How Do I Live Without You? (new fanfic)

[iLoveTomKaulitz4ever]

Chapter 1:
"All passengers going to Hamburg, Germany, please go through the security gate." boomed the voice coming from the loudspeaker. Bill, Tom, Georg, Gustav, and Andreas walked toward the security gate. Andreas went first. He was cleared. Next, it was Gustav. Clear. Then Georg, followed by Bill. They were both clear. Now it came Tom's turn. As he went through the security gate, the guard stopped him.
"Hold it right there." said the tall security guard. Bill, Gustav, Georg, and Andreas looked on bewildered. Tom just stood there, a look of confusion on his face. Two security guards came up and took Tom's suitcases. Another one came up to him and asked him to remove his extra larger hoody and everything from his pockets.
Meanwhile, Bill went up to the guard who was watching it all. "What's wrong?" asked Bill. He waited patiently for an answer, even though he was nervous for Tom.
"We're checking him for drugs." said the security guard.
"Drugs?!" gasped Bill.
Andreas and the rest of the band looked on, their jaws almost hitting the ground.
"Are you kidding? He would never do drugs!" reassured Bill.
"Look, this is just a precaution. We think he might be smuggling drugs into the country." said the guard.
"Well, it sounds like somebody is judgemental." Bill said as walking back to the group.
After a few minutes, the two securty guards walked back with Tom's suitcases. "They're clear. We only found clothes, hats, and over 100 condoms." stated the security guard. Bill was speechless, his eyes wide open. Tom, his face red as a tomato, tried to hide his embarassment. Georg, Gustav, and Andreas stiffled a few laughs.
"Busy much?" asked Georg.
"We'll talk later." said Bill, with a serious tone in his voice.

Chapter 2:
So now that the band was home, all they wanted to do was relax. Bill and Tom were home at the apartment whle Georg and Gustav were visiting family.
Bill was in the living room playing video games. Tom peeked around the corner. "Pizza's here if you want some. Come get it while it's still hot." Tom said. Bill continued playing video games, not even looking up. Tom sighed, then left the room. Bill was hungry, so he put down the controller and headed towards the dining room.
Tom was already there, eating a slice of extra cheese pizza. Bill went to the refridgerator and got a coca cola and sat down and went for the pizza.
"Is anything wrong? You're giving me one of those looks." said Tom.
"Oh I think you know what's wrong." Bill said matter of factly.
"Is it because of what happened today?" Tom asked while eating his pizza. Bill continued chewing, not saying a word.
"You can't hate me because of that." Tom said while grabbing another slice of pizza.
"Who said I hated you? I'm just disappointed and kinda mad." Bill said.
"Why" asked Tom.
"Why?" said Bill, mocking Tom. "Tom, they had to check you for drugs! They accused you of smuggling drugs into the country! yelled Bill.
"But-" Tom never got tot finish his sentence. He was interuppted by Bill.
"Not only did they check you for drugs, but they found over 100 condoms instead." Bill said. Tom looked down, embarassed.
"The media's going to have a field day with this one, aren't they?" Bill said with a sarcastic tone in his voice.
"Why are you making such a big deal out of this?" asked Tom, now annoyed.
"Because I care about our band. Do you want to ruin our reputation? Do you want to ruin this band?" Bill asked, now yelling.
"You know what?" Tom said as slamming down his coca cola, "I'm out of here." He pushed back his chair and got up fron the table. He found the keys to his Cadilac Escalade and left, slamming the door behind him.
Bill, who noticed he only took a few bites from his pizza, realized he wasn't hungry anymore. He threw his pizza away, disgusted. He took the box of leftover pizza and put in the fridge.
Looking at the clock, he noticed it was 8 o' clock. He was tired. He turned off the light and made his way to his bedroom. He knew Tom would eventually return. He would probaly only hook up with some girl he found.

Sorry if you think it's too short. I'll post more if guys like it!!

[tokiohotel26]

:lol: :lol: :lol: :lol:

over 100 condoms!

continue pwease!

[Bill Kaulitz=Love]

This story is good, but I have a question. Is this a twincest story, or just them being brothers looking out for each other?

[tokiohotel26]

yea i was wondering that too cuz when u write it, it seems that way when bill got mad :?

[iLoveTomKaulitz4ever]

NO twincest!! I don't really like twincest. Bascially, the story has nothing to do with twincest. And I'd be happy to continue! :D

[tokiohotel26]

:mrgreen: YAY!

i really dont like twincest either. its kinda creepy. but i do have those rare occasions where i do enjoy it

[Unknown598]

i find twincest one of the most gross things in the world *icky

yo LOVES yaoi though ^^

100 condoms, i was laughing so hard omg

*quielty lmaoing ...

[iLoveTomKaulitz4ever]

Chapter 3:

Bill was awoken by the sound of the telephone ringing. He rolled over and looked at the clock. 11:26 pm. Who would be calling him at this time? He rolled back over, hoping whoever it was would leave a message. If they didn't,then they obviously didn't have anything good to say.
The last ring. Bill waited for the message. Bill was not expecting what he heard. "Bill, answer the phone!" a frantic Andreas said. Bill arose from his bed and went to the phone. "Bill, answer the-"
"What is it Andreas?" a nervous Bill asked.
"It's Tom, he's not okay." said Andreas.
"What do you mean?" Bill asked while going to Tom's room. He wasn't there. Now, Bill was pacing up and down the hallway, nervous.
"He's been in an accident, a car accident." said Andreas.
"Well, how bad is he?" asked Bill, who was now sitting down at the dining room table, looking at Tom's coca cola. It was still sitting there, right where Tom left it, hours ago.
"He's not good. Doctors fear he might go into a coma." said Andreas. Bill on the other line was speechless.
"I'm coming to pick you up, Bill. I'll be there in ten minutes." Andreas said.
"Ok." Bill said flatly. He hung up the phone. Bill just sat there for a few minutes taking it all in.
"Oh my god, this is all my fault." Bill thought. He started crying.
"Stop crying and go get dressed." he told himself. And with that, he got up and got dressed, preparing himself for anything.
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In the car, Andreas told Bill everything. Tom was hit by a drunk driver going 75 miles per hour as he was coming from visiting a friend. He had no time swerve away from the oncoming car. He was hit head on.
The Escalade was totaled. It was hit so hard that ot actually flipped over a few times. Tom hit his head, pretty hard. That resulted in a severe concussion. Other than that, he had a few cuts and bruises, a sprained wrist, and a collapsed lung.
Bill took it in, only crying out loud a few times.
"This is all my fault!" cried Bill as they were entering the hospital.
"How could this all be your fault?" asked Andreas.
Bill started to explain what happened after the airport incident. "Tom noticed I was mad at him and asked why. I told him that I was mad and disappointed about how he was searched for drugs but they found condoms instead. I totally freaked out on him and he left without telling me where he was going." By the time Bill was finished telling Andreas, he was sobbing uncontrollably.
"Look, this is not your fault. Anything could have happened." Andreas said, trying to comfort Bill. He still didn't feel better.
"Now, let's go see how Tom is doing." Andreas said.


Chapter 4:

Bill and Andreas entered Tom's room. It was worse then what Bill expected. Tom's lifeless body laid there on the bed. His trademark cap, gone. His baggy clothes replaced with a hospital gown. No color in his face whatsoever.
He was on life support. He had a breathing tube down his throat. This was too much for Bill. He immediately started crying. "This is too much for me." cried Bill. He then left the room, going to the nearest waiting room.
He sat down on the couch and sobbed. Andreas came into the room, but Bill told him to go away.
"Andreas, just go! Go, stay with Tom. He doesn't need me, this is all my fault! Just leave me alone!" cried Bill.
"Bill, this isn't your fault!" pleaded Andreas.
"GO AWAY ANDREAS!" yelled Bill.
"Ok Bill." Andreas didn't feel like fighting back anymore.
Meanwhile, Bill contained himself enough to call Gustav. Bill dialed Gustav's cell number. He hoped he would answer his phone this late at night. He picked up.
"Bill, this better be important. a groggy voice said on the other line.
"It's Tom, he's been in a car accident. He's not doing very well." a calm Bill said.
"Oh. Well, I'm coming to the hospital right away." said Gustav.
"No. You're with family, stay with them." Bill said.
"Bill, I'm coming. My family will understand." reassured Gustav.
"Ok fine." surrendered Bill. "But could you call Georg and tell him?" asked Bill.
"No problem." said Gustav.
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It was now almost 2am. Bill, Andreas, Simone, Gustav, and Georg were at the hospital. Gustav called Georg who also insisted that he come to the hospital. Bill called Simone and told her. They were all in the waiting room, sitting, silently waiting for what the doctor had to say.
"Bill, you should really go home." Simone said.
"No, mom. I'm fine. Really. said Bill. Bill wasn't ok. He was still blaming himself for everything that had happened.
"Bill, I know you're taking this the hardest. Andreas told me how you're blaming all this on yourself. You're not to blame. Now please let Andreas take you home." Simone pleaded.
"Mom, I have to stay. I have to wait for what the doctors have to say." begged Bill.
"If anythings happens, I'll call you. Now go home." said Simone.
"Ok, fine!" Bill said, giving up. He just hoped Tom wouldn't give up.

[Unknown598]

O.O


DONT ****ING DIE **** IT!!!!


sorry for that language...

[iLoveTomKaulitz4ever]

O.O


DONT fluff DIE **** IT!!!!


sorry for that language...

I take it that you want more?

[Unknown598]

O.O


DONT fluff DIE **** IT!!!!


sorry for that language...

I take it that you want more?

*nod*nod*

[iLoveTomKaulitz4ever]

O.O


DONT fluff DIE **** IT!!!!


sorry for that language...

I take it that you want more?

*nod*nod*
Sure, no problem! :D

[Unknown598]

*wiggle*wiggle*


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*idiot dance*

[tokiohotel26]

O.O


DONT fluff DIE **** IT!!!!


sorry for that language...

I take it that you want more?
**** SKIPPY! :mrgreen:


*wiggle*wiggle*


_______________


*idiot dance*

*idiot dances with unknown598*

[Bill Kaulitz=Love]

Yay, no twincest! Oh no, Tom's going into a coma! WRITE MORE, AND GIVE TOM HIS BAGGY CLOTHES AND CAP BACK!

[iLoveTomKaulitz4ever]

Chapter 5:

Bill awoke the next day at 12pm. As he lay there in bed, he thought about everything that had happened.
"Tom is the hospital, because of me. He might not make it and it's all my fault." Bill thought. He started crying.
He got out of bed and went to the bathroom. He looked at himself in the mirror. He was a disaster. No makeup. HIs hair was allover. He figured he'd stay like that because as a band, Tokio Hotel wouldn't be making any public appearances any time soon without their loved guitarist, Tom.
Bill made his way to the kitchen. There, he saw Tom coca cola, still sitting there from the night before. Again, he started crying wondering if Tom would ever enjoy his favorite soda again. But he stopped crying when he saw a note from Simone.
Bill, Just wanted to come check on you, but you're still sleeping. I'll let you sleep. The doctors think that if Tom were to live, he'd be brain damaged or suffer from amnesia. He hasn't improved. So, I made the decision to take him off the life support. Please accept this. So, come say your good byes to your brother. It would mean a lot to him. I'll be at the hospital all day, so if you need me, that's where I'll be. Love, Simone.
Bill started crying all over again. He figured he'd better go to the hospital. So, he took a shower, then got dressed. It was a nice day outside, so he decided to walk to the hospital, which wasn't that far from the apartment.
On the way to the hospital, Bill thought. He thought about how important Tom was to him and how much he would miss him. "Tom completes me. I don't know what I'd do without him. I would probably be depressed. I definitly know I wouldn't be the same." Bill told himself. He tried not to cry as he was thinking of this.
When he got to the hospital, Gustav, Georg, Simone, and Andreas were already there. Georg and Gustav must have already said their good byes, for their eyes were all puffy and red. Andreas was in saying good bye.
"Hi mom." said Bill.
"Hey." she replied. "How are you?"
"Ok." said Bill.
Andreas came out sniffling."Are you going to say good bye?" asked Simone.
"Yeah." Bill answered holding back tears. He walked into the room, closing the door behind him.
"Hi Tom." Bill said quietly. "You probably can't hear me, but what I have to say is important." Bill grabbed Tom's hand, then continued talking.
"I really love you. And I'm sorry I freaked out on you about the whole airport incident. If I didn't, we wouldn't be here right now. This is all my fault." Bill was beggining to cry, but he stopped himself. He stil had more to say. He never let go of Tom's hand.
"I hope someday you can forgive me. I really am sorry, please forgive me. But just do me one favor though. Wait for me in heaven." After that Bill started crying. This time he couldn't stop himself. He knew he shouldn't cry. Tom was going to a better place.
"I have something for you." said Bill. And with that, he started singing the chorus to "Sacred".
"Remember, to me you'll be forever sacred. I'm dying but I know I know our love will live. Your hand above, like a dove, over me. Remember, to me you'll be forever sacred."[ sang Bill. He became too overwhelmed and started crying. He tried to hide his sobs. He let go of Tom's hand and bent down to kiss his forehead.
"I love you brother. Good bye." Bill said while crying. Bill took one last look at his brother before leaving the room. He noticed his eyes fluttering, trying to stay open.
"Tom!" Bill said. "Can you hear me?"
"Bill, is that you?" asked Tom in a groggy voice.
"Tom. stay awake, ok?" I'm going to get mom!" Bill said, a smile forming on his face. A smile was forming on Tom's face too.
Bill ran from the room and right to Simone.
"Mom, Tom's awake! He remembers me!"

[Unknown598]

:shock:


OMFG

[iLoveTomKaulitz4ever]

:shock:


OMFG

Well said!

[Unknown598]

*slap self*

what happens to Tom?!

...

o.o


*dies*

[iLoveTomKaulitz4ever]

*slap self*

what happens to Tom?!

...

o.o


*dies*

Well he wakes up, duh. I could write an epilouge if you want me to?

[Bill Kaulitz=Love]

OMG HE LIVES WITHOUT PROBLEMS! OH, SIMONE YOU HAVE NO HEART!

[iLoveTomKaulitz4ever]

OMG HE LIVES WITHOUT PROBLEMS! OH, SIMONE YOU HAVE NO HEART!
Well, nobody really knows for sure. It's not decided whether he lives without problems. Except for me. BUT to make it more clear for everybody I could write an epilouge. :D

[Unknown598]

dondé esta epiloge? uno por favor?


NEIN! .... ^^

[iLoveTomKaulitz4ever]

dondé esta epiloge? uno por favor?


NEIN! .... ^^

Nein? No epilouge?

[Unknown598]

i never said nein!!

*hits self*


:mrgreen:

[iLoveTomKaulitz4ever]

i never said nein!!

*hits self*


:mrgreen:
Oh!! Well, sorry! My spanish isn't the best!

[Bill Kaulitz=Love]

Nein is German... :lol:

[iLoveTomKaulitz4ever]

Nein is German... :lol:

Wow, you must really think I'm stupid. I know nein is german. Its just the sentence before nein was in spanish. Something with donde.

[Unknown598]

its all my fault ><


lo siento!! im sorry ><

[iLoveTomKaulitz4ever]

its all my fault ><


lo siento!! im sorry ><
No problem!

[Unknown598]

*plays some awesome music*

:mrgreen:

[iLoveTomKaulitz4ever]

I promise soon I'll write an epilouge! :D

[mandieluvsth4ever]

omgosh i love it !

[iLoveTomKaulitz4ever]

omgosh i love it !
Thank you! I knoww I promised you guys an epilouge! I'll get to it, don't worry!!!!!! I've just been really busy! And mandieluvsth4ever, I couldn't help and notice your signature. Have fun at the concert in NJ!!! I was going, but I can't now! Have fun!

[mandieluvsth4ever]

omgosh i love it !
Thank you! I knoww I promised you guys an epilouge! I'll get to it, don't worry!!!!!! I've just been really busy! And mandieluvsth4ever, I couldn't help and notice your signature. Have fun at the concert in NJ!!! I was going, but I can't now! Have fun!


aw . thax. :)

and im sorry u cant go. :[

[iLoveTomKaulitz4ever]

omgosh i love it !
Thank you! I knoww I promised you guys an epilouge! I'll get to it, don't worry!!!!!! I've just been really busy! And mandieluvsth4ever, I couldn't help and notice your signature. Have fun at the concert in NJ!!! I was going, but I can't now! Have fun!


aw . thax. :)

and im sorry u cant go. :[
Aww, that's ok. Another chance will come for me. You just have fun at the concert!

[iLoveTomKaulitz4ever]

K, the epilouge will be posted in maybe an hour.