts, and Amanda lit into her like nothing I had ever heard. "Do you know what this is going to do to your career? You just released a CD, you have a tour in a week, and are set to record AGAIN in 8 months." Kyan could only nod and stare down at her battered arms. I had no idea what had brought her to it, but I could only hope it had nothing to do with me. Tom was sick of staying away and came marching back into the room, pushing Amanda aside, almost rudely, and setting Kyan&#39;s head on his shoulder, glaring us both off.

Later that night, I was reassured that Kyan was fast asleep in her bed, with Tom holding tight to her like a teddy bear, and retired to my room, sick and worried. Bill met me at the door to my room and held me close, letting me cry for the first time since this all had come to pass. "My Jessa, it will be ok." I almost didn&#39;t believe him, and cried my mascara and eyeliner off all over his shirt, which luckily was black.

Six long weeks past. We were an international sensation, and Kyan seemed to pick herself up a bit. I fell back a little and allowed Lexi to do lead vocals, opting for back up, semi-lead and guitar. Our album went platinum, and there was constant talk of a new album already. We were teen sensations and we did not even realize it. Time was flying by.

October 23rd, 2010, history was made. A joint concert with us and the boys, Karissa was pulled on stage. We all looked at each other, bewildered, trying to find out what was going on. The place was silenced, just like our first concert, and each boy walked over to his own girl. Bill looked into my eyes, deeper than I had ever seen, and raised the microphone to his lips. "We are TOKIO HOTEL." The boys yelled in union, then fell silent. They were so weird. Bill continued. "Our fans have supported us through everything, and now we ask that you support us in this." Each boy dropped to one knee slowly, and the entire place erupted in cheers. The four girls stood in stunned silence, myself included. Bill dropped the microphone with a screeching thump "Jessa, will you marry me?" I burst into tears. "Ja, Bill Kaulitz. JA!" He stood, slipping a ring onto my finger, picked me up and spun me around. There were a few kissed between couples on stage and the fans could barely contain themselves. Lexi, Kyan, Karissa, and I all came to the front of the stage, and on the count of three, held up our left hands. Maybe life COULD get better. Maybe. JUST MAYBE.

[snowwhitecqueen]

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKK

squeals reallly insanely loud : ]

[CaitlinCatastrophe]

OMG :shock: :D
OMG :shock: :D
OMG :shock: :D
OMG :shock: :D
OMG THAT WAS AWESOME!
I LOVE THIS STORY!

[<3ByYourSide<3]

AWWWWWWWWW!
im crying right now!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

AWWWWWWWWW!
im crying right now!



o.o is that good or bad!

[Unknown598]

:o *not in bad way*

:D *sorta speachless here*

if i could cry easily, i would be

that was awesome ^_^

[Ich_liebe_bill]

seriously?? i was worried it kind of sucked o.O

[Unknown598]

well, i liked it ^_^

:D :mrgreen:

[Ich_liebe_bill]

well, i liked it ^_^

:D :mrgreen:


^.^ i am so glad!

[Rejects_Angel]

Ahh!! You are such an amazing f*ckin writer!!

[<3ByYourSide<3]

AWWWWWWWWW!
im crying right now!



o.o is that good or bad!


good!
that was soooo sweet!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Ahh!! You are such an amazing f*ckin writer!!


omg, haha, danke! i love this feedback!

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

awww....i cant wait for more....and i missed ur story all week...

[LipsOfAnAngel]

*gasp!* omg, i'm in love!!! yay!!!!! mehr bitte!

[jackjackio]

*AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW*
Update soon!
Bitte!

[tokiohotel26]

:cry: im like seriously crying tears of joy at the moment! i went away for the weekend and i come back and i find out that im getting married, my hair is purple, and we have a platinum cd! im very happy!!! :cry: :mrgreen:

[Rejects_Angel]

waits patiently
waits patiently and whistles
waits patiently, whistles and taps foot
waits patiently, whistles, taps foot and looks at watch
waits patiently, whistles, taps foot.....forget this ADD MORE!!!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

*is writing new chapter now*

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter 15: so...now.

I did nothing but fiddle with my ring. Over and over again I twisted it around my finger, one moment biting my lip, the other just breathing. Bill was asleep on the couch across from mine, and I was really tempted to go over and snuggle with him, but I refrained, he looked so peaceful and calm. His hair was down and he hadn&#39;t worn any make up that day. For once, we had nothing going on and he had just wanted to relax. I wanted to do the same, but my mind was too full to do so. I was getting married. I was a hit sensation. I was Jesse Queen, and people knew that name like it was their own. It was enough to drive me insane, but I was handling it well. Kyan was not. Poor Tom was the only one who kept her in line and grounded, and the only time she wasn&#39;t twitchy or talking to herself was when she was with him. When they were together, she was the Kyan I knew and loved for as long as I could remember, but even that seemed to be slowly fading.

The night before had been one of celebration. We had all had gone out in light of our engagements, and were stopped about every five minutes to be congratulated or chastised. Every single one of us had gotten trashed, and we had all found our way back to our flat, somehow, and passed out everywhere. I was the only one who had woken up, and was almost amused to find the state the others were in. I had gotten up about half an hour before, eyes practically closed, trying to avoid seeing way too much of Tom and Kyan who were sprawled on each other, passed out completely naked and covered them with blankets. Thank god I had been passed out for that one.

Now full of tea and nursing my hangover, I looked over at the table for no reason and saw Kyan&#39;s writing book sitting there. I picked up, settled back down and flipped it open. The bulk of it was just bored doodles from long plane rides and nights waiting for something to happen. The back of the book was what caught my interest. "Saw that weird boy again today...he was following me...think he lives 2 blocks down..." I could barely make out the scribbles, but I raised an eyebrow and looked over to her sleeping form, sort of scared. Stalker? This was news to me. Amanda stirred in her sleep and sat up slowly, groaning and rubbing her head.

"Hey, kid." Her voice was hoarse. I shut the book, forgetting to worry about it and brought her some aspirin and tea. "Wow, this is quite the scene." She mumbled and gave Tom and Kyan a surprised look before taking the rest of it in. Bill was curled up now like a little boy, looking adorable, and Karissa and Georg where asleep on her bed which was against one wall, looking more than a little mussed. Gustav and Lexi where sleeping on the floor not far from Tom and Kyan, and it almost shocked me to see Gustav&#39;s hand up Lexi&#39;s shirt in his sleep. If I had been any less hung over I probably would have laughed, but the pounding in my head stopped me short.

"What are we going to do about her?" The concern in Amanda&#39;s voice mirrored the way I felt at the moment.

"I really don&#39;t know. I can&#39;t figure out what is going on in her little head." I felt like reaching out to stroke her hair, my little Kyan, but I refrained. She was too far away as it was.

"I think we need to take her to the hospital." Amanda paused. "Somewhere outside of the spotlight."

I chewed my lip and nodded, watching Kyan turn over under her blanket, exposing Tom&#39;s well-chiseled torso. I looked away, feeling weird, and saw Bill sitting up, his eyes squinting against the light. I brought him the same remedies I had Amanda and stroked his hair while he adjusted.

"I...agree. I want to fly her out tomorrow." Bill had heard us talking.

"Yes, but where?" Amanda stood up and came over towards us, holding out her hands to steady herself.

"The states." Bill said in a sigh and then laid his head in my lap, falling asleep again shortly after.


Kyan was less than happy to go. I tried to tell her it was to visit home, but she knew. Tom insisted on coming with us and secretly I was more than happy to have him along for the ride, because I didn&#39;t know how Kyan would act otherwise. She slept on his shoulder for most of the two flights, and I talked to him softly about how she had been acting. Tears came to his eyes when he spoke of it, and I ached for him. Once on the ground, we drove to the well-known hospital of choice and checked her in. Kyan was angry but we both calmed her down to a point. The nurses that surrounded her were all nice and Tom and I sat down in the waiting room while evaluations where done. Tom cried for awhile, and I put one comforting hand on his back. Fame had its costs.

[Unknown598]

:)

[Rejects_Angel]

happy happy happy YAY you added!!

Poor Kyan but she's getting help and that's what counts. She has to know everyone cares and thats why they're doing this 4 her.

[samijo]

We have discussed this Jesse. You know how I cry.

It's amazing anyway. And I still luff you...even if you did this. ;)

[Ich_liebe_bill]

We have discussed this Jesse. You know how I cry.

It's amazing anyway. And I still luff you...even if you did this. ;)


awwww sam-sam dont cry! just fiction <3.

i looooooooooove you!

[samijo]

We have discussed this Jesse. You know how I cry.

It's amazing anyway. And I still luff you...even if you did this. ;)


awwww sam-sam dont cry! just fiction <3.

i looooooooooove you!

But it's very GOOD fiction...believeable fiction.

[LipsOfAnAngel]

wow.... mehr bitte!

[tokiohotel26]

wow...but at least kyan is getting some help.

Gustav and Lexi where sleeping on the floor not far from Tom and Kyan, and it almost shocked me to see Gustav's hand up Lexi's shirt in his sleep.

hee hee hee... :mrgreen: :mrgreen: :mrgreen:

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

please tell me she gets better? i hope so cuz i love herz...anyways another good chapter! i cant wait for more!

[Unknown598]

:D

I was here


*patient*

[Rejects_Angel]

Mas?

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Mas?


hehe. spanish on a german forum ^.^


love it.


writing more today!

[Rejects_Angel]

Mas?


hehe. spanish on a german forum ^.^


love it.


writing more today!

Lol hopefully I can pick up a bit of german from the board but I doubt it......I'll be sticking to english and spanish.

[<3ByYourSide<3]

i am seriously in love with this story!
more soon!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

post up tonight, for sure. things have been insane lately

[Rejects_Angel]

post up tonight, for sure. things have been insane lately

take ur time, waiting for the add makes it that much better when its up

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter 16: Stalker.

Kyan didn&#39;t talk to me directly for about 2 weeks after that. For some reason she wasn&#39;t upset with Tom, and she let him fly her back and forth to the hospital for counseling. I tried to approach her but every time I did she seemed to have somewhere to be, some one to see, or some excuse I&#39;d heard five minutes before. I started to let it go and tried to focus more on the fact that we had a CD to be released the very next month and another international tour to try and wrap our heads around, when the strangest thing happened.

We were all piled in our living room watching "The Ring" and making fun of it. Georg and Karissa were going to get married in the morning and this was our weird way of having a "bachelor/bachelorette" party. I was already mostly spooked by the movie, as was Bill, and we were hiding in each others arms like little school children, when Kyan nearly lept out of Tom&#39;s arms in alarm. She never had a problem with scary movies before, and I looked over at her in curiosity. I had no idea what could have possessed her to do something like that, and Tom tried to calm her down. She seemed to become agitated, and Tom finally let her go. She wandered away into her room and shut the door quietly behind her.

When he looked up and saw me watching him he winced at me. I knew he was hurting, thinking that this was all his fault, and Bill saw it too. My boy got up and went to talk softly to his twin over the giggles of Lexi and Gustav, who had just made a completely off the wall joke about the girl in the movie. I took this as a good chance to go and be with my friend.

Knocking softly on her door, I got no response, so I was brave enough to walk in. I didn&#39;t want her shooting up or something else right in our own home like before. Let alone anywhere. She wasn&#39;t doing anything of the sort, simply lying on her bed, asleep, journal laying at her side, open. I sat down slowly on the bed and picked up the book, looking to make sure I didn&#39;t wake her. "He came in the HOUSE. I saw him. The stalker. I heard someone call him Stanley..." I scrunched my eyebrows. Someone in the house? Was that why she had spooked? I grew nervous and set the book down, intending to alert the boys of a possible unwelcome guest.

I was scared near to death when Kyan awoke and grabbed my arm, breathing like she had just seen a ghost. She let go after a moment. "Oh, its you." With a heavy sigh she turned over to go back to sleep. "Kyan, you can&#39;t keep doing this to me. We need to talk. We are in this together...forever...don&#39;t you remember?" I bit back hot tears. She turned to look at me through the dark. Her eyes were blood shot and she looked like she was about ten years older. What little part of my heart didn&#39;t ache for her gave way.

"I remember. Then things got big. Real Big. We got famous. We changed. I&#39;ve got a stalker and I -" She stopped herself and shut her eyes, placing her hands over her face and groaning into them. I took them away. "Stalker? Kyan what are you talking about? Please tell me." She bit her lip before speaking. "This guy...he has been following me. He is in the house...now."

I paniced. Grabbing her arm, I dragged her from the dark room, flipped on the main lights, and stood, shaking like a leaf. Everyone protested at the sudden change in their movie theater setting, but it barely registered. Tom stood and took Kyan to sit down. She did look incredibly weak. Bill came over and took my arm. "Whats wrong? Jessa? What is it?" I whispered to him and he motioned for his band mates.

The search for Stanley began.

[tokiohotel26]

oh **** TO THE NO! there will be no creepy stalker in my house! when we find him make sure i get my softball bat and beat his *** with it! i am a ghetto girl and i DO NOT play with stalkers. they WILL get BEAT DOWN!!!!! :evil:

anyway hows me and gusti's relationship?
its like we're barely in the story :cry:

[Rejects_Angel]

Love love love love love!!!!

And i so would not want to mess with Tom's girl, for some reason I think he could possibly have a bad temper especially when it comes to messing with his friends/family (ppl he loves and cares about)

[Ich_liebe_bill]

oh **** TO THE NO! there will be no creepy stalker in my house! when we find him make sure i get my softball bat and beat his *** with it! i am a ghetto girl and i DO NOT play with stalkers. they WILL get BEAT DOWN!!!!! :evil:

anyway hows me and gusti's relationship?
its like we're barely in the story :cry:



ahhh sorry hun :(. I'm working on keeping every one active but its really hard to do with so many characters.

how bout...*thinks*

i've got it. well, ok, so...I'm doing everyones weddings separate cuz the idea of a joint wedding is uber cheezy to me...SO. Karissa and Georg get married in the next chappie, then you and Gustav, which I'll write on the relationships between everyone hard core in those. So you are a big part, super soon! Its been crazy trying to do all of it, lol

[tokiohotel26]

oh **** TO THE NO! there will be no creepy stalker in my house! when we find him make sure i get my softball bat and beat his *** with it! i am a ghetto girl and i DO NOT play with stalkers. they WILL get BEAT DOWN!!!!! :evil:

anyway hows me and gusti's relationship?
its like we're barely in the story :cry:



ahhh sorry hun :(. I'm working on keeping every one active but its really hard to do with so many characters.

how bout...*thinks*

i've got it. well, ok, so...I'm doing everyones weddings separate cuz the idea of a joint wedding is uber cheezy to me...SO. Karissa and Georg get married in the next chappie, then you and Gustav, which I'll write on the relationships between everyone hard core in those. So you are a big part, super soon! Its been crazy trying to do all of it, lol
oh thats ok i feel better now...do i still get to use my softball bat on that stanley guy? pleeeeeeaaaaaase <----i kept messing that word up! i kept spelling it plaesa pleasa plaese plwase
idk! i feel like a retard! now i feel like even more of a retard because i spelled feel:fell now:noie & mow and because:becise :cry:

[samijo]

Kick his ***!!! :evil:

[xXKillerxQueenXx]

Creepy Stalker?
Ahhh! It's getting good.
Post more soon! <3

[Ich_liebe_bill]

oh **** TO THE NO! there will be no creepy stalker in my house! when we find him make sure i get my softball bat and beat his *** with it! i am a ghetto girl and i DO NOT play with stalkers. they WILL get BEAT DOWN!!!!! :evil:

anyway hows me and gusti's relationship?
its like we're barely in the story :cry:



ahhh sorry hun :(. I'm working on keeping every one active but its really hard to do with so many characters.

how bout...*thinks*

i've got it. well, ok, so...I'm doing everyones weddings separate cuz the idea of a joint wedding is uber cheezy to me...SO. Karissa and Georg get married in the next chappie, then you and Gustav, which I'll write on the relationships between everyone hard core in those. So you are a big part, super soon! Its been crazy trying to do all of it, lol
oh thats ok i feel better now...do i still get to use my softball bat on that stanley guy? pleeeeeeaaaaaase <----i kept messing that word up! i kept spelling it plaesa pleasa plaese plwase
idk! i feel like a retard! now i feel like even more of a retard because i spelled feel:fell now:noie & mow and because:becise :cry:

lol your fine, i promise. actually...you will see in the next chapter who Stanley is. And I will prolly add the baseball bat in there ;). Butttt its all going to come to light in the next chapter and I can garuntee there will be some

:shock: :shock: :shock: :shock: :shock: :x

faces

[tokiohotel26]

is that last face mine...i can see that happening. the bat is mine! :mrgreen:
but why cant i beat his ***. just a little? please????

[LipsOfAnAngel]

oh my!! mehr bitte!

[Unknown598]

oOoOoOoOo ..... i have that problem...


:o stalkers r creppy... *grabs stick* KICK *** TIME! :twisted: :twisted: :twisted:

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

can i hit this guy with a softball bat also?

1)he screwed up my night before my wedding
2)hes after kyan...and i dont like stalkers...

more please!!!!i cant wait until the next chapter *squeal*!

[tokiohotel26]

can i hit this guy with a softball bat also?

1)he screwed up my night before my wedding
2)hes after kyan...and i dont like stalkers...

more please!!!!i cant wait until the next chapter *squeal*!
well if miss Ich_liebe_bill over there lets us beat his *** then i get the first 20 hits then u can get the next 20.
i get 2 beat his *** first cuz im the crazy tempermental one and i have purple hair!

[xXKillerxQueenXx]

More please!
Post soon(er or later)

[Unknown598]

hazah! today is a new day, called Sunday o.O

*still has stick, ready for *** kickin time*

^_^

[Ich_liebe_bill]

hazah! today is a new day, called Sunday o.O

*still has stick, ready for *** kickin time*

^_^


I have been REALLY sick the last few days....i need to get my thoughts together for this one and then post.

Tomorrow afternoon a new chappie will be up, sorry

[Rejects_Angel]

hazah! today is a new day, called Sunday o.O

*still has stick, ready for *** kickin time*

^_^


I have been REALLY sick the last few days....i need to get my thoughts together for this one and then post.

Tomorrow afternoon a new chappie will be up, sorry


Hope you feel better soon

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Chapter 17: Wedding and Shock

It was the morning of Karissa and Georg&#39;s wedding and everyone was beyond stressed. Amanda took Karissa to the church to oversee things and Georg paced like a caged animal. It wasn&#39;t so much that they didn&#39;t want to get married, they did. It was the fact that Stanley was still not to be found. We had stayed up all night trying to find him or a way he could possibly get in. Tom had pulled me aside a few hours into the search and expressed a new concern. "There is no way he could get in. The doors and windows are locked, there is no evidence of anyone even TRYING to get in. Jessa...I don&#39;t think he exists." It was hard for him to admit this to me, and I felt my stomach tighten at the idea.

I walked back into the living room to break the news to the rest of the group and was amused to find Lexi, Amanda, and Karissa all holding various forms of weapons. Lexi held a bat, Amanda a poker from the fireplace, and Karissa- the most amusing of them all- a loaf of french bread. That had been the night before. Now, we all had plenty to do before the wedding and were rushing around like mad, imaginary Stanley all but gone from our minds. Even Kyan seemed to be in good spirits, commanding caterers around like nobodies business and marching around with a list of everything that needed to be done.

After I ensured everyone was on target, I went to the church and was nearly mobbed by screaming fans. How they had discovered the location so quickly I didn&#39;t know, and after signing a few autographs I managed to push through the crowd and inside to where things were underway. Stopping to scoot a chair over or gently rearrange a flower, I finally made it to the place where the bride was. She was standing in front of a floor-to-ceiling legnth mirror. "Karissa" I breathed. "You look stunning." She flushed red and hugged me, her dress rustling as she did so. "Do you think that this is a good idea, what with Kyan such a mess?" She expressed her concern for our friend. I shook my head. "This is your day. Nothing can ruin that."

Promptly at 2 pm, the church doors opened and guests spilled into the auditorium. There were celebrities everywhere, and it was amazing. Georg stood greeting people looking like a nervous wreck. His groomsmen, all of our boys, ushered people in and sat them down, looking handsome in their custom Tux&#39;s. Finally, it was time to begin. My hair was done and I wore a soft pink silk dress, and I walked down the aisle escorted by Bill, who looked handsome with his hair down and make up done to the T. Then came Lexi and Gustav. Lexi wore the same dress I did, and Gustav was blushing like a mad man at how pretty his fiance looked. Kyan and Tom came next, and I was impressed at how nice Tom looked in a suite. Georg was dancing back and forth like a nervous wreck. Lastly came Amanda escorted by Saki, which was a sight to see all on its own. Standing, everyone looked to see Karissa float down the aisle. It was the most beautiful sight I had ever seen.

Her hair fell around her in ringlets, and she had the perfect balance of make up on, flattering her already stunning features. Her dress tapered out and flowed behind her, and she wore a glittering diamond necklace. Her flowers matched our dresses, and she was definantly a diamond all on her own. Georg&#39;s face lit up and he smiled at her, blushing red at her beauty.

The ceremony was perfect. The kiss was perfect. It was all perfect. For just a little while, we all forgot our troubles and danced into the night.

[Rejects_Angel]

Aww that was so beautiful, a drama free and just happy wedding the way it should be. AHH I love your story!!!

[samijo]

AWWW!!! Sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet! And no drama or Stanley. :D

[tokiohotel26]

awwww....u called me pretty :mrgreen: :cry: it was beautiful!


Lexi held a bat, Amanda a poker from the fireplace, and Karissa- the most amusing of them all- a loaf of french bread.

OMG i died at that part! karissa had a loaf of french bread!
karissa u had a beautiful wedding! have fun on that honeymoon!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

awwww....u called me pretty :mrgreen: :cry: it was beautiful!


Lexi held a bat, Amanda a poker from the fireplace, and Karissa- the most amusing of them all- a loaf of french bread.

OMG i died at that part! karissa had a loaf of french bread!
karissa u had a beautiful wedding! have fun on that honeymoon!


haha....^.^

i had fun writing this chapter. i could almost picture it in my head as i did :D

[LipsOfAnAngel]

AAAWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i got all teary eyed!! mehr bitte!












who's stanley? it's not tom or one of the boys, is it?

[Ich_liebe_bill]

AAAWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i got all teary eyed!! mehr bitte!












who's stanley? it's not tom or one of the boys, is it?


i'm prolly not explaining it well enough O.O

lol...stanley...doesn't exist. its all in her head. she's slowly losing her mind....-sigh-

[tokiohotel26]

awwww....u called me pretty :mrgreen: :cry: it was beautiful!


Lexi held a bat, Amanda a poker from the fireplace, and Karissa- the most amusing of them all- a loaf of french bread.

OMG i died at that part! karissa had a loaf of french bread!
karissa u had a beautiful wedding! have fun on that honeymoon!


haha....^.^

i had fun writing this chapter. i could almost picture it in my head as i did :D
i may sound perverted but did u picture the honeymoon 2? just curious lol :mrgreen:

[Ich_liebe_bill]

hahaha i could write that :)

[tokiohotel26]

yea! SCORE!
wow i sound like a pervert!

anyway me and gustav get the next wedding
[and honeymoon!]
right?

[Unknown598]

good chapter ^_^

and hopes u feels better :mrgreen: :D


8-) *still is an *** kickin mood*

[tokiohotel26]

good chapter ^_^

and hopes u feels better :mrgreen: :D


8-) *still is an *** kickin mood*
u r so not the only one on *** kicking mode! i have my bat ready!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

good chapter ^_^

and hopes u feels better :mrgreen: :D


8-) *still is an *** kickin mood*


lol.

i am feeling a little better, actually <3.

I kind of am too...O.O

[Unknown598]

good chapter ^_^

and hopes u feels better :mrgreen: :D


8-) *still is an *** kickin mood*


lol.

i am feeling a little better, actually <3.

I kind of am too...O.O

yay, thats good ^_^

SALUD!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

yea! SCORE!
wow i sound like a pervert!

anyway me and gustav get the next wedding
[and honeymoon!]
right?


yup. and then Tomi and Kyan. and then Bill and I.

I'm going to write the weddings first, then the honey moons as one chapter.


its going to be hilarious. can't wait.

[tokiohotel26]

yea! SCORE!
wow i sound like a pervert!

anyway me and gustav get the next wedding
[and honeymoon!]
right?


yup. and then Tomi and Kyan. and then Bill and I.

I'm going to write the weddings first, then the honey moons as one chapter.


its going to be hilarious. can't wait.
*claps like bill*
like this ---> http://photobucket.com/image/bill%20kau ... 98.gif?o=1 (http://photobucket.com/image/bill%20kaulitz%20clapping/Celestialyoru/1173533598.gif?o=1)

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

aww...im married...awww...i still cant believe it...of course its in my imagination...dang it! anyways beautiful chapter...i could see myself holding a loaf of bread...since someone took my bat...cant wait for the next chapter!

[TWIXX]

~new reader~
omg this is really good!!!!!!!!!!
i lovee it!!!!!!!!!!!!
i cant believe they was doing drugs!!!!!!
omg is she imgaining stanley????
i hope she haven gone crazy!!!!
awww the all proposesd at the same tym!!!!!!!!
that was soo sweetr!!!!
i hope nuthin bad happens!!!!!!!!
mehr bitte!!!!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

new chappie tomorrow! (sorry its taking me so long to update)

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

its ok i guess....goes and cries :cry:

[Unknown598]

new chappie tomorrow! (sorry its taking me so long to update)


yay ^_^

[Ich_liebe_bill]

Lexi and Gustav were set to be married next. We had staggered the weddings a week apart so that we could all have our pwn separate weddings but manage to have the same honeymoon setting. Lexi was a nervous wreck. Her and Amanda had grown close over the last few months and they spent the days out on the town calming her nerves. I stayed home to handle affairs with Kyan, who grew worse by the day. Tom was growing more nervous and decided to ensure their marriage by conjoining their wedding with Gustav's and Lexi's. He ran it by them late one night about a week before the wedding, and they agreed under the circumstances. Kyan slept more, weary on Tom's shoulder. It seemed every day she slept most of it away, only to wake up and stagger off the tour bus and into the arms of waiting fans. She still played like a dream, and acted like one too in the public eye.

Thank God she had woke up feeling good on the day of her wedding. "Jesse, how do I look?" She was staring at herself in her wedding dress in the mirror. I smiled. It was the first thing she had said to me in a while. "Beautiful." She smiled back at me through the mirror. Then, turning around, she took my hands in hers. "I am so sorry for all of this. I love you, Jesse. Things will change." Her promises sounded hollow but I hugged her and loved her all the same. Lexi came out from the dressing room, looking like a million dollars. She had on the most stunning white gown, untraditional in some ways, but perfect for her. It fell over the shoulders and scooped down in the back, and shimmered as she walked. I hugged her and giggled in her ear. "Do you think Gustav will like it?" She asked, wide-eyed. "Honey, he is going to DIE. Its Beautiful!" She lit up like a thousand suns.

The wedding was just as beautiful as Georg and Karrisa's. The newlyweds could barely tear their eyes from one other as they stood on their perspective sides. I found it adorable and when Bill peered over at me with a wink, I flushed red, knowing our turn was soon to come. Tom and Kyan looked like heaven on earth together. Gustav couldn't stop blushing red the entire time he was standing with Lexi, stammering through his vows and even tearing up a little bit. He truly loved her. They had come a long way from meeting each other shyly in the little bar. The reception was another chance to party hard. Party hard we did. Bill even opted for the dance floor and pulled me close. I loved the feeling of being so near to the boy I loved. It had been hard to find a moment alone with him since Kyan had started to lose it. I began to think that maybe things would start to turn around.

Bill sang to me in my ear for most of the night, and when I looked over at Kyan and Tom, it seemed to me that they were already consummating the marriage right there on the dance floor. THAT was the ornery couple I knew. Gustav was a bit more respectful, but Lexi would have none of it, and pulled him so close I could see him slowly start to lose it, and love it. Karissa wasn't to be found, her and Georg had made a quick exit to their bedroom. Amanda surprised me. She tapped on my shoulder and I turned from Bill a moment. "I think I have an announcement for you." She said, raising an eyebrow. Andreas stood behind her, hand in hers. I raised an eyebrow. He hadn't been around much of late because of schooling, but apparently this hadn't stopped the two of them. Bill thought it was the coolest thing ever, and so did everyone else. I hugged Amanda. "For a minute there I thought you would go for Saki." I whispered in her ear, teasing her. "Gross!" She laughed and then blushed over at Saki, who just winked at her.

Tomorrow would be the start of the last wedding, MY wedding, then we would leave for the Virgin Islands, our destination for our honeymoons. I couldn't wait. One week and counting. I just hoped things could manage to stay normal until then.

[Rejects_Angel]

I love love love love LOVE ur stories. So glad all the weddings went off without ne problems but it kinda makes me wonder if the last 1 will do the same

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

yay! that was really good and worth waiting for! i cant wait until you post next!

[tokiohotel26]

OMG MY WEDDING WAS BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!! IM A HAPPY NEWLYWED!!! YAY! NOW FOR THE LAST WEDDING
[[AND THE HONEYMOONS!!! :mrgreen: :mrgreen: ]]

**** IT! I DO SOUND LIKE A PERV!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

OMG MY WEDDING WAS BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!! IM A HAPPY NEWLYWED!!! YAY! NOW FOR THE LAST WEDDING
[[AND THE HONEYMOONS!!! :mrgreen: :mrgreen: ]]

**** IT! I DO SOUND LIKE A PERV!


lol thats ok ;). you just need to see Twin Tussle. then you can decide who is a perv. :lol: :lol:

[tokiohotel26]

OMG MY WEDDING WAS BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!! IM A HAPPY NEWLYWED!!! YAY! NOW FOR THE LAST WEDDING
[[AND THE HONEYMOONS!!! :mrgreen: :mrgreen: ]]

**** IT! I DO SOUND LIKE A PERV!


lol thats ok ;). you just need to see Twin Tussle. then you can decide who is a perv. :lol: :lol:
oh i have read that...[tee hee hee dirty thoughts :mrgreen:]

[Unknown598]

yay

all is going good with weddings>< yo hates weddings... :twisted:


^_^

[LipsOfAnAngel]

sweet. mehr bitte!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

should i keep writing this? i need feedback.

[tokiohotel26]

yes! u NEED to continue!
in case u didnt catch my drift...
*brings out bat named kiki*
i did not get my honeymoon yet
*growl*
continue!


please :mrgreen:

[Ich_liebe_bill]

yes! u NEED to continue!
in case u didnt catch my drift...
*brings out bat named kiki*
i did not get my honeymoon yet
*growl*
continue!


please :mrgreen:


lol, ok, ok :).

i'll post a new chappie tomorrow when my brain is functioning correctly

[tokiohotel26]

yes! u NEED to continue!
in case u didnt catch my drift...
*brings out bat named kiki*
i did not get my honeymoon yet
*growl*
continue!


please :mrgreen:


lol, ok, ok :).

i'll post a new chappie tomorrow when my brain is functioning correctly
ok good! we understand each other :mrgreen:

[Rejects_Angel]

should i keep writing this? i need feedback.

Do i need to hit u? YES keep writing.....keep writing in every story u have out

[samijo]

Jesse should always keep writing...if she's happy writing. :)

Twinnie loves her. <3

[Rejects_Angel]

Jesse should always keep writing...if she's happy writing. :)

Twinnie loves her. <3

Agreed.......only keep writing if it makes u happy and if u want to. sorry 4 threatening to hit u

[Unknown598]

i agrees, plz keep writing

ill reaad it :mrgreen:


im such an idiot ><

[Ich_liebe_bill]

I stared into the mirror. I was wearing a floor length dress, gathered around the waist, with a pearl necklace and my hair pulled up. I had always had a very low self esteem and suddenly here I was, feeling beautiful. Kyan came up behind me and hugged me, giggling into my ear. She had been doing a lot better since the wedding, though I knew she hadn't stopped using the drugs. Tom knew it too, but he still loved and held onto her with the intensity of any newly wed groom. "You look stunning." "Hunny, you really do." Lexi said, standing next to me. Karissa and Amanda stood in the room as well, and I was so happy to have all my girls around me on my wedding day. Nervous, they led me out of the room and my dad met me at the door to the church sanctuary, hooking my arm in his and preparing to lead me to my own groom. The girls went ahead of me in their brides maid dresses and then it was my turn. Walking nervously down the aisle next to my dad, I saw Bill standing there, hair down and make up on, and I nearly fainted. I was about to marry my other half, the love of my life, and I felt so overwhelmed.

My dad kissed my cheek and winked at Bill, who blushed and took my hands in his.

After a beautiful ceremony, we all slipped off to the airplane, not needing another reception and all talked eagerly as we made our way to the beach, far away from any prying eyes.


Karissa and Georg:

Karissa looked up into Georg's bright eyes, not really quite knowing what else to think other than how incredibly lucky she was. They had met at a concert a few years back, his eyes meeting hers in the front row. He had asked for her number after the show at a meet and greet, and they had been in love ever since. Now married, there was nothing more in life that she loved than this man. He pushed his hair out of his eyes and kissed her nose gently, making her giggle. The plane was landing, and they both sat up and gathered their things in the laps. Once landed and off the plane, Georg snatched away her things and slammed it into the back of the rental car before practically diving into the drivers seat and making her giggle.

They made it to the hotel without attacking each other and Georg left the bags in the car, almost forgetting to check in as they clung to each other. Once in the elevator, Georg swooped her up into his arms and nuzzled her neck. Karissa felt intoxicated and sighed into his shoulder. So in love. She didn't want it any other way. Setting her down in front of the door, h slid the key card in and the light turned green. The door slammed shut behind them and their lips met, her breath coming harder and her entire body shivering. It was their honey moon, and though they had been married almost a month, it was like the first marriage night all over again. Georg pulled her to him and pushed her back onto the bed, their bodies meeting in a beautiful collision. Clothes went everywhere and they disappeared under the sheets.


Lexi and Gustav

Gustav was always a bit more shy than Lexi, and he was trying to keep a serious face the entire way to the hotel. He kept his eyes strait ahead and chewed on his lip while she put her hands in places they didn't belong. At the hotel, he battered her off to check in and sprinted ahead of her, teasing her and trying to avoid a public display of affection. She laughed and beat him there up the elevator. She ran to their room, opened the door, slamming it behind her and giggling, collapsing against the door a moment, before catching her breath and jumping up, running to the bathroom, dropping her duffel bag and slipping out of her jeans and T into a teddy she had bought when Gustav wasn't around. She heard the door open and close softly and she stepped out of the bathroom, leaning up against the wall and raising her eyebrows at the flushed boy. His mouth opened and closed and he dropped his things, forgetting himself and pulling her to him.

He nibbled on her neck a a moment, leaving her breathless, before she pulled him to the bed and he forgot his shyness completely and pulled his shirt over his head, breathing into her hair as he did so. She pulled him next to her on the bed with her and their legs intertwined, their noses touched and they lost themselves in each other. Their love was expressed without words, something only true love can reside in.


Bill and I

Bill was ready to take me on the plane. He had waited so long for the one, and now that he had her...me, even, he was done waiting around. His lips did not leave my ear even for a moment the entire plane ride, and I had to drive to the hotel because he was much to distracted by myself and himself. I laughed as he dropped the key several times and I took it from him and slipped it into the lock and then opened the door wide, letting him in first and then closing the door behind me. He nearly threw everything across the room in his excitement and dragged me by my hoodie sleeve to the bed, taking it off as he went. His tongue parted my lips before I could do anything. I shivered all over and kissed him back.

I loved this boy more than anything, and it took me a moment to really realize he was mine forever. I worried a little bit about how this would change his career but his brown eyes looking into mine changed that.


Tom and Kyan

Tom lifted Kyan gently from the car and carried her slowly up the stars after getting their key card. He ignored everything, and looked into the eyes of the one he loved. She was shaking a little, sick and tired, but she was smiling softly up into his face and he lay her down on the bed gently, kissing her forehead and lying down next to her, snuggling close. For once he felt himself not caring about sex and just wanting to hold his girl in his arms and never ever let go. "Tomi, I am scared." She whispered. He pulled her closer and she whimpered into his shoulder.

Kyan woke up a few hours later, Tom breathing heavily into the pillow above her head. She looked around the dimly lit room and saw him. Curling up closely against Tom, she gasped and watched him walk across the room. Stanley. Tom awoke and held her tightly. "Whats wrong, baby?" He mumbled. "He is here." She barely spoke. Tom sat up and looked around. "Where?!" He asked, alarmed, throwing back the sheets. "He is standing right next to the bed!" She cried, looking at him, confused. [b]"Where, I don't see him." Tom's voice dropped and he looked over at Kyan, worried. Frustrated, Kyan stood and backed away, towards the door. "He is there, why can't anyone believe me?!" Her tears shown on her face, and she whirled around, threw open the door and disappeared. Tom yelled after her, and lept from the bed to chase after her. She was gone.


[b]Again.

[samijo]

Oh my. Poor Kyan. And Poor Tom.


But yea everybody else!!! :D Happy honeymoons. I LOVED this chappie!

[Rejects_Angel]

OMG I love you and at the same time I HATE you for stopping right there. I really can't wait to find out wats up with this whole stanley/kyan seeing things thing going on.

[tokiohotel26]

very sad for kyan and tom :(

but for me [and averyone else]...OMG!!!! i finally get my beautiful honeymoon.
hee hee gusti. dirty dirty boy billi. :lol:

now...if u ever decide to get me preggers...
for a boy i want him to be named Trace
for a girl i want her to be named Katrina

just a suggestion :mrgreen:

[LipsOfAnAngel]

holy *****! mehr bitte!

[Unknown598]

i think my face went from ;) to 8-) to :shock:

now its :mrgreen: :mrgreen: for some reason...

that was really good

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

aww... poor kylan...where did she go?

[Ich_liebe_bill]

(Tom)

It was a time not to bother his friends. It was their honey moons and he knew that this just had to be between Kyan and him. He ran after her, following his heart that was also hers. He ran down the shoreline, free to scream her name without those they loved hearing and coming. It was dark still and he felt his eyes sting with tears. He couldn&#39;t see, couldn&#39;t hear anything over the roar of the ocean in his ears, and after an exhausting search, he collapsed in the sand, panting and crying and breathing hard. If only Bill could feel his pain. Maybe he was. Though love is blinding, and even twin intuition can be dulled by the passion of a lovers touch.

Taking a moment to clear his head and pull himself together, Tom looked up at the sky. The sun was just beginning to rise over the ocean, and everything was pink and orange and beautiful. Like his love for this girl had taken fame and fallen apart. He thought about calling me, but changed his mind, something he later told me. He felt sad and guilty and strangely at peace all at once. As if it was an automatic comfort for him, he began to mentally play the chords of "In Die Nacht" in his head. He stood slowly, his body feeling achy and tired in the sand, and he walked sluggishly in a direction he thought maybe he hadn&#39;t been yet. The strange feeling of drowsiness made trying to find his new wife harder, but he pressed on.

(Bill and I)

After a long, wonderful night, I woke up and slipped from the gentle grip of my Bill and put a pot of tea on for us in the little hotel kitchen. He started to whimper in his sleep and I went over and smoothed his hair, trying to calm him. He opened his eyes and it seemed but a moment he was crying softly in my lap. I felt sick with worry for him but just held him close. After a moment, he looked up into my eyes. "Tom." He whispered his brothers name, before burying his head deeper into my lap and falling into a weary sleep. I couldn&#39;t move, but I was now so worried that I reached for my phone and started texting Tom, and called him a few times. He didn&#39;t answer either. I tried Kyan, but her phone was off. Bill woke up an hour later, a bit calmer, but when I told him what I had done, the worry in his eyes mirrored mine.

(Tom)

The sun was up now and he knew he couldn&#39;t avoid us forever. He just wanted to give it a little bit longer. Walking up on a deck that was far away from anything and everyone, he stood near the edge, letting the sea air hit his face. Heaving a sigh, he leaned down and rested his head in his hands, staring down at the beach far below. Then, suddenly, he saw her. Or what he thought was her. She was lying on her back, knees bent. There was an acoustic guitar clutched to her chest and a million white papers strewn around her. He shot from the deck down the steps to her side. When she didn&#39;t respond, he threw the guitar to the side and pulled her into his arms.

(Bill and I)

Bill sat up. He clenched his stomach and flew to the bathroom. I could hear him losing his breakfast and ran to the bathroom. After brushing his teeth quickly, he grabbed my hand and raced down the stairs and out onto the beach. I was begging him to explain to me what was going on, but he just stood silently, looking around, breathing hard. I stopped talking, and he eased a moment. "Its Tom again." He said after a moment, and then made a decision and took off again. Following behind the best I could, we ended up on the beach and in the middle of nowhere. Bill disappeared around the corner and I followed behind, finding myself nearly colliding with Bill. "What-?" "Shhh, baby." He whispered. One tear slid down his cheek. I looked around his tall figure and saw Tom holding a motionless Kyan.



Tom looked up at us after a moment, his face streaked with tears. He had been holding her for awhile now, even though he knew the truth, he just couldn&#39;t let go. I rushed to his side even as Bill tried to hold me back and fell to my knees. "What happened?" I cried, stroking my best friends hair. "She just...couldn&#39;t handle it." Tom whispered. "We have to get her to the hospital!" I said, whipping out my cell phone and starting to dial emergency. "Nein. She...she is gone." Tom said, pulling her closer and kissing her head. I dropped the phone and felt the tears slipping down my cheeks. Bill put his arms around me from behind and pulled me up as I cried against his chest. I felt a hand on my shoulder and turned to find Tom holding something out to me, looking bewildered.

(Later)


Breaking the news to everyone was the hardest thing I ever had to do. Lexi and Amanda sat in each others arms crying and Georg and Gustav both stood in shock. Tom was handling it surprisingly well for the circumstances. Bill took care of the funeral arrangements while we handled the shock. One night, a few days after we came home from the beach, Tom pulled me aside. We sat in his quiet apartment. I didn&#39;t know how he could possibly handling himself. Putting my hand on his arm, I looked him in the eyes. "Are you ok?" I asked, genuinely worried. "Can&#39;t say I have been worse." He replied. "But this eases it." He said softly. Holding up the stack of music that he had picked up off the beach, he placed it in my hands. "I have never seen anything quite like it." He said it reverently. I flipped through the pages that had been arranged with care. My eyes grew wider. The jumble of music we had found was now something I never knew hid in my best friends mind.

(Concert)

Our first concert was a hard one. The stage was lonely without Kyan. Then, the last song came. Feeling peace come over me, I knew my best friend was there on stage with me as Lexi left the stage and Tom appeared, and though the fans were depressed about Kyan, they still gave him the welcome any fan of our tours would have. Sitting down on a stool next to me with his guitar, he reached over and squeezed my hand. Sniffling, I squeezed his in return and turned to the crowd, speaking into my beloved mic.

"I know the news of my best friend and band mate Kyan&#39;s passing has been hard on everyone. There is something she left us, though."

Tom began to play the most beautiful sounds I had ever heard. Tears flowing, I could just feel her arms around me, loving me. The Kyan I knew.

Part of me sees the night
The person inside,
the sickly mind.
The real bird flew long ago
Left a skeleton, something from a dream

The needle feeds the desire
But love feeds life
Its all over.
She exhales.

The rear view mirror is her life
Love In hindsight,
The boy and his smile.
She finds herself in cold blood,
Love in hindsight,
The girl and her eyes.

Touch like a drug inside,
Prick my skin,
She can&#39;t see.
Freedom lost with a second moment
Left a reality, oh it doesn&#39;t exist

The needle fills the void,
But his heart,
Not there.
She exhales.

The rear view mirror is her life
Love In hindsight,
The boy and his smile.
She finds herself in cold blood,
Love in hindsight,
The girl and her eyes.

Envelope me,
Enable me.

People like Kyan are hard to come by. Loyal, stubborn, talented, and extremely driven. She is just a small thing, a few inches shorter than I, though I stand in her shadow and feel small in comparison for the reason that she brings more life and reason to me than I will ever understand. She is my best friend, and the reason that I can say that I have any desire in my heart to do what I was made for. To do what we are both made for.

The End

[samijo]

:shock:

I think my heart hurts a little.




But it was beautiful. Like...wow. I could never write something this precious. *applaudes wildly*


*and cries*

[snowwhitecqueen]

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG! that was ****ing amazing

that is how i want to go!!!!

[Rejects_Angel]

wow wow and wow. Man u could write a book with the talent u have like a real real book.

that was heartbreaking

[Ich_liebe_bill]

wow wow and wow. Man u could write a book with the talent u have like a real real book.

that was heartbreaking


omg, danke -blushes-

i want to some day

[Rejects_Angel]

wow wow and wow. Man u could write a book with the talent u have like a real real book.

that was heartbreaking


omg, danke -blushes-

i want to some day

I'd be in line to buy it

[Ich_liebe_bill]

0.0 -runs off to write novel-

[LipsOfAnAngel]

wow..... that was soo sad. amazing. i can't believe she died. my eyes hurt.

[tokiohotel26]

omg...that made me cry

:cry:

[xXKillerxQueenXx]

Aww.
I cried a bit while reading that.

[Mr.G.L+Ms.K.S]

that was so good! i loved it!

[Ich_liebe_bill]

that was so good! i loved it!


danke!!! :)

[Unknown598]

that was simply amazing ^_^

my eyes were all watery *wipes eyes*

http://i320.photobucket.com/albums/nn357/Loesliebtbill/Clapping-Happy.gif

^_^ :mrgreen: :D

[Ich_liebe_bill]

that was simply amazing ^_^

my eyes were all watery *wipes eyes*

http://i320.photobucket.com/albums/nn357/Loesliebtbill/Clapping-Happy.gif

^_^ :mrgreen: :D


danke! and love the GIF HAHA

[CaitlinCatastrophe]

wow
that was the best thing
i have ever read.

[Ich_liebe_bill]

wow
that was the best thing
i have ever read.


omg, really???


danke :shock:

[Ich_liebe_bill]

I feel the need to bump this, for new users. This was my first FF, and if you are a fan of my writing, I'd really like you to read this and tell me what you think.

[blackmoon91892]

ok you know what?

if it makes me cry, it gets bumped.

and it made me cry. hard.

and i cheated and read the recap in Hindisght Revisited!


*looks down and kicks Jesse*


I WANTED TO BUMP IT!


edit: oops you posted that two days ago...

[Ich_liebe_bill]

;)


its okay, an extra bump can't hurt.

I hope a lot more people read this, I've never been so proud of a work of mine before and I write...a lot.


edit: i made you cry? o.O

idk if that is good or bad! lol

[tarnished-memory]

>_< Chibi cried reading it too.

I love/hate/love you Jesse.

[D.C.Valentine]

Brilliant.

Absoulutely brilliant.

Quite possibly the best I've seen since Sierra's own greatness.

It's the tragedy I've always wanted, but no one has given.

Ariel and Chibi: You two are babies. I never shed a tear.

-DCV-